Meet up with Csabi

 

A real french waterproof jacket for £25!!!

London Eye.

The Royal Courts of Justice

Woah, this tea company.
That chinese sculpture tho.
STYLO.

He says he wants to be badass. HAHHAA

Polish sausage. 

/// A day out with Csaba ///

Felt like this might be our last/ second last chance to meet up, so
it's a little sad. We went to Old Spitalfields Market around Liverpool Street Station.
Kind of like a craft + apparel market. Got some designer crafts, clothing stores there.
Of course restaurants and cafe. This is where Csaba found his favourite jacket.
It's a French Army jacket, waterproof! Check the photos!
He's super proud of this jacket now, AHHAHAA!!!
We kind of explored a small part of somewhere around Temple Station in London.
This is where we found the Royal Courts of Justice. Nice nice building.
And we found some nice pubs!

Before meeting him I don't really know where is Hungary.
See, fail malaysian geography education.
He introduced me some good hungarian and polish food, so i bought this Polish sausage to try.
I tried one Hungarian dry paprika sausage before, wow, so awesome.
It taste really good when I add in with my scramble egg!
He made me a meal that day, with pickles and mash potatoes!
Really good, its a paprika pork stew. :D

Update

So....I broke up with my boyfriend. 

It happened quite long ago, I just didn't want to talk about it.

3 and a half years relationship ended peacefully.

No cold war no nothing, ended without arguments.

We are now friends :)

Studying in UK made me realised that there's so many things

can beat up your confidence, stir your mind and trust.

I didn't expect this ending honestly. 

I was so so confident with this relationship before coming to UK.

I guess it's mostly my problem.

Coming here actually gave me an opportunity to reevaluate myself and my life goals.

Lots of things happened here, lots of emotions, lots of love, lots of stress, sadness and disappointments.

+ and -

There's many important things need to be done for both of us.

Relationship is dragging us down. But it's alright, we are both free now.

To focus on studies and work, or maybe more. 

I am actually pretty fed up with relationships at this moment.

Met lots of people, seemed convincing, but seriously I can say I judged them wrongly.

Nobody wants to be serious. But it's okay, I am going back to Malaysia next week.

Finding someone who can love you unconditionally is harder than I thought.

Hmm, but yeah. It's already hard enough to find someone who thinks that you are interesting 

and willing to contact you for a long period, knowing you more and deeper.

Sigh, I guess my 缘 ended? 

I do hope I got a chance to work here, seriously, really really want to get a job here.

After meeting more people, I came to realise you can actually tell who is interested in you and who's not.

Isn't it obvious? One will have this urge to find out more about someone if one's interested in him/her. 

This desperate urge to know more and deep about someone, more more more.

*stalker mode on.*

Right? Never mind.

I think human communication is really really important.

This few months I think I kind of know I failed to communicate with certain people,

perhaps that's why I didn't really want to talk to many people or have 

any relationships that early. I seriously cannot understand some human beings. 

I tried so hard to communicate but it didn't work out. 

No 缘 at all. 

Unfriend/ deleting someone is a big deal to me.

Once you got deleted by someone, it's really hard to gain trust on that person again. Geez.

I never unfriend someone, or delete someone on skype unless they crossed my borderline.

(those horny desperate rude people)

But it's okay, you cannot please everyone. Not everyone cherish your friendship.

Perhaps it's a good thing to know who doesn't care about your friendship ASAP before

putting lots of lots of effort and trust in him/her. 

缘 , where are you. 

Maybe you're there but I didn't notice.

顺其自然吧。 

Wet

As usual, London is always windy, cloudy and rainy.
Luckily I got an umbrella.
This rainy weather kind of got me into a moody mood..
Maybe because I know I cannot stay longer :')

Drama pub

So I went to a pub nearby today with Feline.

We were planning to eat dinner there but sadly the kitchen closes at 6pm,

but no luck, so we got ourself some drinks, chit chat.

Then 2 married guy came to approach us.

Here comes the story.
Let me summarise :


Character :

Fatty - married man 1
Ricky - married man 2
Sammy - married man 1's father in law

Trevor - A black dude working in our UNI who loves Pulau Langkawi
Colum - A 30 year old Irish man working in London
Cigar dude - A funny guy who has a cigarette on his ear
A mother and son - A frequent customer


PLOT :

Fatty and Ricky were there before we came, pretty sure they are drunk.
Fatty came because of his wife gave him permission to enjoy time with his
father in law, Sammy. So Fatty and Ricky started to talk to us.
Then whatever, we just layan, since we are not locals we are trying to be nice.
Ricky kept on bugging me. Seriously so annoying.
His wife came to dig him out in the end, so he left. His wife is damnnnn mad I can tell.
Luckily I wasn't with him that time.

But this fatty is even worse, he stayed until the pub closes, keep on trying to
bug me and Feline. While all his friends were gone, he came to talk to us second round.
My eyes are rolling, keep on looking at some other place, ignoring all his compliments.
Trying to send signal to the irish dude and Cigar dude, asking him to help us out.
Because this dude, NEVER LET US GO.
Finally the Cigar dude came with 2 friends, trying to shoo this guy away.
Damn so nice. So these young man kind of like protecting us until this dude went to get
a second drink. He even walked to him questioning him what he wants from us.
Not only these young dude questioned him, a young man(with his mother) too asked him to be polite.
Feline told me this fatty was pretty rude to this young man so the mother gone mad and kind of
quarrelled with him as well. Geez.
Then Trevor invite me and feline to his side with Colum to keep this fatty away.
So the pub closed, a few guys and all of the people who's helping us went outside,
and question him until he go away.
The fatty almost got into a fight with some of the guys there. seriously.
Trevor and Colum walked me and feline home, very gentleman.
This fatty stopped following until Colum stared him in the eyes, looking at him in a
super close distance, releasing the gangsta aura.
Well Colum is tall and tough, and this married dude is short and ... so he went off himself.
Holy shit me and feline was like wooooow........... HOU MAN AH!!!!!!!!!


Extra :

Feline said this fat dude told her outside the pub that they are quarrelling because of
her. He is trying to hook up with her. -_- Calling her chinese bird. RUDE SHIT!!!!!

He broke a few glasses in 3 hours, spilled his drinks for 3 times too.

Ricky touched ma ass and I stared at him warning him please don't do that.
Ricky also showed me £100 pounds cash, asking me can I earn this much money back in
my country for an hour. I was so offended and i said what are you trying to do, I am not a hooker.

I questioned fatty do you still love your wife, he said no, he only loves his daughter. He's with
his wife for 10 years, married for 6 years. And in the end he didn't even say something nice
about his wife. Disgusting person, unfaithful husband. I was so pissed. No, feline too.

Colum, the Irish dude, got some sexy ass irish accent. He introduced me drinks few days ago.
And he remembered me, good. He is watching this dude bugging us all the time.
Damn gentleman walked me back to my room man. So nice.

Seeing us being frustrated, the cigar guy came to us and ask us to smile. And compliment we look good when we smile. Such a nice guy. :)

Hatfield Part 1

So nice to see Ice Cream Van around this peaceful neighbourhood.

AH. These are some photos taken last year if I'm not mistaken.

Kept in my folder for almost a year, AHAHAHA.

Time to go out and take more photos!

Maybe not tomorrow, it's gonna be raining. UHH i hate it.

Backpacking

ARGH.
Backpacking is so fun especially with your love ones.
I want to do this. SERIOUSLY!!!
And couch surfing!!!

sunny

雨过天晴。
在伦敦常常看见的就是脚下的水影。
这张照片是去年的。
我的creepers还很新呢～

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Have you ever wondered how human race is created?

Like god made adam and eve?

Why are we here? What purpose?

Who gave us knowledge in the past?

Is everything planned?

Do you believe in multiple universe, or parallel universe?

Can we live without a system?

Will human race be stronger if we don't have a system like now?

No money, no leader, no tax, no government, no education system.

We are human beings, but we are "numbers". 

We are controlled by printed papers. 

Aren't we supposed to be free?

Adapt the nature, learn to survive, explore our true talents?

Reports show that kids learning without our educational system learn

faster and more compare to kids who goes to school.

They are very skilled, know how to fix things and always curious of learning new

and different things, although they pick up

speaking skills slower than usual kids. 

How the ancient Egyptians have the extremely accurate knowledge of astronomy and maths?

Why are all the ancient civilisations believe in the "door" in the stars?

Why are they making huge landscape signals?

And how do they know how to arrange huge stones that creates sound frequency?

Why are pyramids all around the world? Did Global Culture existed way earlier before the ice ages?

Did any ancient civilisations existed before Ice Age?

How I wish I can travel to the past to understand all these.

I want to know who created us and why are we here.

Chances

Been looking for design jobs, or jobs that require my mandarin speaking skills for months.
Calling almost everyday, today I got so close to get a sponsor visa.
But actually maybe not.

I need to pay for it, it's just a "sponsored" visa on paper, but I need to pay 7k£-14£.
At first I thought its the salary, being blur, then when she further explained.
WALAO. I cannot afford, i'm just a fresh grad.
So they don't need me anymore when they know I cannot afford.

I thought its a real opportunity man.

Time is limited now.
Today I finally get it, it's 90% impossible.
Most of the jobs are all for engineers, nurses, doctors.
Or maybe digital designers. BUT NOT PRINT/ GRAPHIC DESIGNERS.
OMG IM SO SAD!!!!!!

Seriously, I don't want to stay in Malaysia.
The design style is so different, the working method, people, all so different.
Perhaps I should try Singapore.

Or maybe Thailand.
But cannot, I need to speak Thai and it will take at least 2 years to master this.
Holy shit. I'm stucked in Malaysia.

Comicon 2013

Pretty cool event!

Lime Green

Csaba the "hungry" hungarian.

His favourite color is green.
See everything is green.

Seriously. Everything is green.
Even people who don't know him joke about hungarian always being hungry.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA..
Gotta miss this funny dude when I go back.
He think his nose is too big and lame. AHHAHAHAAAA

Without FB

I forgot what made me deactivated facebook account weeks ago.
When was it actually?
It's a pretty good choice to do to get rid of complicated issues.

I never thought I can stand my life without facebook.
Ever since I deactivated my account, I felt different.
I feel closer to myself, understanding who am i actually.

I figured out many things during this period without facebook.
Life is actually pretty free without facebook :)
It's facebook that made us "busy".
Although I don't have much contacts on my phone after I stopped using facebook,
i feel alright. This made me spend more time on working my ass off.
Because I don't have much contacts to talk to, and I don't need to keep myself busy
checking other's photos, status, comments and stuffs.

One thing is I followed a lot of studios and design pages on facebook,
that's the saddest thing of deactivating the account.
I cannot keep myself updated so quickly.
Never mind, I still check some websites everyday now.

While keeping myself "isolated", I found what I really want at this moment.
No relationships, plain work, plain hardwork.
At this age, I cannot decide anything for my relationship.
Really, not enough time.

cold

最近天气转凉了呢。
最喜欢下完雨植物的味道。
八月来了，在这里的日子不知道还剩多久呢。

真的真的希望能找到sponsor visa.

End of July

Some sketch.

Chilling and sketching with feline.

Can I eat this seriously.

This is super scary. DAMN!!!!

So July.
Applied some jobs, but sad results, impossible to get a sponsor visa.
Signed up a Risograph Printing workshop, discovered one of the most exciting printer
in the world, you can scan your work, and burn your work like silk screen printing,
using emulsion, you can also do 2 color printing at the same time. Holy mama.
Damn good creation!!! Salute to the person who invented this machine. Too interesting.

Discovered Interpals.
A language learning + penpal website.
Made some interesting friends there. Gonna write them some letters when I got back to Malaysia.

Ate that apple looking fruit. Is it an apple?
It's a little bitter. Hope I won't die. AHHAHA.

Say You Love Me

This series of photos is inspired by Japanese Horror Manga Artist - Suehiro Maruo.

I like how he draws movements, many eyes, many lips, I love it.

I decided to try and take these photos in the dark, with long and short exposures. 

Spent 2-3 hours taking more than 100 photos. WOWOWO.