Started sketching again!

Yup that's me.

Trying some minimal new styles.

Doodle November

Every Chinese must have a rice cooker.
FOR SURE.

Sketch

Im prepared to be like this on 30th, in Malaysia.

Backpacking

ARGH.
Backpacking is so fun especially with your love ones.
I want to do this. SERIOUSLY!!!
And couch surfing!!!

End of July

Some sketch.

Chilling and sketching with feline.

Can I eat this seriously.

This is super scary. DAMN!!!!

So July.
Applied some jobs, but sad results, impossible to get a sponsor visa.
Signed up a Risograph Printing workshop, discovered one of the most exciting printer
in the world, you can scan your work, and burn your work like silk screen printing,
using emulsion, you can also do 2 color printing at the same time. Holy mama.
Damn good creation!!! Salute to the person who invented this machine. Too interesting.

Discovered Interpals.
A language learning + penpal website.
Made some interesting friends there. Gonna write them some letters when I got back to Malaysia.

Ate that apple looking fruit. Is it an apple?
It's a little bitter. Hope I won't die. AHHAHA.

tit bits of today

Diet.

woah nicenya this morning!!!

Work in progress,
doing extra for exhibition.

very productive today, not bad!

No idea

HOHOO

HEHEHEHE
/// ignore me ///

Blog to destress

A artwork for Jazz Spastiks by Oliver Barrett.

Been updating software and cleaning my desktop and folders.

Wow I feel so good right now, cause my folder ain't that messy anymore.

I changed my wallpaper after soooo long using my boy as my wallpaper.

HAHAHAHAHA.

(baby i will take more photos of you and use it...... XD)

productive days

Yeah its originally a girl. But it's boring.

So i changed it to a house.
MUAHAHA.

And the same day I did this.
Almost done.

And of course my assignments.
I want to finish this this few days!!!

i wanna own this look!!!!!

Almost done!!!

/// PRODUCTIVE ///


WOOO!!!! I feel so good this week, I've speed up myself in 3 days.
Drew 2 full page of illustrations.
Trying to get back my lines working, I used to be good in lines but now my skills are gone.
Have to pick up again, it's so hard to get back my skills. And my hand shakes a little sometimes.

Sketchbook

/// Moody ///


OH i miss you.

Sketches

I like my previous coke can calligraphy pen better.
I got no idea where is it right now.
Been experimenting.... for Major Project.

Been doodling for project 3.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Unfinished doodle.

a lil update

A fatter angle. Not the real and fattest angle.
Not yet.
HAHAHA

Looks like kid's lunch box or something.
Scientists said red makes you feel extra full so you won't eat a lot.
Thats the reason I bought this microwave safe tupperware.

Some doodles.
3 looks that I really like.

/// Isolation ///

I've been hanging out with myself recently, isolating myself.

Cause I really don't want to lose focus on studies.

I don't feel like meeting anyone, talking to anyone.

Weird I know but sometimes I need some private space alone.

Midnight rain

The small lil pathway that I need to use
in order to fo to LRC.
It's surrounded with woods, and it's so cold.

I came back to my room soaking wet.
But it's nice to walk under the rain at 4-5 am.

Don't let negativity blindfold you. 

 /// 4 am walk ///


I can't really sleep, so I decided to get some reference printed in LRC.
I sent of my documents online to print, all I need to do is to collect them.

Didn't expect to have rain, it was extra cold.
It's about 15 minutes walk to the LRC but I the route I usually take is under
services and blocked, so I have to walk back and take another way to LRC.
The woods. It's a little scary at night but ghosts doesn't bug me here in UK,
I simply don't feel anything about spirits here maybe cause culture and race difference.
Pretty depress, cause it's raining and I have to walk so long.
Oh well, my bad to not check my email they sent to all of the students
regarding the blocked road. Man.

It was so quiet until I find it sad to walk like this. Depress.

I go on youtube to checkout some songs and played while walking to the LRC.
Feels better but doesn't make much difference.
Sometimes I will do things like this out of no where, cause I can actually print or collect them
in the morning. Something just made me get my ass off from my chair.
That sudden mood, sudden urge to go out and feel some loneliness.
So I reached, Wailok (jayden) was waiting for me with my documents
cause I asked him to collect from the printer in case it's gone or mistaken by people.
After he passed me my stuffs, I didn't go home straight.
I chose a spot for me to sit down and lean against the wall around the main entrance.
The guard and a few people saw me sitting there, I bet they must be thinking
this girl's drunk or on drugs.

Part of the reason made me stay is because of I need to protect my documents.
Then... Simply feeling lonely and want to have some time alone outside.
To chill my mind. It's been a pretty stressful week.
Full of assignments and social problems.
So i just sat there, trying to leave my brain blank, but it's so hard.
Why can't women be like men, to have empty moments in our heads?
I can't even do that when I am about to sleep!

Lamiya posted on fb yesterday, about her should start giving a fuck on people's feelings.
My case is the opposite. It is so so so difficult okay?
I am trying..... Everyone knows that I care how people see me.
And you guys know how serious am I. (I am trying not to be serious.)
There's this song by Alaa Wardi made me sooooooo sad.
That arabian vocals are so nice. But that song. ITS LIKE TELLING ME WHAT I NEED TO DO.
IS IT A SIGN??!! ITS SO DIFFICULT.
I sat there, checking out people's instagrams, checking out my photo albums.
Scrolling scrolling... .. . Then I realize memories made us all weak and strong at the same time.
It's alright I am fine, I am doing good now, but you have to understand
we all have a little emotional time okay....
What a terrible week I had. No, it was just a a few days ago but it felt like
a week or more?
Plus my period is almost here, moodswing moodswing.
I think I need to start watching comedies, cartoons and movies.
Cause it makes difference actually!
Also, I have to think positively, so I am able to produce positive aura and then let things change right?
Thats what the book of secrets teaches us correct?

+ positive +

Whatever. Whatever what happen in the future, I must now concentrate in my damn project.
3 projects all must be handed in after 2 months. Scary...

I.. need... to... FOCUS.
FOCUS.FOCUS. AND FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
I must be rude for today.
I fucking hate the word "insight" from now on,
and people who think they know me very well.
Even my sisters don't know everything about me, okay?
Shut up before you pisses me off.
I may seem like pattern A on the surface but actually
I have a lot of different patterns you never knew.
And pattern A that you see, it's just a really really surface thing.
Only people who's really close to me knows what am I thinking.

There's this one mate who think she knows me so well. (not talking about suhan, halie nor any close mates back in malaysia)
She kind of know 10% of me but she acts like she knows me so well.
Stop saying I am checking my angmo classmates out.
I am not interested. PLEASE. You think my time are 99% on guys?
PLEASE. I may on my scanner often but please, not always and everyday okay.
And you obviously don't understand which type I fancy  >: (

Now I realize, I can't have many close friends.
I will only have 1-2 in the end. Who knows my stuffs really well.
Cause it's really about the feeling you hangout with certain people.
Some people will have the feeling of making you split out your
history and true shitty stories. I don't usually do that.
Sigh. It's good. I have great close friends. I love you guys.
Thanks for always cheering me up.
I don't actually have time like this, it's rare.
But it's good, it releases my stress out loud.
It's been a long time I haven't transform myself into a gorilla.
:')

Doodles

Yes. Very motivated.

Ah....Not snowing yet...

Amitabha Kuan Yin + Aluminium.
Just some thoughts when I see an aluminium atom.

I really really love afro!!!!
YO MAN!!!!

Angie. HAHAHAHAHA.

Just some doodles and me.
Nothing much.

monotone

Telford Court, the so called party flats.
That day feels so quiet, this color made it look so Sci-Fi.

Cicada.
Chinese believes they will transform to moth or cicada
after they died for the first few days.
And they will fly home to see their family for the last time.

This painting.
IS TOO CREEPY.
We pass by this building to class or LRC sometimes.
OMG I passed by that day at night man.
TOO CREEPY.

Recently I found out I have another addiction.

/// Last Week ///


So, we got our semester A done, now it's time for B.
After the hectic submission, my life went sooooooooo calm, quiet, and smooth.
It last for a few days but it feels sooo good to be relaxing alone in my room,
or walking out to get some food myself.
No need to care about other's timing or preferences. I do what I like.
(Best thing about being alone sometimes)

And I kind of think I developed this quiet and independent personality here.
More or less the macam in TOA but this became serious here.
I can totally 100% travel alone no problem as long as I have my phone with me.
I can be with myself for more than 24 hours, I can be alone more than 12 hours alone outside
walking in any street in London.
Even I've been left out, I can still survive.
Scared for what, everyone knows English here, I also have google maps,
and there's always people for me to ask for directions.
I really hate to be in a group of people who need to stick together forever until we arrive home TOGETHER.
It's really too hard to follow man, especially in London, in a foreign country that
is still very new for us to explore.
omg please. We're 21 or more, not kids anymore.
We don't need a group leader holding a flag giving us directions.

*WE NEED TO BE INDEPENDENT*

*BUT I CAN BE WITH A GROUP OF PEOPLE MORE THAN 15 IN A DRUMLINE*
*AND I LOVE IT*

Hmm.........
Actually I think I can travel to somewhere further alone and I should do so.
Will try somewhere near first, in UK for a few days.
MACAM YES!!!!!!
If I don't spend some time in traveling here it will be a huge waste.
Sorry dad.............


I am looking for part times now.
URGH!!!!
MUST!!!