Midnight stress relief - Wig Time

Is this me?
WHAT.
Okay let me feel happy for awhile. XD

This wig got too much hairrrrr....

Hmm, seems like semi long is my next target now.
:D USH!

I remember I asked Ker Shin, a cosplayer/ coursemate of mine to order this wig from Taobao.com.
It arrive with longer length so we cut it shorter, also the fringe.
Wow, so hard to maintain the position man! and there's some part makes my head look weird.
Hard to buy the best wig.

It's a stressful nigh, surrounded with all my freelance work.
While I walk back to my room from the toilet, HMM....
I saw my wig box. So....

Crazy idea came across my mind....
HAHAH!! I put on my wig and started to take pictures and do my design work.
WITH THIS WIG ON ME for a few hours.
I feel like I'm another person, with another personality, and I feel less tension.

Indeed a weird act, wearing wig to do design work during the silent midnight.
Crazy I know.
But that's me!

**next target : Keep my hair longer, and do undercut for both sides. **

Discipline

Stress yes but work it out please.
Oh my buddha, after I injured my legs,
for some reasons, I became very slow.
Not only physically but also mentally.
Gosh, this is bad, like really really eating my strength..
Self discipline must be sharpened, if not, how can I survive in UK?
I cannot take it anymore!!! I must do this tomorrow early morning!!!
I must complete half at least!!! USH!!!!


FIGHT TILL THE END OF THIS PROJECT!

Can't stop smiling

I just....
Cannot stop...
Smiling..


These few days I'm in pain (injured leg) but I feel
very cheerful out of no where.
Although I don't have much appetite recently.

Puddi... Puddi........
Puddi....Puddi............

Yesterday's dream

I couldn't remember everything but this is what I have in my head.

In the cold, strangely quiet night, the aura is unexpectedly gloomy,

not much cars passing by home in Ipoh, no dogs barking, no nothing.

While I was talking to Faiz face to face in the living room, someone came,

MY EX AND FAMILY.

WHAT?!

He came in, with his family, I glanced at him and went upstairs,

leaving Faiz alone downstairs.

Before I go, I saw them sitting together, looking weird.

Both didn't talk to each other, Faiz looks a little tak syok, ex looks a little awkward.

I know Faiz doesn't like this guy much because of what he did to me last time..

Hiding myself in my room doesn't make me feel better,

I don't know. 

In my dreams, I am still ignorant, I chose to escape from this person.

What if it happens in reality? Will I still be like this?

I know I kinda dislike this person but still I did comment on his design when he asks me to.

(he's doing multimedia design)

Somehow I always have dreams about the land behind my house.

There's always a tree in my dream, from my room's window view. 

In between the two houses behind my house.

(reality don't have)

I remember there's a few dreams about that space.

WEIRD.

SIGN?

Zombified

For 20 years, I never expect this to happen with a stupid reason behind the whole incident.
Mother, sis and family, and I went to Johor to meet a tukang urut,
to mainly massage my mother's painful back and leg.
She's been suffering backache more than 10 years and this is another hope for her to
recover so.. Why not? 4-5 hours journey worth it.

We stayed with brother-in-law's family, in Ulu Tilam.
They said they are the only Chinese family in this village, so they mix well with other races and
obviously their Bahasa is really fluent like Malays!
Geng. So the tukang urut came and gave all of us a massage.
This is not some normal massage man, he id really really good.
He's fast and strong!!! (he's an middle age Indian man)
WOW 1-3 minutes of shoulder massage can brighten up my whole person,
my shoulder feels really light!
He says my shoulder is tight and stressful, sitting for too long doing work.
Wow, I never feel so good ever since I entered TOA! SO FRESH!!!
I feel so energetic!
He kind of pressed my knee, at the side of my knees, it's PAINFUL!!!!
Means : my ovary's position is not right, it's going downwards.
It's dangerous for females :O

But too bad I cannot proceed the repositioning massage cause I'm on something........... ahem.
Everyone feels so happy after massaging.
Right after he left, I kinda helped brother-in-law's mother in the kitchen.
Okay this is it:

She asked me to get a chair and sit down, OKAY i got it, placed, and HMM!!!
I remembered my mother was eating corn, and I had a bite, IT WAS DELICIOUS AND JUICY.
I WANT IT SO BADLY, so I hopped and ran towards the living room.


I got too excited and I totally forgot to be careful, (there's water on the floor),
SLIPPED and OUCH.
The worse position ever. I gotta draw this out one day.
I never stretched myself like this after I quit Ballet!!!
My left feet got swollen right away, they asked me to get up and sit in a right position but..
It's too painful to even stand up. I couldn't walk, I can only hop around with my right leg supporting
my heavy body. SIGH.
After being so relaxed, things got unlucky. :(
I cannot place my feet on the floor, the ankle is misplaced, I cannot feel my toes,
they're all numb and swollen.
What to do, it's raining, so I have to wait for few hours to visit the indian man again.
It's killing me, minute by minute. I ca only get my laptop and start editing pictures
to forget my pain. Trying to turn on my working engine.
Ouch. Never had this pain before.
I remember one of my worse is I fell down and a part of my knee's skin fell off.
But this.... Now.. Is even worse..
Suddenly, I feel bad for being like this, making people to take care of me.
It's like a burden for my family. (totally thinking like the elderly)

What the hell man. TOO CLUMSY!!!
I cannot even wear my slippers now. CANNOT FIT.
Gosh, from rhino leg to elephant leg now.
Pork chop leg XL.
After the 2nd visit, he pushed my ankle back to place, but unfortunately..
I still have to walk like a zombie. It feels like something sharp is poking inside,
poking our flesh when I place my left feet on ground.
Uhh... What a mess. In the end, I got no corn but pain. XD
They said I owe the massager once. HAHAHA!!!
OKAY but this incident, I feel positive, at least I'm accepting this with a open heart,
no emo emo at all.

Obviously, I wanted to feel and be strong.
I didn't scream or whatsoever when I slipped, I didn't cry, surprisingly. HAHA!!
But I almost dropped my tears when my boy called.
I don't know, probably I'm really being a little too dependent on him?
Maybe I rely too much. Or perhaps I wanted to feel weaker when I'm with him so that I feel protected?

Okay. Still.. In a nutshell.
I need to take this as a lesson and recover as soon as possible!

Oh my buddha.

confidence boost

a little derp?

They're always tired.

CONGRATS.
The first time I go to a dinner without scarf covering arms,
don't know why I am so confident that day.
Even though I am still so meaty.

Mother's jumpsuit is the best man!!!

JX is super cute man!
BABY X!!!

happy happy :D
This angle made me so slim la my face!

10 items rm200, for some basics.
so cheap!

mum wearing my tank top.
AHAHAH!!!

Confidence boost ever since I got my new hairstyle.
I need to trim a bit next time in KL.
MUAHAH!!! I really cannot escape from Jimmy, his cut is the best so far.
Recommended : Celeb Trendz, MUST FIND JIMMY.
Really the sifu.

I know Cotton On's quality is so so, but for basics , it's still okay.
rm200 for 10 items, including 4 belts, 2 basic dress.
I think it's really cheap man. Ipoh outlet always have special discounts, cause it's quite new!

Rip Slyme is back - Long Vacation

FINALLY!!!
Their new single after 2 3 years!!!
So chilling, been listening to this single song for 3 4 hours, non stop on the way to Johor.
Imma get their english translated lyrics!!! SO HARD TO FIND!


Man they're still so cute, especially the last part before the video ends. T^T)
Although I can see they're in approx 40 years old. <3 p="">Saw their album cover design, again, it's really different from other hip hop bands!

Fell in love again

Its highlighting my big nose. walao eh.

2 years 4 months already lu...

Still we cannot meet every week, regularly.

But there's one day, this guy made me run like a dog.

Like a coach training an athlete! Man it's so scary and tiring!

I hate him so much that time. HAHAHA!!!!

I really cannot run too much man if not my eyes can hardly see a thing and go over exposed.

Really. I have this problem. 

Still we managed to finish one huge round in polo ground, Ipoh.

Crazy, things I saw are all so bright, and I feel dizzy man!

Super sweaty, super tired, my legs are shaking man. 

He's pushing me damn hard this time.

Mr F must be Yvonne's boyfriend's twin or something, everything they do is the same,

their personalities too. Geng.

He pushes Yvonne to jog like this too. HAHAHA, and others stuffs they do really...

AH!!! BROTHERS!!!

I'm getting addicted in biting him..... yeah...

The feeling of chewy skin in your mouth is just.. ARGH!!!

I like it. HAHAHA, maybe it's a sign of lacking some security like what they say in articles,

or it's a sign of dependent? 

Maybe I'm always being strong outside, the look and the image that I portrayed

is always a little tough, so behind everything, 

I am totally another person.

I always wanted to be girly come on who says I don't want to be treated like a girl?!

Surprisingly, there's this malay guy who approached me and treat me like a lady. 

YES!!! I need this!!

Unexpectedly we've been together more than a year, never thought about this!

Dad thought I will never have the chance to marry/ get a boyfriend before. 

HE'S WRONG NOW. HAHAHAHA!!!

Don't know why, but still, I like him a lot although some stuffs he do really made me go nuts.
I guess we're both trying to be a better person, and mirroring each other when time pass.
:D I love you babe. 

Lesson Learnt

Now I'm really feeling this - 自我毁灭

As my sister says, I need to sign up yoga classes, and other soul healing classes
to calm myself down and release all the negativeness in me.
I am thinking and caring too much things that cannot be changed,
or say, 90% hard to change.
Lesson learnt. There's more in future.
But every time I wanted to give up,
I just.. CAN'T DO THIS! My hope will come to me the next day!
I cannot put any problem a side and walk away.
(although i know i should :|)

Small matters can make my heart beat fast, limbs become cold and shaky,
and most importantly stressed out.
I am clear that I have this problem and I really need to start being positive.
I KNOW I KNOW...

Just. Give me some time.

Euro Fun Park Ipoh 2013

My little monkey :)

Our prizes!
HAHA!! 3 mini monkeys!

Forgot when was the last time I been to a fun fair, but I definitely wanted to go this time.

Cause I really really want to recall back my childhood memories, together with Mr Faiz.

Also I feel that going to a fun fair with boyfriend is a romantic thing okay?!

Too much fantasy.

Okay get back to reality, alright there's a lot of games that I wouldn't try,

those to do with speed and heights, NO WAY.

I can only take Ferris wheel and the other shooting games and such.

The entrance fee is rm4 for adults, then we still need to pay for our own games in there.

And the thing that destroys all my fantasy is, once you get out you need to pay and get in again,

and I realized that there's no cotton candy stall, and every food stall are located outside the entrance. WHAT LA WEI.

I felt so sad man! No cotton candy and no food inside?!

Kay proceed to games, okay I do feel kinda happy but too little games,

I remember there's a lot of games many years ago, unlike now :(

Aih~~ never mind. This is not the best one.

But I do had some fun playing darts with my boy.

Surprisingly, he noticed I was not so happy and he tried to cheer me up.

I am so touched :'D

And the way he held my hand is different in public nowadays.

I felt like I am his girlfriend now cause two relationships I had last time were saddening.

We cannot do anything in public, and our relationship is not open, as free as now.

There's too much things to consider.

It's sweet, I felt that our love grew stronger day by day even though we seldom meet up.

We're still very excited every time we meet each other. :')

Stress.

I wonder, is it my problem or what?

I'm being stress everyday again. I think too much.

That's why I didn't enjoy the fun park.

I'm sorry babe.

But I am happy, I won 3 mini monkeys and your attention :)