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an angel and a devil...

天使

你相信天使吗？

天使不一定要长着白色翅膀，

拿着仙棒，

飞在空中的，

才叫天使。

天使可以是身边任何一个人，

任何一个。。。

可以让你感觉满出来的人。

虽然幸福不能轻易的证明，

天使也是。

但。

只要遇见你的天使，

自然，

你就会知道，

爱情的样子。

不行

不行。。。
我还是，
原谅不了你过去所犯的错误。

接受不了。。。
不懂该如何形容。。。

刚才，又接到一同电话。。。
我终于，
了解了。

眼泪又不争气地落下。


失望。
悲愤。
憎恨。

不想后悔，
不想再次流泪。
你真的行吗。。。？


抱歉，
我还是接受不了。

雨天

下雨了。

开始只是绵绵细雨，

但过了不久，

雨越来越大了。。。

太阳顿时像被乌云吞噬似的，开不见阳光。。

打在叶枝上的雨水好凶猛，好像想把叶枝给折断似的。。。

是上帝在为我哭泣吗？

今天的雨天好奇怪。。。

平时在欣赏雨天的我，

竟然在担心，

无原因的操心。

就很自然的，

心跳加速了。

想不通，

为什么？

唔。。。

喜欢。

就是喜欢雨天。

因为雨天，

就好像自己。

带些犹豫与悲伤。。。

雨天后，

将是晴天。

黑暗后，

将是光明。

雨天后的晴天是最美的。。。

而黑暗后的光明，

是怎么样的呢？

看着雨水里的倒影，

看着自己。

每个人总有丑恶及黑暗的一面。

而我的，

就在雨水中的倒影里。

sien sien dei..took some lame pics...

Hmm..

so sien..

took some lame lame pics...

haha..

stupid Karen took yin's cool specs and try on during tt at Loo....

walau..

so funny..

suits Yin better..

hahaha...karen....suan ba la..XD

Hmm....duno where the guy took the hp num...

play....

dun think I duno is u..

the man in black..
dun think u can fool me so easily....

muahaha..

wow....macho man....

slurpp..

haha...

Karen....

hmm...will you still treat me like last time?

or?

budak kecil..=_=

haha..

love my earrings....=D

stupid karen...

sishhhhh...

what hapen o...
=_=
comp sot sot dei jor..
oh man....can't live without comp!!!
yo...blogspot oso cant work...damn..
exam's cuming..
shit..
havent start to study tim....XD
accounts wait die only..
bla bla..
hmm..
budak ada problem ke?
hmm....apahal?
what hapen?
hmm...act i soo duno what hapen de lo==
tell me la...k?
hmm...weird er..
how come?
don't sked me man...
tjj go comp jor..
add oil la...haha..
get the school magazine d!
woohoo..
my artwork is in the book...cant belive...
a gal's pic..
haha..
wow...but class pic damn fat...
vomit..
eee...


okay..
this is going to be finished by next week ba..
got abit difference o...
better..
XD
the white space..
=]

erm..maybe...?

haha..
went tuition..
chat with stupid Ah yang...
walau...can't believe..
we chat about guys...=_=
adui....Vincy...
you suits the macho man la..
hahaha...
Good..
XD
Hmm.....quite angry of 2 people..
suan ler..
quite sien today...
ate rojak as lunch today...
then took a nap....
when i woke up,it's around 6 something..
wow..
what a long nap...
haha..
so sleepy..
today someone called,
many times jor...
hmm...almost everyday also tim..walau..
save your money la dude..
>_<

erm..
kinda bored..
listening to Yanni's music..
piano..
kinda bored with frienster too..
sien nye~~~
no mood take pics this few days..
duno why...yea..duno why..
hey..
it's raining right now..
love it..
feels good..
i feel good,nana nana nana na! XP

Hohoho..
took Carlsberg...
cause long time din't drink edi..
plus today got mood..
heheh...
they say,when your mood's great,
your beer will taste sweet...
when you are sad or something..
it will become bitter..
erm..
izit?
no difference also.
abit bit only..
hahaha..
XD


Am I a negative thinker...?
=(

In the process.

The Pain Of Love

haha.....still in the process...

thanks buddies,thanks for supporting...hahaha..

maybe I can finish this work around next week..cause this is kinda big..

cant finish so fast...

Hmm...made this using gesso...

ush!

wait for me ya!

=D

呀。。。

太幸福了！！！

最近呀。。。发现了身边的某个朋友。。。
开始谈恋爱了。
我并不知道原来。。。。
她的对象是她。。。
我的妈呀，
看不出咧！
是她们明显，还是我厉害？
哈哈哈。。。
加油加油！
祝你们幸福快乐！

我以前也是这个圈子的。。。
但现在不是了。
我能体会到，
这种不能被接受的恋爱。。。
蛮痛的呢。。。
不过这圈子的人都很勇敢，
都很坚强。
她们爱得比别人更深，更单纯，更甜蜜。
真的。

what a day.....

Hmm...not so happy today..
haiz..
don't wanna think about it edi...
felt quite lonely today..
you reload mei geh....yor..
waiting you to chat gah....=_=
feels weird..
you are acting weird this few days..

Hai..
hope that feller found my thing..
I don't wanna lose that..
It's damn important to me..
watch out..

Maybe I need some time to recover..
thanks for supporting me o buddies...=)
appreciate that..
haiz...60% recovered..
what can I do?
what I need to do?
Need to start a new story???

Erm..
maybe yes,maybe not..

害怕吗？
怎么了。。。看起来一点都不想原本的我自己。。。
忽然变得那么的脆弱了呢。。。
不过啊，
最近我觉得比较开朗了呢。。。
开始觉得比较自由了。
朋友们都问我：“你还好吗？”，
我都笑着回答：“很好，比之前更好了呢！”

对，我并没有欺骗自己。
的确开朗的多。
不用担心，谢谢你们。


灰姑娘的玻璃鞋，
明明很合穿，为什么会中途脱落呢？
我总觉得。。。。
她是为了引诱王子，而故意那么做的。

这会不会是。。。宛如在演独角戏，
不管做什么都徒劳无功，

总是与幸福擦身而过的人的偏执想法呢？

是吗？

还在挣扎吗？


开始怀疑自己到底想要些什么。。。
我到底还能相信自己吗？？？
选择相信自己，结果到最后受伤的人还是我。。。

要等吗？

情绪陷入一片混乱了。
无法做个决定，无法做个干净的了断。
不想再这样下去。
也许我对你的不满太多了。。。
是这样吗？
不过，我就是喜欢“不完美”的你。。。
经过这几个星期，
我才发现，原来我还很在乎你。

我每晚都抱着你送给我的猫猫，
披着你的黑色寒衣，
回忆着我们一起度过的甜蜜及快乐的时光。

我害怕，
害怕那被撕裂般的痛楚。。。
害怕失去定义，失去信任，
害怕迷失自己。

我的度量小得像一个无价的玻璃杯，
无法包容你的一切。





只能怪我太脆弱，



并不是你的错。。。

流

人越是挣扎，就会越往下沉。
是很悲哀无常的生物。

不过我向来都认为，不管遇到怎样的逆流，
不屈的往前游就是人生。

不过随波逐流，也不是件愚蠢的事。


只要能往前进行。

=(

Ahh....In a bad mood today..
Tired..
Hmm..I can't trust anybody anymore..
Some people lost my stuff..
My important one..
It's so meaningful to me..
I ask you to keep it well and return it to me...
I asked you to return it many times edi..
and the worst thing is..
you lost it.
what the hell..
Don't make me shout on you..

Hish..
tired....and my skin is getting darker and darker....
walau..
hope I won't become a Malay girl later..
=_=
Hmm..addicted to Khalil Fong's singing style...
ahhh!
but I still love Jay Chou...
haha....
Today must sleep earlier..
yawn..
wa...
Heng's sis and my sis are friends...
so ngam..
my mum dad know his parents too..
the world is so small..
haha..
=D

Mum made spaghetti today......
slurppp..
mum's spaghetti is the best!
woohooo!
so nice la,but can't eat too much....will grow fat..
fatty bom bom..
XD

haha...

Walau....almost slept in class...
Sorry man.....so damn sleepy...
Ekon class tim...quite important..
so tired...
yesterday a crying baby called..
then pui the baby 1 hour...
3_3
blur blur dei edi..
haha...
today alot of homework..
and the Chinese 古文...
make me die..
long paragraph and need to find meaning for each word...
got hundred there I think...
=_=
plus tonight got art class...
must finish my work today!
argh!

So so so....
sleepy..
yor.....how can...........
Hmm....choi yeen's essay writing style...
so cool...
makes me wanna cry....T-T
especially Chinese...
walau eh...
you are damn good la..
today CC hugged me for fun..
walau...we are so..
FAT!
can't tahan myself edi..
Her GF changed hairstyle~
wow~
=D
good luck to you all~

adui..
today a teacher hit my left arm..
damn pain..
ToT
cause yesterday injection...
pain till wanna die..
today alot of pp touched it and I screamed...
ahhh!
long time din't draw something new..
no time...
busy...
but dunno why got time to write blogs...
hahahahaha..
=)


...最悲伤的人，往往无法哭泣...

Yor...

Yor...sorry guys..
I really din't mean it..
Maybe I dunno how serious it is..
but can anyone tell me why ya?
I won't write edi...
Just pics maybe...=_=
really love to take pics...
oolala...
Hmm...today damn hot la...
feels so sleepy....plus I'm doing accounts..
walau eh..
My eyes...
wakau..

My finger swollen edi..
damn..
so pain..
nevermind ler...XD
Hmm...everybody's changing..
right?

Ahaha...Choi Yeen ask me out today..
go out for lunch..
aiya,Hokkaido close jor..
mai go "small genting" lo..
quite full...so i just ate abit bit rice...choi yeen's rice..
=_=
saw some disgusting people..
Ta ma de..
hahahaha....Choi yeen's song....
"ta ma de..ta ma de..."
hahahahaha...
I love it too...
wo de ma ya...
She is so skinny...
tall and skinny...
envy nye~~~
=D

Today's Percussion Practice

WOO~~

hmm...Percussionists Go Go Go!

quite tired...

cause keep standing to play drums...

back pain....

ooo...ate chicken rice for lunch...AGAIN!

Pn Teh "da bao" for us...T.T

hate chic rice...

ate this in band since form2...

took some pics today...

With Kosin...XD

Yee leng,me,Ying tong & Shwu Hwa

Quint Players-Sui Cheng & Bee Theng


Tuba player-Yik mun..


Climb gate....XD that's me...





The bass drummers-Shu Mei,Audrey,Mun yee,Yi Wen & Cloey

Black and White

Just some boring self-loving pics of mine...
Back to black?
or?
I'm wearing white shirt...today...
1st time tim...=_=
by da way...
=)
happy valentines neh~

纯白色的谎言

谎言。
谎言的威力是很强大的。

纯白色的谎言，
是最美丽的。

没有所谓的对与错，
因为，
这些美丽的谎言只是让梦持续下去最好的媚药。

这一场梦，
是不真实的，
是不存在的，
但却是幸福的。
不，
不是每个人都是这样认为的。

这一场梦，
也许是最痛苦的一场梦。
你没拥有它。。。
到底是不是现实？
到底存在吗？
是自己在欺骗自己吗？

别人不知道，
但自己很清楚了解。。
迷惑？
还是不敢面对现实？
就像分岔路一样，
不知该选那一条路。。。

怕走错。
怕辛苦。
怕迷路。

一些人就是这样。
宁愿活在这虚幻的世界里，
也不愿从梦中醒过来。

幸福？ 还是痛苦？
=）


其实。。。
我只是写爽而已。。。并不是说着自己。。。不要误会。。
哈哈。。。

some last year's work...

Pencil's works....

Some cool thingi....XD

Dreamhair?aha....Njoe.

1st time using water colour

4s1 Board

Something cool...

The day before Valentines

Valentines...
Hmmm..
I wish I could celebreate with a lover..
aih...

haha...
met Tjj just now..
He belanja me to eat lunch...
hahhaa....shuang..
then he gave me a present..
A Valentines present..
=)
thankx dude..
but sorry...
I can't wait for you anymore..
Just see how you change...k?
fair...and square...
Justin called me when I'm eating...
that stupid Tjj snatched my hp and the 2 guys started to chat...
walau...
haha.....JJ VS JT....
a kid's voice VS a man man voice...
funny la...

Go home la Tjj...
hahaha...lose jor la....haahah...
hmm...we argue again when we met...
then yau berbaik-baik edi...
walau...
after so long time still wanna argue...just because of 2 people...
-_____-
Hmm.....
meow....=3
raining....so mum fetch Tjj lo....
not home la....go ST la..
XD
damn...his bag is so damn small...=_=
you are so weird la...
but thanks for the lunch~

Went home....
sleep again.....zzzz....
yawn...
woke up around 6 something lo..
then mai eat dinner lo....
simple simple...:)
keeping fit neh....
jia you!
ish~~
write blog....search for nice layouts now....

intro some loyouts lar~~

I'm the kind of person.....easy to get bored of my things...
but don't misund....not lover...
XD
yer....I want something cool..
some blog layouts...
can?
can someone intro me some?
I dun wan small small tiny words de neh...
want something artistic...XD
aiya..
just give me the address...
hahaha....
FAST!
i wanna change!!!

Sukan Tara.....

Sukan tara...
last!
USH!!!
Long jump....
scored 1 mark..
hahaha...
hate jumping....
cause....cause...
XD
Hmm....lontar peluru....
tried 2 times...get 1 mark also..
ok lo~~
today saw Che o~
She's in blue house also..
wow.....she's so cute...so tiny....>_<
and she has a big boops...
wow..
cool....
She scored 2 marks for long jump....geng!

Just now prac awhile...
marching...
for the Spots Day...
Walau.....
Vomit..
but thank god they still can manage to march....
phew...
Hmm...
Kinda worried about them....

OH MY GOD.....
SO HOT!!!
today..
laugh jor whole day with Choi Yeen...
walau...
can't tahan...damn funny...
Miss Heong's jokes also...
laugh till cried....
toothpick leg....+ bubble skirt....
elephant leg...+bubble skirt...
hahahahahahahha...
damn!
today I keep on practicing the oral test with CY...
so hardworking....but so funny...
"kill the marine and the aquatic life!!! "
" OMG! That's horrible!! AHHH! "
XD

damn busy...

Homework...homework....HOMEWORK!!!

Argh...
So busy..
alot of homework....
damn..
Why always my class have to do so much homework....=_=
yer....ci sin edi..
Band...Homework...
AHHH!
burst!!

Damn it..
alot of things have to be done..
alot of things...
alot..
really..
T_T
how can I do it in the same time?
how can?
Hmm..time is limited man..

Hmm...
Busy ler...sorry for any late replies...
Ai....Tjj...
You promised me..
kay?
but I won't wait for you neh...sorry man...
I told you that for many times ge la..
Feel like..
after that case..
you care about me more than last time...
but nevermind la..
I don't care about that edi..
Now,
Im concentrating on my studies...
about you,later la..
I need some time to recover also...
Sports day's coming....
yawn...

Aih..
Same la..
Band again.............march...........
march.............
=____=
sama saja..
quite sien edi..
din't enjoy Sports Day before..
sad huh?
no choice..T.T
bla bla...
aih~~that's my life~
tomorrow got sectional+sukan tara...
ma ma fan fan...
last for sukan tara..
finally..
hmm............Valentines Day....
aiya....lonely Valentines..
every year...
haahaaha....
fate...T.T

complicated monday..

Hmm....
Band prac...
till 1 er..
then got meeting...
ahhh....
today got abit misund between me,yingtong,shwu hwa and yee leng..
yor..
sked us man...( me+ying tong)...
hak sei lo..
=_=
but....solved edi..
hahh...
don't cry le lo..sayang ah...
=)
hmm....
after meeting....meet till 3 something...
everyone's gone...
except me,ying tong and teacher only...
ahh..
discuss....
bla bla...
then go Hokkaido meet Claudia,Yi wen and Bee theng..

Walau..
not nice wan..
feel like wanna vomit..
ur..urgh..uekk..
Hmm..
chat chat...
then they wanna go back to school..
wanna clean up the uniforms...
kesiannye...
then Claudia went home..
left me..alone..
walk here and there....
sien...
waiting mum to fetch me..
Hmm....
kays..
reached home...
yawn..
slept..

"fuck what I say....I don't want you back...."
my ringtone...
ahh....who called me this time..
oh...rupa-rupanya Jin..
=_=
misund la...
then...ok lo..
sleep..
sudd yau ring.
teacher..
then...yau let her scold...
misund again...
ahhh!!!
complicated!
just woke up then let pp scold..
wakau..
not my fault wat....
T_T

Lonely Sunday Night

Hee..
Went tuition...
walau eh...
the boys are damn noisy..==
80% guys there..
like pasar malam..
after tuition...
i folow Theng go toilet~
jump and lalala~(just like a kid)
So enjoy.....jump jump ha..
I saw the...the..
MACHO MAN! (a tt mate)
he just came out form the toilet and saw me jumping towards him...
wakau..
so fish...
AHHH!
then I saw him laughing..
>_<
lak seh..
Then I went into the toilet and see whether my hair ok anot..
saw my new earrings...walau~Love it..
Vincy said..."Tang Angel....why you so SM edi...getting more and more SM..."
hahaa...
but that's cool ler~
;P

Do I looks funny...?
=_=
maybe I'm fat..
so some of them keep looking at me...
omg....must diet...
hee...
walked to Theng's house..
haha..
then her granma and his bro came back..
walau..
Theng....your bro not bad neh...hahaa..
ex stbb member...
wa.....her granma so good neh..
belanja me eat pau and biscuits...
sure fat edi...
sei..
but thanks~ I'll come and visit you next time~

haha..
after that,went Kopitiam with mama~
haha....chat like 8po only..
cause me and mama super close..
close till everything also tell her..
good~
then chat about him and the girl..
wa..
laugh like hell..
nearly burst...
XD
Stronger...
hmm...can throw away my hp edi..
cause nobody sms me edi..
=D
save some money also..
so sleepy..
yawn..
took a nap..
then sis and her man came back..
tonight got a dinner..
but I dun wanna go...tired..no mood..
don't feel like wanna go today....yawn..
ahh...
hug the meow mi and slept..

woke up around 5 something..
ahh..
everyone's getting ready ler..
then bye bye..
bye mum~~
bye daddy~
BYE~
home alone....=.=
hmm..
et maggie...without flavouring..
haha...add some vege and egg...
=D
so full..
ahh..
watched TV..
sien sien dei..
do homework..
yau sien edi..
on9 write blog...
yee hee..
blog blog blog..
MJ sent me a soundtrack~
Nightmare Before Christmas...
not bad~
then chat awhile..
then tommy on9..
sent me some hitz...
yay~
he's waiting for my blog...
so..
i end here first lo...haha..
thanks for following wer..

Old Pic..

haha...haha....

nothing special also..

any comments?

Live My Own Life

Amazing..
that's the baddest girl that I ever seen..
Straight outta movie scene..
Who she knew she was a drama queen..
So mean..
What you did,
What you said..
I'll remember forever..

but I won't hate you..
meaningless..
worthless...
No need to make myself tense also...

Oh angel..
Live your own life~
just like Claudia's blog title...
yeah,
my own life.
My life without you.
became stronger because of you...
Thanks..

Starting today,
I'll throw every shit out of my mind...
and start all over again.
Brand new life..
=D

明白吗？

骏，

明白它的意思吗？

你因该不明吧。。。

不过，

相信日子久了，

你就会明白它的真正意义。

不必多说，

彼此都知道，

这一天，

总会来临的。

我做好了准备，

在等着最好的机会把话说清楚。

你是好人 也是坏人。

对我坦诚，

只为了朝她狂奔。

不能放任 所以放了。

这点疼，

我还能忍。

我是好人 也是坏人。

只想然你有机会转身。

宁愿爱到一点不剩，

也不愿 看着恋人，

爱成路人。

只好弹着爱的旋

带走伤心的回忆，

独自徘徊在两人最美的风景。

Problem teen

aiyo,
this teen...
got any problem?
don't disturb me edi la..
can anot..
stop it...
Inbox full edi....
alot of things to do..
AMC alot of homework...
give me some time la,girl..
I won't bother the things of you two..
Hmm..
seems like you never give up?
never mind..
=_=
I'm busy,that's all..
no time to play..

背叛

背叛

我记得，我们认识时，
你超爱这首歌。。。
你的网名也使用‘背叛’。。。

我知道，
你用这首歌的名字，
是有原因的。。
我知道它的意思。。。

唔，
今天，我忽然想起这首歌。。。
不过我想不起整首歌。。。
回到家，
我听着歌，
我喜欢的歌。。。

我喜欢的，通常都是比较悲伤的，
比较黑暗的。。。
较少甜蜜蜜的。。。

有时候，
想把自己关起来，
还是，
学着把心门打开。。

有时候，
莫名其妙哭起来。。。
难道，
这就是自愿自爱？
谁不希望像飞鸟，
一样自由自在？

最后。。。
我看着他的简讯，
沉默了。

泪也默默的落下。


我终于明白，
什么是背叛。

I don't care who you are.

Yup..
I don't care who you are and where are you from..
You are meaningless to me...
whatever you say..
whatever you scold..
it's worthless...
hey girl,
don't be so naive,
no need to fuck here fuck there,
cause you didn't even have a dick,
how to fuck?
you are just a small lil worm from the woods in nowhere...
so..
no need to spend time on me..
Do think before you do something...
think about what will happen,
think about what others think...
think about the fact...
Maybe you don't understand my words,
but I'm sure you will someday...

i don't mind what you scold..
i don't mind what you did to us..
cause I know,maybe there's something in your heart,
struggling...
maybe you are reading my blog..
it's okay...
Maybe you are mad at me...
but,
I didn't do anything wrong what...

I think we need to settle it..
Maybe after the comp?
I have alot of time..
I won't scold you or what..
don't worry..
i won't fight also..
I'm not the rude girl type...
but please..
hope you understand,
me and him just fine now...
hope you know what you're doing...
Hope you understand what I need and what I want...

我感谢你，感谢折磨过我的人，
因为你们使我变得更坚强。
所不定没有你的出现，
我就没有今天的我。
=)

trust?

Hmm....ate lunch with Eeann...
she belanja me this time...
YAY~
hmm....chat lo..
quite sad today...
Sifu called me..
hmm...heard his words...
his words....
maybe he want's me to know something...
wake up lo,Angel..
wake up jor mei ya....?
=_=
damn it..
maybe what he told me is true...
but maybe not..
I believe in my own naked eyes..
so...wait..
one day..
I'll know everything..
I'll see everything...

There's always going to be people that hurt you,
so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time...
Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you...
Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

the nice name again...=_=

what happened again...
the "nice name" yau find me today.....
=_=
ada apa problem,yor...
so sien de meh you...
very rich izit....
come on...
I need to live my own life...
no need fuck here fuck there...
you din't even have a dick....
how to fuck,I ask you...how to fuck me?
-_-
come out and settle face to face la...
weird....
what ask him to scold you...
what now...
what i wanna scold you..
If i wanna scold you,I sure appear whenever you are...
don't think Im laming around,say for syok...
aih,no time to play with you la,girl...

Monday evening...

Cried...
sad..
wanna kill myself...
annoying..
childish...
makes me sick..
argue...
and argue...
then what happends at the end?

what makes us argue?
should we?
is this good or bad?

也许这些都是陪伴着我们成长的绊脚石。
有时会觉得很讨厌，很烦恼。。
不过，
我不打算放弃。

想尽量改变你。。。

唯一能让我放弃的，
就是这一句话。。。
“我不爱你了。”
只有这样才能让我彻底的放弃。。。

有时候男人就很固执。。。
少了点风度，就是不承认。。。
错了还不肯认错。。。

也许一些争执能让我们更坚强一些，更成熟一些，更了解对方。。。
我不后悔，也没有一点点的遗憾。
每一段感情里，
痛，
是一定会的。。。
在对的地方，正确的时间遇上对的人是很困难的。。
珍惜对方才是最重要的。。。
加油吧！