Not over

Okay bad things happens.
Kena.
And I am defending. AHAHAAA!!!
DAMN I MUST WIN THIS WAR!!!

Sit back , relax

* Finally!!! Did this for fun. HAHAH! *

I slept 6-8 hours yesterday with my boyfriend beside hugging me, without having any dreams!
For the first time I did stuffs in such hardcore way and now, the core is finally here.
Phew, * wipes sweat *.
This is another challenge, never got so stressed.
Good thing is now I feel that my illustration skills is better than my past, that shitty skill,
i cannot even draw a water droplet. HAHAHA!!!
Still, hmm gotta try more stuffs.

I'm feeling weird now, finished but still have stuffs to do, but not so soon.
At least I can sit back and relax for a week, waiting for their confirmation.
I felt good honestly, having a boyfriend supporting me, also some close friends too.
Boyfriend stayed up, keep himself awake to wake me up after 1-2 hours nap for 2 3 days recently.
I'm really grateful to have you, no one would do such thing for me except you.
You deserve a great hug kisses and and cuddles with me after I come back from Thailand.

I would also like to thank my family and all of the close ones who supported me throughout
this critical period.
I appreciated you all. LOVE.


FINALLY!
I feel less stressful now!!!

Time travel dream?

Somewhere around this.

They are like that 2, doing their own stuffs in the middle of no where.

I love all the mysterious stuffs, UFO, time traveling things since last year.
So I started to search up articles regarding some mysterious heritages, some unexplainable
cases, cause it rare!!! And bizarre!

So i slept two hours and I woke up 5 minutes ago.
I dreamt of many things, but there's this dream.. wow.
Okay this is it :


I'm on holidays with my family and we stayed in a hotel right next to the beach.
no wait something like Valley or something... I don't know man.
I myself went for a walk, going down to the water, using my proud waterproof phone,
taking underwater photos and stuffs.
The water is super beautiful, clear and blue.
This is truly amazing, beautiful scenery!
I took some photos of it as I get out from the water, suddenly, there's something flew over me, and I know its huge.
Then I put down my phone and look around, WTH MAN!!
I saw Euhelopodidae!!!! WIth some flying dinosaur species flying around it!
Holy mama!!!!! The feeling of meeting something SUPER RARE and
dead for many many years ago!
I was like...I turned around, the hotel is gone, everywhere is full with big rocks
by the beach! And the Euhelopodidae is huge!!! Not sure what is it doing but
I am amazed!!! A little scared too AHAHHA.

Hmm, is this some sort of tunnel that brings me to another universe?
of Brings me back to history?
Weird!
Luckily that Euhelopodidae is quite far away but I can tell I will be
like a mosquito if im squashed by it, not even blood coming out.
I am so lucky to experience this (i told myself in my dream)
so i continue taking photos of them.
For some reasons they kind of know I'm taking their photos or they realized
my attendance so they are trying to get close to me, all heading towards me.

WALAO EHHH....
But i'm to into taking their photos so I remain standing there.
What ever, I feel calm looking at them, maybe they're not T-rex. HAHAHA!
I forgot what happened next. HAHAHHA.

Amazing feeling, I don't know how to describe this.
I wish I can dream longer, or maybe someday it will really happen?
Ignore me. Thinking too much. XD
But wow, dinosaurs.....

Tiring week

My face few days ago, not waking up in the morning,
but staying up late until the next morning.

I've been seeing this morning view for almost a week.
= Bee staying up until next morning for almost a week.
Nice view anyways, i see dogs running around the field.

This view actually gave me a less stressful mood.
I'm looking forward to see every morning's view.
Feels like I am alive, I survived.

The first morning going out with mother after a week
staying at home.
I felt surprisingly fresh even though i did not sleep for a night.

I never felt this crazy before, I don't even remember today's date.
Don't even remember when was the last time I slept before 2a.m.
Extremely awful, when can i finish this?

I burst out crying yesterday when my bf came to visit.
Why must I cry everytime he's here or he's on phone talking to the stressful Angel?
Too stressful, I finally came to the stage to explode.
I felt extra love from him yesterday, he never let go of his hands while hugging me,
never ask me to shut up, never ask me to grow up be a strong woman.
This person loves me so much. I can feel it.
No matter how hard I try to hit and bite him, he never blocks me.
He let me bite as hard as I want to, when I'm being a freak.

AH. I knew this guy is different.
Almost 2 and a half years, and I am with this guy, soon, I will not meet him for 9 months.
Sigh, he wont be there when I am down and depress. I have to control myself.

Work it Angel. WORK THIS.

Last Saturday, Michaelian Military Band's Concert 2013.

Michaelian Military Band's concert was not bad yo!
I really enjoyed the lower brass line, it's really round and impactful.

I hate my hair now.

Congrats to all SMI performers, some part blew my mind away, I'm enjoying it.
Especially the tuba, and trombone players performing Oppa Gangnam Style.
NOT KIDDING MAN, they sound really strong.
I love it love it love it!!!! Lower brass sounds really deep, enjoyed it a lot.

One thing I learnt from this band is, no matter how long the ex members had graduated,
their passion and the Michaelian Spirit are always the same, burning!!!
Faiz is one of them, he shouted, cheered, and supported them so hard with his gang!
And no mater how, he is always proud to be a Michaelian, also a member of the Michaelian
Military Band.
Not kidding, all the ex were so really high that night.
This is the spirit! This is what every individual need deep inside!
Spirit!!!

Haha, lived in band for 5 years and hmm, really can identity who is the section leader easily, by looking at how the perform, especially in percussion.
I love the snare drummer for the first 3 songs, very firm and accurate.
I miss band, really.. So badly. I really hope I have another chance to be in a band,
and perform as a percussionist.

Pretty interesting!
A boy school's band really sound different from us.
Good luck to all of them.
Good job!

Different faces, different countries, different cultures.

I knew Chatroulette for some time but I never remembered this site until Angie reminded me about it.
It's site full os desperate men from the whole world, I know... Very clearly..
But still I bet my luck to search for some international friends out there.
In 3 days, I knew 7 8 people but out of that number, there's only 4 5 person are not perverts.
AHHAHA, as in not asking for any benefits being a friend of mine.

So I'm kind of close with a few of them, all from different places.
To be exact, I think I can only consider 2 of them who knows me better, like really knows something about me and I know something about them.
A turkish guy and 2 Italian guy, 26 years old, 21 years old.
Both are kind of a shy guy type of human, no sweet talks, no dirty stuffs.
And they are quite good looking. HAHAHA!!!

OKAY that's not the main idea.

The main idea of knowing this 2 guys are checking out their culture.
Now I know their breakfast are really.. unlike chinese. HAHAHAH!!!
This turkish eats cheese, bread and drinks milk only, while the Italian eats croissant,
jam, and milk.
Unlike cina lah! Noodles also have many patterns, spicy salty sweet sour everything.
Some have rice, some have bread, some have dim sum, like many kinds of food.
And I noticed most of them prepares breakfast at home.
Hmm little different from my family, we never eat breakfast at home. HAHAHA!!!
Unlike my boyfriend too, malays seldom eat outside.

CR? I never trusted the site, (lots of weird people) but i'm glad that I know some nice people here. :D
I saw some friends studying overseas and travel like mad!!! I wonder how much money they need.
And I wonder are they using own money or parent's money.
I swear I SWEAR after graduating I will work super hard and save money to travel!!!
What can I do now is make more connections around the world.  >:)
So I might be able to save some money for tour guides or stuffs.



HMPH, we'll see, one day I will travel without using my parent's money.
I used enough, too much. It's time to get my own money, save, use, and pay them back. :)

WOW

Crazy week.
Come on I can do this, I can do this come on I must hang on.
Hmm it's so. weird. this feeling is so rare.
URGHHH!!!!!
The feeling of being sad.
Or say being stressful what the heck is going on to me?

Toughest week ever

This is a conference thing and will be held 2 months later.
Unfortunately, I couldn't attend this important day since I am going to UK at 24th.
Man. This is so so so sad!!!
I never been to any events that uses my design -_-)b
Great....

Imagine, sleep at 6a.m, wake up at 10 a.m,
continue sitting in front of the computer working.
Then went downstairs once/twice for food, then continue work again not even taking a morning shower.
Maybe take 1-2 hours nap in a day.

It started few days ago. Crazy..
Kinda forgot how to walk...

In this week, everything will be done. AH!!!! AND I AM FREE!!!!

Shit this sucks

it's just 3 months without college, I felt so LOST MAN!!!!

I doubt my skills. I doubt everything I have now.

Am I really improving? 

I have jobs on hand now, trying new stuffs, but still..

Am I really improving?

I couldn't judge my learning process anymore.

Maybe I am too dependent on lecturer's comment. Right?

Still being a pampered kid. 

Searching and reading design articles online seems not enough,

I know I am still learning, but improvement wise.. I am not sure.

I know realizing what I like is kinda too late, doesn't gave me enough practice 

in college assignments.

Guess I am a slow learner, I woke up too late, I absorb things late.

What's my strength?

What's my skill?

I can write an essay about my weaknesses. 

But how bout things I am good at?

This is so confusing. Maybe I need to study few more years to really

make sure I am a confident person with all knowledge in my head,

a person that is rational and have my own thinking.

What's wrong with me?

Am I really that weak?? 

Lost

I think once in a while, you'll be drunk, you'll be confused, you'll be lost.

Anything, family, studies, future, relationships, friendships, whatever.

It seems that when people are not occupied, or not socializing,
not being close to the world, people will tend to care minor problems more than usual,
started to think and got worried of things.
This is the time where small matters became bigger.

Gosh, I need to meet people, go out, and do something else than my freelance work for now.
Perhaps I am still not mature enough to handle these things.