Tiring week

My face few days ago, not waking up in the morning,
but staying up late until the next morning.

I've been seeing this morning view for almost a week.
= Bee staying up until next morning for almost a week.
Nice view anyways, i see dogs running around the field.

This view actually gave me a less stressful mood.
I'm looking forward to see every morning's view.
Feels like I am alive, I survived.

The first morning going out with mother after a week
staying at home.
I felt surprisingly fresh even though i did not sleep for a night.

I never felt this crazy before, I don't even remember today's date.
Don't even remember when was the last time I slept before 2a.m.
Extremely awful, when can i finish this?

I burst out crying yesterday when my bf came to visit.
Why must I cry everytime he's here or he's on phone talking to the stressful Angel?
Too stressful, I finally came to the stage to explode.
I felt extra love from him yesterday, he never let go of his hands while hugging me,
never ask me to shut up, never ask me to grow up be a strong woman.
This person loves me so much. I can feel it.
No matter how hard I try to hit and bite him, he never blocks me.
He let me bite as hard as I want to, when I'm being a freak.

AH. I knew this guy is different.
Almost 2 and a half years, and I am with this guy, soon, I will not meet him for 9 months.
Sigh, he wont be there when I am down and depress. I have to control myself.

Work it Angel. WORK THIS.