a lil update

A fatter angle. Not the real and fattest angle.
Not yet.
HAHAHA

Looks like kid's lunch box or something.
Scientists said red makes you feel extra full so you won't eat a lot.
Thats the reason I bought this microwave safe tupperware.

Some doodles.
3 looks that I really like.

/// Isolation ///

I've been hanging out with myself recently, isolating myself.

Cause I really don't want to lose focus on studies.

I don't feel like meeting anyone, talking to anyone.

Weird I know but sometimes I need some private space alone.

ZSL Zoo

It's a good day!

heheh my favorite section of ZSL Zoo.
Super cute man!!!!
Look at all the penguins!!

Me and Csaba the Hungarian.

Llama. 

Ooooo Colors....

This illustration is pretty creepy.

/// ZSL ///


AH! at last, one day off with friends!
Long time didn't meet the band ganggggg.
And I met up with Csaba, a Hungarian who have many interest in common with me.
He's 25 and he's a pastry chef. HAHA he looks a little kiddy but still like 25.
I know I can't explain how I see him. AHHAHAHAAH!
But he is pretty funny and thin. I definitely need to share him my fats then we can become even.

Ha!!! So the ZOO!!!!
So many cute animals!!!
Went to touch some tame goats, omg too cute, and checked out the whole zoo,
including insects, fishes, and mammals.
Wild pigs, zebras, lions, gorillas... Pretty interesting!
Llamas are soooooo cute!!! the way they chew food look way too cute and funny.
I LOVE IT. Also wow giraffes... So gigantic...

I uploaded some videos on Instagram, feel free to watch!
CUTE CUTE CUTE!!!
Click HERE!

Dream and Future

uhhh so cute.

Look at the chubby body of this cute lil pigeon!!!
ARGH!!! I want to touch it so badly.

Ha chilling in the neighborhood cause it's sunny with a little wind.
Lovely weather today.

/// Your future and dreams ///


I have been reading many articles about what to do and not to do in 20s,
also some articles talking about future and dreams recently.
And I am near to the end of my life in UK.
My 3rd project for my final sem is Self Promotional Project which ties me back
to analyze who I am, what I like, what I want, my plans for future etc.
Cause seriously when I thought of Who Am I, I don't have much clue before this project.
The thing I know about myself is not decisive.

I drew out a mind map about myself, then I realize,
my vision of my future is still so blur.
What graphic designer, what illustrator is not what I really wanted.
It's just a main career that supports what I really wanted to achieve.
Illustration is a hobby that what I really really like.
That's what I understand from analyzing myself this few days.

I guess what I really really wanted to do is to do something relating to clothing.

Not the sophisticated fashion design, but having my own clothing store
to sells what I like, and use my knowledge of graphic design etc skills to design
this shop as a whole. Independent label I shall say. (macam yes)
I like to look at clothing websites and blogs, especially Japanese look books,
cause they are sooooo organic, so rare and random, they have really good sense man.
Etsy and Folksy are great handmade sites to refer.
I really wanted to create stuffs I want to have myself!
Like tights. MAN I WANNA SILK SCREEN TIGHTS SO BADLY.

It doesn't seem relevant to what I learnt here.
But think again, I know how to silk screen, I know some other simply easy ways to do accessories,
I know some graphic design that can help me throughout the process,
and branding, also illustration I can do it myself, and finally photography skills
can help me in photographing goods and stuffs.
Not so bad right?
What brings me back to "future plans" of mine is my sketchbook.

I've been drawing outfits, looks that I like.
I don't have the ideal body to dress up like how I wanted to be so illustrating them
is a way of expressing how I wanted to look like.
And this is the reason I want to have a place for myself and people who likes similar things.

I always wanted to have a dessert house selling and renting zines and books,
selling some small goodies. Haha I want to plan this with my future husband.
But who knows maybe I will change my plan in future?
Or maybe my future husband don't want this. AHAHAH.
I remember Martha who gave us a workshop on our project,
" Don't think about your future as a graphic designer, think as a human. "
That gave me a huge inspiration.
She is right, we're young adults now and gonna step into the industry.
It's our responsibilities to contribute our skills and knowledge to the industry, and our country.
This need to be planned. HMMM... Somehow I can think of a few right now.
NEED TO REFINE AND PLANNED AS I GROW OLDER.

Yesterday I was so excited checking out jobs online,
then remembered there's something like zoo keeper for a day and volunteering jobs in ZSL zoo in london.(just an interest definitely not something serious)
But then sigh. only open for EU and local citizens.
SADNESS OVERLOAD!!!! Cause they got giraffes, penguins etc super cute animals there!
SIGH. This can't be done unless I become a EU citizen in future.
Maybe Malaysia zoo lo.
I wanted to at least volunteer once in a lifetime.
Cause I always wanted to be a veterinarian surgeon when Im young.
It's okay, being close with wild animals is good enough.

In this few months I realize everyone chose to be here for different reasons.
Some people study a particular course just to get a job that can earn more than usual in future,
some people study just to please their parents, some people study cause they don't know what
suits them or they don't really have a huge interest in something.
Yeah everyone have their own perspective and plans for their future.
Why compare yourself with others? You will be unhappy in the end.
Very very unhappy.
Of course your concept of life and future will change as you move forward day by day.
You will meet different people and they might change your life and interest.
Maybe your plans will turn out different and even more exciting as you planned.


Currently I am happy with my plans.
I got more plans in near future. I AM GOING TO DO THIS.

Spring

Spring.
No more winter.

After 2 months didn't eat maggie.
Crazy. LAKSA!!!!!

So beautiful.
Never seen pink trees before.

This 2 guys been sitting there for many hours.
HAHAHAHA.
Just chilling.......... (AHHAHA)

Alice in the wonderland?

Today is a good day.
Hmm, I look tired but actually I am happy. HAHA!

So my boyfriend introduced me an app
that can auto change your homepage background every once in an hour,
or 3 , or more.

My creepers look good that time.
It's really old now.
Can't wear for long. sobs..

I still remember looking at the installation online
I was so happy looking at the real installation in Topshop, Oxford Street that time.

/// Spring ///


Flowers!!!!
Everywhere!!!
* plays Nujabes's Flowers *


Oh yawnn. Been working really hardcore recently.
One laptop, 20+ tabs, researching for 2 projects and jobs.
Yeah. Everyday. But good thing is my hair is short and less heavy.
It's not that bad after all huh. :)

(trying to be confident HAHAHA)

Craft beer

So then on Sammy, Feline and I bought some crafts beer back to try and
research about from Borough Market (past 2 weeks).
There's a beer store named Beertopia in Borough Market selling
many kinds of crafts beer from different countries.
Of course London craft beer is a must!
3 person approx 10 beers. MUAHAHA!!!
We took many photos of what they have there, packagings!
Will upload them soon once i'm free. AHAHHA!

So a few of us came to try them out.
Since Ashley have flatmates who drinks a lot, she knows some games for drinking. HAHAHA.
Then we started playing. WALAO EH this is so fast!!!
And this is so fun to do! I LOVE IT.

Craft beers are really exotic. AHHAHAHA.
The flavor is pretty wild, unexpected!
Stout that taste like coffee.
Lager that taste like marmite. WALAO EH!!!!
MUST TASTE AGAIN BEFORE I GO BACK!

Tired

trying to look better but still have tired face.

Spring guys. SPRING!!!!!

Super motivated recently after getting some approval on concepts and ideas.
YES! KEEP IT UP!!!

FAT!!!!!!

I SAID JAWLINE.
NOT CHEEKBONE.
OMGGGGGGGGGGG
SO FRUSTRATED MAN!!!!!!!

MY FLATMATE SAID IT'S FAT!!!!!
360 degrees FAT!!!!!

This haircut

imagine it's flat and square.
HELMET WEI.
It look worse right after the cut.

I went home and bath, washed ma hair and adjusted a little.

Hmmmm...
With jacket it looks cool.

Without jacket.
LOOKS WEIRD.

I don't know what's this supposed to be.
ARGH!!!!!!!

/// cut ///


Trust me. You don't want to see from side view or back.
I think I'm just gonna shave my back part a little.
URGH!!!!! It's like a staircase now.
Super aunty from side view.


Im not really happy with my hair now.

I'm gonna make homemade hair mask for myself. And facial mask.
Hope my hair can grow faster.

Borough Market Noms

MELTING CHEESE.

Pickles are superb!!!!!

Look at the cheese on the potatoes!!!

/// Borough Market ///


Another day in Borough Market with Feline and Sammy, but Sammy went off early.
We were consider a little earlier than others so we got to buy some nice food without
queuing that long, especially for Raclette!
Super awesome. Look at the melting swiss cheese!!!
That cost 6 pounds. But damn the pickles are nice!!! Of course the cheese~~~
NOM NOM NOM.

Borough Market is a good place.
Never fail to disappoint me. It's the second time here and still everything look so nice.
I will be uploading more photos!
So stay tuned!

不出所料

结果,他自己来找我。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

果然。。。。。。。原因是冲动。

他们说得对，让他自己来找我比较好。

上门道歉了，还算有点心意。

也特地让他内疚了一下。

但是都大概懂这个人到底是怎样了，来找我就回他咯。

不着我就不找他。

和他开始有点不自在。

可能是他太过有钱了，站在他隔壁都觉得相差太远。

无所谓，我的目的现在只有读书找工作，没别的。

朋友不朋友根本不是一个很大的问题了。

最好笑的是他所以后他订婚了他所要我去伊朗参加他婚礼。

而且是他包我的全程。

开玩笑，我不需要！！！！

用人家的前简直就是200％罪恶感，无论他借不介意都很有罪恶感好不好。

我真的搞不懂为什么有些女生洗男人钱洗的那么干脆，

那么爽快自在！完全就是应该的那样。

哇我想象罢了都觉得很反感。

不要为我花钱，please.

他结婚的时候在说。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！

4am in LRC

YEAH MAN.
I am still there alone.
Sat from top floor part by part to the ground floor.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Change spot change feng shui for me to brain some ideas for my work.

USHH!!!!!!
did 21 pages of research and a bit of writings.
URGH!!!! BRAIN BRAIN BRAIN PLEASE WORK!!!!

Sometimes it is really hard to brain some extremely new ideas out of one brief.
Since 36 people in my class is working on the one I chose.
URGH, had some ideas but I heard some of them are using that as main concept.
HOW CAN!!!!! I can imagine how the identity works, but
people is using it. TO USE OR NOT TO USE?!

TO USE.
NOT TO USE.
TO USE.
OR NOT.

I am trying to brain some different ideas now.
Trying very very hard yo.
I don;thave tutorials tomorrow but still I decided to stay here.
GOT NO IDEA WHY.
Not much people now in LRC.
URGH!!!! I still have ohm, energy 30 minutes ago but now.
I CAN'T THINK.


/// funny ///

There's a few angmo at 1st floor, pushing one of their mate's chair
to the middle of the road while he is sleeping, lying down on 2 chairs.
AHHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHA OMG.
FUNNY SHIT!!!!!!
They saw me laughing at them downstairs.
HAHAHAHAHHAA.
WALAO EH they are so naughty. AHHAHA!!!
Made my midnight. HAHAHAHA!

2 months to final

This space outside the Art Gallery during summer will be nice.

HOTPOT!!!!!
a.k.a Steamboat!!!!!
They only know the term Hotpot here. HAHAHA!
Nah, malaysian gang's crave.
Must eat something chinese man, with tomyam soup base. WOOHOO!!

I've been sleeping super late recently.
Around 4-5 am everyday, and I realize my eye bags and
black eye is getting really serious now.
What to do, if you don't put more effort in this 3 projects,
you won't be able to even construct a portfolio for you future.
Can't save your ass if you work last minute.
So better stay up a little late to do more.

Now, we're have 3 projects on hand.
Not to forget, we need to adjust and reedit our old works to insert in our portfolio
for our identity design. HOLY SHIT.
3 projects due date on May!!!!
Left 2 months man!!!! I can really feel the super stress now.
And I am pretty on love with library even though it's a little crowded and noisy.
(as long as I have my headphones with me)

There's a handsome indian/pakistani graphic design year 2 student sitting beside me today in library.
I saw his nose side view and was like.... wow.... SO nice.....
And I can't believe he's younger than me (-_-)
Everyone here looks elder than us man, geez, really can't judge their age.

UHHH im so tired.
I am going to bed early today, 2.24 am now.
Time for bed. Didn't even sleep more than 4 hours yesterday.

Serious matter

Something's wrong.
Not because of that weirdass virgo guy.
I completely put that thing aside.

But me, mentally and physically.
What is happening to me man, wrong timing?
No one can tell what is the factor of making me so.

Not related to any guys I met here or whatsoever.

I realized I really need to see a psychologist about this in future.
(If I choose to continue this path, not my working path but others)

No.. Not because of stress.
Then.. what?