自信

Bought this necklace in Chatuchak Market, Bangkok 2 years ago.
Origami swans! 

我爱这围巾！

姐姐分享了一篇文章，有着很多比较胖的自信女孩照片，
打扮时尚魅力，美丽完全不输苗条女生哦！
外国很多plus size bloggers, plus size models 等，多靠他们，plus size 的时尚市场渐渐红起来。
英国有plus size model agencies, 模特都非常可爱自信！是他们让自卑的女性打开心门更爱自己。
我比以前胖很多，以前瘦一些都觉得很不自信，何况现在？
所真的我还没有胆量出街穿无袖衣。总觉得别人在批评。。觉得我难看。。

哎。不过昨晚参加晚宴，我还好咯。
比较自信一些，看见很多嘉宾都是胖胖的，但打扮很美丽，非常有自信！
very inspired. 我也会慢慢自信起来的。 :)

Red Shade

That's when I'm close to natural sunlight.

Indoor

Yup indoor looks darker. :D

Celeb Trendz!
Member price is about rm250+, added a conditioner, so it's like 300+ in the end.
I'm feeling good, battery recharged.
This is the shade I got for myself after I reach Malaysia.
Retouched a little before I attend my graduation ceremony.
It's really bright now, but after 2 months, the color looks more natural and slightly darker.
More like rose red. Pretty good color. But when it fades away leaving
my hair having uneven brown shades with grey hair sucks.
My grey hair turns me off so much.

magician?

I was last week, my hair color is extremely disgusting on this photo.

Forgot when I had the courage to buy and wear a hat.
I guess UK made me do that :)
Pinterest is a great place, been using that since few years ago, and it has so many ideal looks
that I wanted to own, like blouse with long coat plus a hat on ma head.
Very cute, too bad that I wasn't confident enough to make myself look better.
Now I took up this task to be happy. Plain self satisfaction.

Time won't wait for you, your eyes, skin and boobs with lose it's shape.
So, I'm gonna wear deep V in a year's time. HAHA let me slim down my arms first!

With Angie

/// Day Out with Angie ///

It's a pretty amazing day out to be honest.
2 girls gained so much confidence together, and having the same target in order to be more confident.
We had some shopping done together, and of course catching up, yum cha!!!
OMG Plan B's big breakfast is really huge -_-)

Great to see another girl being so confident around me, very good Angie!
More forward and be successful!!!
Show others you can be gorgeous!!!

Say You Love Me

This series of photos is inspired by Japanese Horror Manga Artist - Suehiro Maruo.

I like how he draws movements, many eyes, many lips, I love it.

I decided to try and take these photos in the dark, with long and short exposures. 

Spent 2-3 hours taking more than 100 photos. WOWOWO.

Thinner?

Lazy but easy+healthy.
Broccoli potatoes carrots and chicken breast.

Csaba said this brand is the best in Hungary.
AND WOW, it taste really nice!!!
I bought the left one, paprika flavour.

Past 2 weeks, look at the face.

Remember the chubbiness. 

Past 2 weeks. Look at the face.

Yesterday.
Look at face.

Yesterday.

Just now.

/// I see some effects ///

Is it stress? or is it the food.

I seldom eat much stuffs already.

The first effect I noticed is my face, a little less chubby.

And today I wore a skater dress I bought in Malaysia,

hmm, the waist part seems less tight, and less fat, 

but my lower belly still........ hmmm...

And my arms still...... jelly jelly.....

Maybe I should eat more of these man.

Su Tien's diet plan is helping :D

Although i didn't follow everyday. AHHAHHAAAAA.

OOOPS!!!!

But I am really happy to see I am slimming down a little!

experiments

This hard scrub facial mask is awesome.

checking my photo gallery and this 2 photos forms 1.
WOOOOW.

Some other experiments.
Took it late night while I am in a ultra stress mode.
HAHAHAHA.

No idea

HOHOO

HEHEHEHE
/// ignore me ///

Off we go, Bristol.

/// Easter break x Bristol ///


Ah finally a trip out with a couple of friends, Csaba, Suhan and David.
Bristol is a youthful place, man, a city with colorful cultures.


So David and Suhan went off first cause I wanted to see a few lecturers,
so I went with Csaba. From Hatfield to King's Cross, then from there to Paddington
and get a train off to Bristol.
Oh my, we almost miss out train. HAHAAHA luckily we didn't.
The view along the journey to Bristol was wonderful.
So many huge farms full of sheep, goats and flowers. Geez, I haven't seen a huge
scale of yellow flower farms before, mostly green in Malaysia.
Super excited! 3 of us went with 2 bags (one backpack with a small bag) except csaba.
GENG LO. He really don't have much things.
Sometimes I really wish I have a smaller smart camera. Man, my lens and camera eat up a lot of space.

And so we reached in the evening and had a really really long walk to our motel, Rock & Bowl Motel.
It's pretty good, located in the center of everywhere!
We booked a 4 bed dorm together, just like what we had in Bangkok.
I guess it used to be an office or something cause the ceiling looks like office type ceilings.
Yawn man. Super tired. we met up with suhan the couple and went of for dinner.
Took us quite some time to settle down cause we don't know what to have and where.
And of course we can't really decide, especially me and Csaba.
BAD BAD BAD. I KNOW. AHAHAH.

In the end we stopped by a English looking pub/ thai restaurant, The Old Fish Market.
Funny. HAHAHA. The asian, maybe Thai girl is so cheerful and sunny looking, love her!
Another funny thing, they have a dinner set served in japanese bento box, thai food in bento box in a
English pub looking restaurant. What a fusion XD

a lil update

A fatter angle. Not the real and fattest angle.
Not yet.
HAHAHA

Looks like kid's lunch box or something.
Scientists said red makes you feel extra full so you won't eat a lot.
Thats the reason I bought this microwave safe tupperware.

Some doodles.
3 looks that I really like.

/// Isolation ///

I've been hanging out with myself recently, isolating myself.

Cause I really don't want to lose focus on studies.

I don't feel like meeting anyone, talking to anyone.

Weird I know but sometimes I need some private space alone.

Dream and Future

uhhh so cute.

Look at the chubby body of this cute lil pigeon!!!
ARGH!!! I want to touch it so badly.

Ha chilling in the neighborhood cause it's sunny with a little wind.
Lovely weather today.

/// Your future and dreams ///


I have been reading many articles about what to do and not to do in 20s,
also some articles talking about future and dreams recently.
And I am near to the end of my life in UK.
My 3rd project for my final sem is Self Promotional Project which ties me back
to analyze who I am, what I like, what I want, my plans for future etc.
Cause seriously when I thought of Who Am I, I don't have much clue before this project.
The thing I know about myself is not decisive.

I drew out a mind map about myself, then I realize,
my vision of my future is still so blur.
What graphic designer, what illustrator is not what I really wanted.
It's just a main career that supports what I really wanted to achieve.
Illustration is a hobby that what I really really like.
That's what I understand from analyzing myself this few days.

I guess what I really really wanted to do is to do something relating to clothing.

Not the sophisticated fashion design, but having my own clothing store
to sells what I like, and use my knowledge of graphic design etc skills to design
this shop as a whole. Independent label I shall say. (macam yes)
I like to look at clothing websites and blogs, especially Japanese look books,
cause they are sooooo organic, so rare and random, they have really good sense man.
Etsy and Folksy are great handmade sites to refer.
I really wanted to create stuffs I want to have myself!
Like tights. MAN I WANNA SILK SCREEN TIGHTS SO BADLY.

It doesn't seem relevant to what I learnt here.
But think again, I know how to silk screen, I know some other simply easy ways to do accessories,
I know some graphic design that can help me throughout the process,
and branding, also illustration I can do it myself, and finally photography skills
can help me in photographing goods and stuffs.
Not so bad right?
What brings me back to "future plans" of mine is my sketchbook.

I've been drawing outfits, looks that I like.
I don't have the ideal body to dress up like how I wanted to be so illustrating them
is a way of expressing how I wanted to look like.
And this is the reason I want to have a place for myself and people who likes similar things.

I always wanted to have a dessert house selling and renting zines and books,
selling some small goodies. Haha I want to plan this with my future husband.
But who knows maybe I will change my plan in future?
Or maybe my future husband don't want this. AHAHAH.
I remember Martha who gave us a workshop on our project,
" Don't think about your future as a graphic designer, think as a human. "
That gave me a huge inspiration.
She is right, we're young adults now and gonna step into the industry.
It's our responsibilities to contribute our skills and knowledge to the industry, and our country.
This need to be planned. HMMM... Somehow I can think of a few right now.
NEED TO REFINE AND PLANNED AS I GROW OLDER.

Yesterday I was so excited checking out jobs online,
then remembered there's something like zoo keeper for a day and volunteering jobs in ZSL zoo in london.(just an interest definitely not something serious)
But then sigh. only open for EU and local citizens.
SADNESS OVERLOAD!!!! Cause they got giraffes, penguins etc super cute animals there!
SIGH. This can't be done unless I become a EU citizen in future.
Maybe Malaysia zoo lo.
I wanted to at least volunteer once in a lifetime.
Cause I always wanted to be a veterinarian surgeon when Im young.
It's okay, being close with wild animals is good enough.

In this few months I realize everyone chose to be here for different reasons.
Some people study a particular course just to get a job that can earn more than usual in future,
some people study just to please their parents, some people study cause they don't know what
suits them or they don't really have a huge interest in something.
Yeah everyone have their own perspective and plans for their future.
Why compare yourself with others? You will be unhappy in the end.
Very very unhappy.
Of course your concept of life and future will change as you move forward day by day.
You will meet different people and they might change your life and interest.
Maybe your plans will turn out different and even more exciting as you planned.


Currently I am happy with my plans.
I got more plans in near future. I AM GOING TO DO THIS.

Spring

Spring.
No more winter.

After 2 months didn't eat maggie.
Crazy. LAKSA!!!!!

So beautiful.
Never seen pink trees before.

This 2 guys been sitting there for many hours.
HAHAHAHA.
Just chilling.......... (AHHAHA)

Alice in the wonderland?

Today is a good day.
Hmm, I look tired but actually I am happy. HAHA!

So my boyfriend introduced me an app
that can auto change your homepage background every once in an hour,
or 3 , or more.

My creepers look good that time.
It's really old now.
Can't wear for long. sobs..

I still remember looking at the installation online
I was so happy looking at the real installation in Topshop, Oxford Street that time.

/// Spring ///


Flowers!!!!
Everywhere!!!
* plays Nujabes's Flowers *


Oh yawnn. Been working really hardcore recently.
One laptop, 20+ tabs, researching for 2 projects and jobs.
Yeah. Everyday. But good thing is my hair is short and less heavy.
It's not that bad after all huh. :)

(trying to be confident HAHAHA)