Wet

As usual, London is always windy, cloudy and rainy.
Luckily I got an umbrella.
This rainy weather kind of got me into a moody mood..
Maybe because I know I cannot stay longer :')

Off we go, Bristol.

/// Easter break x Bristol ///


Ah finally a trip out with a couple of friends, Csaba, Suhan and David.
Bristol is a youthful place, man, a city with colorful cultures.


So David and Suhan went off first cause I wanted to see a few lecturers,
so I went with Csaba. From Hatfield to King's Cross, then from there to Paddington
and get a train off to Bristol.
Oh my, we almost miss out train. HAHAAHA luckily we didn't.
The view along the journey to Bristol was wonderful.
So many huge farms full of sheep, goats and flowers. Geez, I haven't seen a huge
scale of yellow flower farms before, mostly green in Malaysia.
Super excited! 3 of us went with 2 bags (one backpack with a small bag) except csaba.
GENG LO. He really don't have much things.
Sometimes I really wish I have a smaller smart camera. Man, my lens and camera eat up a lot of space.

And so we reached in the evening and had a really really long walk to our motel, Rock & Bowl Motel.
It's pretty good, located in the center of everywhere!
We booked a 4 bed dorm together, just like what we had in Bangkok.
I guess it used to be an office or something cause the ceiling looks like office type ceilings.
Yawn man. Super tired. we met up with suhan the couple and went of for dinner.
Took us quite some time to settle down cause we don't know what to have and where.
And of course we can't really decide, especially me and Csaba.
BAD BAD BAD. I KNOW. AHAHAH.

In the end we stopped by a English looking pub/ thai restaurant, The Old Fish Market.
Funny. HAHAHA. The asian, maybe Thai girl is so cheerful and sunny looking, love her!
Another funny thing, they have a dinner set served in japanese bento box, thai food in bento box in a
English pub looking restaurant. What a fusion XD

Midnight rain

The small lil pathway that I need to use
in order to fo to LRC.
It's surrounded with woods, and it's so cold.

I came back to my room soaking wet.
But it's nice to walk under the rain at 4-5 am.

Don't let negativity blindfold you. 

 /// 4 am walk ///


I can't really sleep, so I decided to get some reference printed in LRC.
I sent of my documents online to print, all I need to do is to collect them.

Didn't expect to have rain, it was extra cold.
It's about 15 minutes walk to the LRC but I the route I usually take is under
services and blocked, so I have to walk back and take another way to LRC.
The woods. It's a little scary at night but ghosts doesn't bug me here in UK,
I simply don't feel anything about spirits here maybe cause culture and race difference.
Pretty depress, cause it's raining and I have to walk so long.
Oh well, my bad to not check my email they sent to all of the students
regarding the blocked road. Man.

It was so quiet until I find it sad to walk like this. Depress.

I go on youtube to checkout some songs and played while walking to the LRC.
Feels better but doesn't make much difference.
Sometimes I will do things like this out of no where, cause I can actually print or collect them
in the morning. Something just made me get my ass off from my chair.
That sudden mood, sudden urge to go out and feel some loneliness.
So I reached, Wailok (jayden) was waiting for me with my documents
cause I asked him to collect from the printer in case it's gone or mistaken by people.
After he passed me my stuffs, I didn't go home straight.
I chose a spot for me to sit down and lean against the wall around the main entrance.
The guard and a few people saw me sitting there, I bet they must be thinking
this girl's drunk or on drugs.

Part of the reason made me stay is because of I need to protect my documents.
Then... Simply feeling lonely and want to have some time alone outside.
To chill my mind. It's been a pretty stressful week.
Full of assignments and social problems.
So i just sat there, trying to leave my brain blank, but it's so hard.
Why can't women be like men, to have empty moments in our heads?
I can't even do that when I am about to sleep!

Lamiya posted on fb yesterday, about her should start giving a fuck on people's feelings.
My case is the opposite. It is so so so difficult okay?
I am trying..... Everyone knows that I care how people see me.
And you guys know how serious am I. (I am trying not to be serious.)
There's this song by Alaa Wardi made me sooooooo sad.
That arabian vocals are so nice. But that song. ITS LIKE TELLING ME WHAT I NEED TO DO.
IS IT A SIGN??!! ITS SO DIFFICULT.
I sat there, checking out people's instagrams, checking out my photo albums.
Scrolling scrolling... .. . Then I realize memories made us all weak and strong at the same time.
It's alright I am fine, I am doing good now, but you have to understand
we all have a little emotional time okay....
What a terrible week I had. No, it was just a a few days ago but it felt like
a week or more?
Plus my period is almost here, moodswing moodswing.
I think I need to start watching comedies, cartoons and movies.
Cause it makes difference actually!
Also, I have to think positively, so I am able to produce positive aura and then let things change right?
Thats what the book of secrets teaches us correct?

+ positive +

Whatever. Whatever what happen in the future, I must now concentrate in my damn project.
3 projects all must be handed in after 2 months. Scary...

I.. need... to... FOCUS.
FOCUS.FOCUS. AND FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS.
I must be rude for today.
I fucking hate the word "insight" from now on,
and people who think they know me very well.
Even my sisters don't know everything about me, okay?
Shut up before you pisses me off.
I may seem like pattern A on the surface but actually
I have a lot of different patterns you never knew.
And pattern A that you see, it's just a really really surface thing.
Only people who's really close to me knows what am I thinking.

There's this one mate who think she knows me so well. (not talking about suhan, halie nor any close mates back in malaysia)
She kind of know 10% of me but she acts like she knows me so well.
Stop saying I am checking my angmo classmates out.
I am not interested. PLEASE. You think my time are 99% on guys?
PLEASE. I may on my scanner often but please, not always and everyday okay.
And you obviously don't understand which type I fancy  >: (

Now I realize, I can't have many close friends.
I will only have 1-2 in the end. Who knows my stuffs really well.
Cause it's really about the feeling you hangout with certain people.
Some people will have the feeling of making you split out your
history and true shitty stories. I don't usually do that.
Sigh. It's good. I have great close friends. I love you guys.
Thanks for always cheering me up.
I don't actually have time like this, it's rare.
But it's good, it releases my stress out loud.
It's been a long time I haven't transform myself into a gorilla.
:')

Pangkor Island beach time

Breakfast buffet.
Of course they have many food.
Faiz is the one eating most of them.
HAHAHAHAHA!!! LOOK AT THAT NASI LEMAK!!!

I care no more.
Fat will be fat, but time will not wait.
I'll just wear this and enjoy the sea!

AHHAHAHA

Crab's artwork.

Pretty. The sand and water is like sky.

* Snapped all using my Sony Xperia V *

CUTE AND LARGE!!!

Actually didn't really take photos cause don't want to have any burden,

don't want to take risk of losing my camera or phone, cause monkeys will probably check 

your bag and dig stuffs, I witnessed it. XD

It's okay to not take so many photos, I believe I will go there again few years later. :)

HAHA, so this is something taken around the beach!

Hornbills and birds will fly to a particular place in the evening to wait for food,

there's more than 20, peacocks will be around too.

Not a small number!

Weirdly, around 7 p.m, I saw a huge black color shadow moving slowly around Ocean Wing,

at first glance I thought it was a huge cat, took me a minute to recognized the animal.

It's a wild pig. It scared us man, it's not close to us, it was wandering around alone.

Never seen a wild pig in my life man, HAHAHA!!!

Very first black color wild pig yo!

I know it's not tame, will chase you around cause my granma's vegetable farm

used to have them around, and there will be PROs hunting them,

but I never seen them in real life.

What an experience!

The 2nd day was hazy, a little cloudy, not much of smell but look hazy.

Like some kind of game scenery. :|

Whatever, I just want to Kayak thats all. HAHAHA!!!

Pulau Pangkor - Ferry Time

What can I say?
This asian's side view is really flat and fat.
HAHAHA!!!!

So we got bored on the ferry. HUHUHU~~
By bf's Nexus 4.

snapped using Nexus 4.

HAHA I did poke into his nostril.
Feels weird. XD

I tried my best, here's some of my ugliest faces. XD
wow. distorted. 

He didn't really try so hard. but..
That one on the right is simply epic.
TOTALLY FLAT !!!!!

*all above are snapped using Nexus 4*

* Holiday Song *

SO finally, we finally got our butts sitting in a relax mode.
Took us about 15-20 minutes to reach our resort, Pangkor Island Beach Resort.
There's a special ferry to take us there privately with other tourists, not bad.
Quite a lot of China tourists yo! Not couple couple, is a whole huge family!
Maybe it's weekdays, not much tourist around.