Kiasu

Sometimes I just feel this way towards certain kinds of friends.
Not because they are super great, or not great, or whatever,
skills and design level is not much of a problem that makes me kiasu.
It depends on WHO.

I don't know, I don't feel kiasu towards some really good friends..
What am i talking about?
I am not sure.
Depends on WHO lo.
I want people to know I can do better than you.
I want people to see something in me that you don't have.

Before this I had a major depression period, being kiasu.
But after talking to ma family and friends, it is solved.
Still, 30% -50% of kiasu-ness is still in me.

I am starting to feel uncomfortable with a few people.
Seriously what's wrong with me?