Exhibition Private View

Today is really happening.
3 creative arts buildings are so packed with people.
Our arts and Design building's gallery was soooo crowded,
there's live acoustic bands performing there! I saw 2 guys singing are so handsome....XD

Firstly, I have to say today proved me wrong.
About thinking our university don't have superb students,
shameful for doubting that, because what I saw today is totally different from what
they showcase in our building, those in glass display shelves and stuffs.
Let's talking about GD. Holy. Shit.
When everyone showcase their previous semester's work and some of their personal,
and this semester's work, you can see the standard is going somewhere.
Not kidding, especially the Norwegians, they are really really good.
All the finishing is damn good, all the novels can sell out straight,
all the beer bottles they made is so trustable. Holy.Shit. You have not seen
their beer box. EPIC. Simply awesome.
I didn't expect to see such awesome works by our own batch of classmates.

Secondly, Illustrations.
Holy. Cow.
I love our dear TOA mate Zhen Yu's works.
It's pretty asian kind of taste but I love it! he is good in watercolor,  pencil,
vector etc. Every medium is good. Not to forget,
his works from TOA, commercial illustration works as well, no need to say, GENG.
There's some students from Illustration batch mates got D&AD awards too.
Many people are looking at their illustration works, and all are ready to sell.
people just write down their names and title of work and just order there.
COOL. Get clients straight.
Looking at their works made me sooooo excited to start some illustration projects man!!!

Next, modelling.
WALAO EHHHHHHHH.......
That blade and all, creatures, houses are all so nice man!!!
Will take more photos when i visit again cause too crowded.
There's a few dragon modelling really stands out. Nice eyes, nice textures, good coloring.
Love it, LOVE IT!

UHHH... So I have 2 friends in ID, Interior Design.WAAA....
All the asian power, those asians got some really nice work man......so good!
I met one guy from TOA, he worked in TOA before coming here.
and wow, he said he will give me 6 piece of laser cut wood with his
textile design on. YESSSSHHH!!!!!
LUCKY! SUI.
He designed stuffs and printed all in Malaysia and ship to him.
Kai wan xiao I thought of doing that but my due date is close so I cannot.
They use all the wood and laser cut machines to help them in their work,
and yeah it's so well done. Loving all the wood!

OK Then, product design.
Walao eh DJ live music man, another room is acoustic guitar solo.
Different mood and feeling, lovely!
I see some awesome stuffs here as well.
After this building we went to Multimedia building.
Ground floor Photography, first floor photography,
animation and VFX.
Then top floor multimedia.
Holy mama some animations and VFX are super epic.
Edward's team is pretty cool man.
The Asian power team. HAHAHAHAHA.
All the epic asians, the whole video are all VFX other than human.
Super real bro the background!!!
And Jo Ann's team's viking animation is super nice! I love it.
I saw 2 -3 epic VFX short films, wow, mind blown man.
There's a couch for us to sit and watch all the short films loop,
and food drinks everywhere.
Red wine white wine vodka coke juice sparkling water etc.

overall.
Epic.
Serious.
GENG.
Impressed.

Kiasu

Sometimes I just feel this way towards certain kinds of friends.
Not because they are super great, or not great, or whatever,
skills and design level is not much of a problem that makes me kiasu.
It depends on WHO.

I don't know, I don't feel kiasu towards some really good friends..
What am i talking about?
I am not sure.
Depends on WHO lo.
I want people to know I can do better than you.
I want people to see something in me that you don't have.

Before this I had a major depression period, being kiasu.
But after talking to ma family and friends, it is solved.
Still, 30% -50% of kiasu-ness is still in me.

I am starting to feel uncomfortable with a few people.
Seriously what's wrong with me?

极度干燥

summer, 正是情侣拍拖的好时期。
也正是那些单身或好像我那样的人的寂寞时期。
极度干燥，极度寂寞。

好寂寞。

朋友都有男朋友。
没有男朋友的都出国／去玩了。
我窗外每天都有人享受阳光，踢球，BBQ等娱乐，一群一群的。

我整个flat,单身的一个，一个新来的，还有我。
其他的都是情侣，都去玩了。
能出去的都不在。忽然间我觉得好孤单。

哎。
如果我男朋友在这就好了。
那么好的天气，我也想像别人挽着男朋友的手臂，
舔着冰淇淋在阳光下散步。
或是躺在男朋友腿上看杂志，吃水果，画画。

你以为我不想认识一群老外然后去玩？
你以为每个老外都像美国人那么热情？那么容易咩？！
英国人真的。很够力passive. 不能熟起来。
尤其是我flat的，住我隔壁的回了ireland,平时都很难谈，
而且我的flat大家都很少煮饭，很少见到面。
我还真的以为我能和flatmate很熟很熟，成为好友之类的出去一日游。哼！
11-12个人有点太多，哪里像别的flat,人少比较容易接近，
我超羡慕我一些朋友的。

哎。哎。哎！！！！！！！

我不要去伦敦，我要储蓄呀。。。。。

hiroyuki sanada

He's like Takehiko Inoue's manga - Vagabond,
That samurai. WOW.

I just finished watching 47 Ronin and I fell in love with this Japanese actor Hiroyuki Aanada.
WOW. UNCLE YOU ARE MY TYPEEEEEE.
SO HANDSOME OKAYYYYY.

47 Ronin was like.... so many awkward moments.
And it's just.. uhh.. nevermind. The story is like.. it's okay not so impressive.
But the CG of the environment is nice, color and lighting are really nice.
Had many screenshots of them.
Just that the western guy Kai's existence is pretty awkward.
AHHAHAHAHA. And the aura is always intense.
Damn. But its nice to see the Samurai culture and tradition in this movie.

I like this uncle. uncle. HEHEHE... EHHEHEHEHE.

Copy Cat

As someone in design industry, it's obvious that "copy cat"
is a really offensive thing to say.

Freaking pissed.

Yeah I know, you are better than me hell lot better than me in design, I admit yes.
Cannot compare. Cannot.
Even our idea is the same it's obvious people will remember you, not me.
Yes, you idea came out later than me but still you got the spotlight. yes.
Even the printing man thinks I stole your idea and freaking copy it.

C.O.P.Y C.A.T.

Became my title suddenly just because I print my things ONE DAY LATER
and out format of design is freaking same.
Fuck. These shit is serious to me.
This word. Is a deep ass scar in my life.
This scar is deeper than my ex's betrayal.

Freaking. Pissed.

I cannot stop comparing. YES.
And this drives me crazy and I suddenly have so much energy to
refine my work. Until the best I can achieve.
I can't believe it. I am not pissed because of that person's work.
I am pissed because of this copy cat things strikes, when I thought about
which work should I exhibit in my exhibition.
Seriously. I am really so damn mad.
Better design makes the bad one copy cat. fuck this shit.

If I exhibit mine, it is so memalukan.
Because mine is not as good as yours.
Because my finishing is not as good as you.
Then? what. People can simply say forget about it to me.
Yes forget. Sounds damn easy but sorry if you know what kind of person I am,
this doesn't apply, this is not comforting at all.
You are not suggesting any good thing to me.

copy cat. pff.
Just because I print one day later, and designed not as good as you.
I lost. I lost to you once again.

Midnight Movie

/// The Wolf of Wall Street ///

yo holy mama.
This is the first movie that had so much sex scenes and the word of "fuck".
Drug addicts sex fuck shouting crazy crazy crazy.

But it was good, so engaging man.

Anyways, Jordan Belfort reminds me of something.
People who got rich especially men, will tend to think that they should deserve betters stuffs in life,
and then forget their love ones who been through tough times with them.
Boom. affairs. money, chicks, luxurious vehicles, house, sports,
everything that people nowadays considered as "heaven".
人真的是自私，谈心。难道天堂的定义总是那样吗？
Make more and more money, takes more risks to make more.
Never ending money generating process until something hits you hard.

The moral of this story is a reminder to all.

It's 4.37am right now and out side it's like 7am in Malaysia.
Okay seriously gotta sleep. before it gets even brighter.

tit bits of today

Diet.

woah nicenya this morning!!!

Work in progress,
doing extra for exhibition.

very productive today, not bad!

Never Be Drunk

On Saturday, 2 days before my final submission,

I was super pia, working damn hard in my room.

Then I hear people vomiting, cause my room is right beside

my side's toilet, so I went out and check.

It happened around 2 am, then okays I kind of passed by the door,

I see people inside, the door is slightly opened.

But I know its a girl.

First sense I thought it was Charlotte my drinker french flatmate.

Okay nevermind I came back from kitchen and I knocked

the toilet door, asking is she doing good or not.

She said yes yes she's fine then she locked the door.

I heard her vomiting at the same time shitting.

But I know it's not Charlotte cause she don't sound like this.

I went back and continued my work.

SUDDENLY SOMEONE CAME INTO MY ROOM.

I WAS ULTRA SHOCKED.

"why are you in my room?!"

I asked after looking at her for 20 seconds.

She's an pretty indian girl. Busty, pretty looking girl.

All drunk, SUPER DRUNK.

She told me she thought it's her room.

Walao eh my room got my face outside, I drew my self portrait and pasted there

and she got SO DRUNK until she can't even see my face?!

WTF YO.

Then I bring her outside cause she wanna go home.

She walked upstairs and I thought she stayed above my floor.

mana tau she sat down there and started to vomit. WALAO EH.

I cannot bring her home like that! She's taller than me!

Then I went back to ask help from some guy flatmates. Unfortunately all asleep.

DANG. Then I went out to get her and walk her down.

She said where is this? I am from chapman!

I told her yes this is chapman hall B, where's your room.

She told me the number but obviously not here.

It's raining outside and I see her holding her heels AND PANTIES.

THEN I SEE SHIT STAIN on her skirt.

O.M.G.

This is the one who's shitting and vomiting in out toilet.

WALAO EH......

FINE. Suddenly she became so sober, maybe cause of the rain,

so she asked me to go back to my room she will handle herself and walk back.

She seems sober so I let her go, probably she's embarrassed too. 

So this story ends here.

I think she's too drunk and can't hold her shit so she shits out.

Also, she didn't flush. AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.

MAN THIS MADE MY DAY!!!!

Moral of the day.

Never get drunk.

Hazel eyes

I just realised he has Hazel eyes during the trip. WOW.

Done handed in.

Some works of mine.

Have yourself a
me-rry lit-tle christ-mas

Design 2 - it's coming earlier this year.
Actually its gold and grey silver, not greenish yellowish.
It's the camera problem.

showcase 3 work teasers on postcard idea.

Satisfying Metallic Gold printed text.

Now I realise how slow am I in working out designs.

Managed to finish everything on time, pretty surprised.

I felt damn chillax when I am cutting and sticking my christmas card.

I was humming christmas songs. AHHAHAHA. Whole night.
Actually Fedrigoni's free gold sample paper saved my life, that 14 sheet
can cut into 10 namecard size paper, so I stick 2 gold layers between 2 namecards to
create the weight and side printed effect.
Not bad worrrr.

So my identity is my birthday XMAS x ANGEL.
Because of m birthday, I have this name.
So I hope people can remember this angelic name by my birthday.
This is a christmas card set, with 3 postcards, my CV as a greeting card,
then another letter to companies.
Not to forget my namecard. 4 icons, Holly, Angel's halo, Angel's harp, and snowflake.
In UK everyone recognises XMAS better than us in Malaysia, so my icons are okay, I hope.

This mixed feeling is bothering me.
I felt that it's over, but now when I come back to my room I feel that
there's something not done yet.
I want to spend time refining my works.
Editing them better for my exhibition.

After sleepless week, finally everything is over.

Honestly, I feel so down when I see the other student's work.
They are ultra geng, too much, when you see how thick are their sketchbooks and actual work,
you will faint and cry I tell ya.
They are really professional. Damn good.
I feel so bad about my work man.
It's so shit. I feel that my work is pretty shitty.
I don't know maybe I am not confident at all. I can't believe myself.
Sigh.
SIGHHHHHH.

bad bad day

I can't believe it. Today is so unlucky.


My namecard should be here before 3 but delayed, to 5.30,
but in the end it's not here yet.
I cannot collect it tomorrow or monday because
the post office is not opening.
So I have to take a cab to the depot and collect it, then
travel to London to print my stuffs.

I got 3 projects to print.

The most gaolat thing is my namecard logo color
will be different from my other stationaries for now cause
its too expensive to print them. The only way to achieve is to
silk screen, which i don't have time, but will do it after this submission.
Well, yeah, this submission will be a submission, won't be my real thing.
The only real thing is the namecard.

Okay freaking pissed.
So in the end I cannot achieve same kind of gold for my logos.
The heck lecturer want me to pokai man.
To get good marks I have to follow a little, moreover
it is pretty in gold.
Whatever, and then one of my project not done so
I cannot insert into my portfolio.
So portfolio delayed.
Tomorrow will print every single thing man.
I DONT CARE ANYMORE.

Damn I still need to print labels cut and paste, write report and stuffs.
The heck. Previously wanted to do silk screen printing but they say
my stuffs are too small to be printed.
DAMN......... THEN HOW?!

Saw David and suhan's novel redesign holy shit beautifully done.
Although the money abit... AHHAHAHA.
Like rm1k for a book. I bo lui.
I hope everything I print for tomorrow won't exceed 100 pounds.
Cause seriously, I don't have much money left.

Another pissed thing is my laptop is ULTRA SLOW.
And sometimes will black out.
AND NO AUTO SAVE. DAMN.
I can't believe. updated but became slower.
I am so scared.
Shit I still need to compile my sketchbooks and research.
ADUHAI!!!!!

nearby

A nice church near the train station.

SO CUTE MAN THE ARCHITECTURE.

A super cute house right beside the church.

All the horn players retire here.
AHHAHA

EVERYWHERE.

Must come here and try their food next time!

Wow my shortcut to class is so beautiful now!!!

/// Nearby ///

There's a lot of hidden lovely places around Hatfield.

Spoke to a friendly old man who lives there and he explained all those architecture

and history of this place. 

Such a nice guy, everyone around there is so friendly!

Played with a dog there before going to ASDA. (happened last month actually)

I've been ultra busy and not updating my daily life here, such a shame.

Ah I will go out and have a long walk alone after Monday's submission.

I am ultra stressful. All the printing shops are not working on weekends

and they normally closes shop earlier on Friday which is tomorrow.

I gotta finish EVERYTHING before 7am tomorrow.

Then travel to London at 10 to get work printed, buy some decent paper or envelope,

or get a nice box, then go back to Print again, then gather stuffs go home.

WALAO EH.

WAAAAALAO EH.

Okay gotta go make some food now and get work done on time. 

USH!!!! feeling good!!!

experiments

This hard scrub facial mask is awesome.

checking my photo gallery and this 2 photos forms 1.
WOOOOW.

Some other experiments.
Took it late night while I am in a ultra stress mode.
HAHAHAHA.