The Old Me

I am quiet in some ways.

But I never say that I'm not a kiasu person.

I am. HAHA. HA..

But I am sure. 

This kiasu me is back.

The long lost me.

There's only 5 people can really trigger my kiasu-ness in this whole world.

I even stopped following one on tumblr. 

then re follow. then quit following.

then.. then... then...

For a few times.

(in the 3rd year semester)

That person just made me jealous for years. YEARS.

I blame myself who's not hardworking enough for illustration.

I blame myself of forgetting my wacom.

So expensive, no good result, not worth it.

Totally men-cheap-kan my baby wacom.

Slap me.

And yes I am still struggling what I wanna study in UH.

GD or IL. (i know, again. again.)

If GD i got no chance for IL, not even chance for let me draw whole day, everyday.

If IL, I kinda miss GD works without IL in it. DAMMIT!!!!

I STILL CANNOT CHOOSE!!!

Kiasuism.

I remember what debbie asks us to do. XD

Simply lovely.

I really like the video. Oh I'm feeling it. So sweet so touching.
AHHHH !!! IM SO MOVED!!!
The feeling of looking at these are much more stronger than heterosexual couples.
It's rare and yet so pure. And the video gives an impact to me.
Daily life shots. ARGH!!!
I NEED MORE LOVE!!!




And I like how The Irrepressibles write shares their point of view of love,
music industry etc stuffs on their facebook page.
Very honest. I like it a lot.
This is what I want to see on a music artist/ band's page.
Not super hardcore promoting themselves.





I don't understand why some people can accept SM, Anal sex, Super abusing things, super hard core 10 P, but they cannot
accept homosexual love. -__-)
And I felt so insulted for a friend of mine, when a gay man asked my gay friend,
why are you so proud to be a gay?
WTH is that question, if you feel differently then just quit the circle lah!
"why are you so proud."
Really?? A gay man asks another gay man. And that weirdo gay man
started to critique my friend by saying..
" You're too high profile. "
Like trying to say my friend got no maruah.
WALAO EH.....................

Facebook is a a place where you social and you controls your own space.
That guy don't even have the rights to ask my friend to go low profile.
I cannot believe it. People want to be high profile and that's people's choice, why bother?
I felt so bad for my friend. He's always encountering weird stuffs meeting weird people.
You control your space, your life and stop bothering others.





Lesson of the day.

Live your own life. Stop listening to others.

one of the stuffs i did.

Okay na, this is how they want to be.
:D  AHHH!!!!

HAHAAAA..

Another work that includes illustration, and this,

made me so pening.

There's one more character la, did not edit it to here.

HAHAHAH!!! 

Relatives can ask for editing. Bigger eyes, nicer shape and stuffs.XD

FUNNY!!! But walah, done with 3 name card design in a day, which is quite slow.

Next time should speed up a bit.

The first time doing new things really consume hell lot of time, but it seems better

after the 1st tryout.

I look back previous designs of each project and I'm shocked.

It's really... uhh.... not presentable.

This shows that, each design need to be modified a few times, and redo in different days

to achieve better results. USH!!!

Proceed to next project. 

.... I need some time to enjoy holiday...

Smartphone

At last.
Family members, friends will no longer complain me using mobile phone,
no whatsapp no line no smart. XD

Honestly.. I only care the outlook, camera quality and Walkman.
If you don't even crazy and like the outlook of your phone,
will you really take 100% good care of it?
SO... I chose the brand I'm loyal to, Sony. XD
Been using Sony Ericsson for years and now Sony.
Xperia V this time.

Xperia Z is nice but too expensive.
Next time. Next time.
When my Xperia V dies.
Shocked that I've been using my sister and brother in law's phone,
the sheep phone and Sony Ericsson mobile phone for almost 3 years.
Fuyohhhhh.... I cannot believe it. GENG AH!
Today is the first time using smart phone, my own smart phone.
HAHAHAHA I know I'm late but I don't mind.


Ah, luckily I have a IT boyfriend to install stuffs and do some customization.
THANKS BOY FRIEND!!!! XD
Thank you dad for sponsoring a part of the phone! Thank you everyone who complains and made me buy a smart phone.

Ipoh is too hot.

Me and mom stopped by the road
because we cannot take the heat anymore.
Coconut is needed!

OHHH SO NICEEEEE!!!!

Finally. HAHAHAH!

I really enjoy driving in Ipoh. XD

Argh. 3 projects done. FINALLY!!!!

OFFICIALLY!!!!!

I'm so free!!!!

IMPOSSIBLE.

I got a client. at home. still, non stop.

I cannot rest. But at least this time, I can relax a bit.

Luckily I rented a few manga back home. Another drug for me.

Really need to find some time to repair my portfolio before it's too late.

Gonna buy ma new phone tomorrow. SUPER EXCITED!!!

YEEEE HAHHHH!!!!!

Fats.

Last month. Fat.
That eyes are actually sad.

No matter how they say, I still cannot accept how I look like.
I just don't feel good and happy.
And now, I'm gonna make myself happy.
Slim down like last time. Wearing S-M.
WTH!!! I still think I'm fat that time. Now I know what is real fat.
Seriously. I cannot sleep late anymore. I got a super huge ass now.
Huge legs. Huge belly. Huge arms. Huge. I'm huge like a giant tomato now.
I feel so sad when I stand beside my boyfriend.


Uhhh.............
yes. YES YES YES!!!!!!
I gotta slim down in these few months!!!!!

Imagery

Above average.
Means?

I guess that's some sort of encouragement from lecturers.
Pura pura say only. Actually not so good also say until not bad.
But at least that boosts your confidence. :\
Yeah. Yeah man.
I still don't think I'm good.
Uh.. Come on Angel.
Please please LIGHT UP YOUR FIRE!!!!!
FINAL YEAR ALREADY!!!

JACK YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
RECOVER SOON!!! USH!!!
We must finish what we want to do for this holiday!


True, I'm interested in publication design.
Should start making books or stuffs related to publication.
Soon I'll be handling  company's book also, YOSH!!!!

The thing I missed to present in class last project.
About a game mixed with elements of the ethnic groups in Sarawak.
Please excuse me for posting here, at least a space for me to split out my work.
XD HAHAHAHA!!!

The first packaging.
Inspired by Iban's traditional costume,
around the neck part, there's
some interesting patterns,colors and shapes.

Forgive me, the picture quality is very low.
Taken using phone. HAHAHA.
Gonna change phone soon!!!

Inside the brochure.

Fold fold fold open open open
tada brochure behind poster.

The back side of my brochure. HAHAHA.
I'm gonna fix this again this holiday.
I really like this project.

Did not snap the picture of this
pyramid shaped packaging design.
Love this!!!

Nights

A happy night.
But im ugly as sheet.

Mr won the fight and I belanja abit. :P
His supper after fighting!
You shine among others baby, I can only see you
even though there's a lot of handsome macho man there. :P

Ah, really don't know why will you
like me lo.
I'm still not feeling confident. :|

Those pictures were taken on last Saturday.
OHHH BABEH I finally finished 2 projects.
This is so hard. Still got more on the way. Walao eh...........
This holiday got no time for myself and my hobbies.
What happened to me, still working until late night, sleeping late
feeling stressful, feeling moody.
I dreamt of something, something about studying in UK.

Haha, seriously, Ipoh is super hot these few days.
Really cannot sleep without air con at night, my butt is burning and my skin is so sticky now.
Gonna take a quick shower before sleeping. SIEN.

Being home is like being in a temple.
在家进修。Cause my mother is super aggressive, trying hard to make me exercise,
eat 3 meals a day and eat healthily and lesser.
But still my parents bring me to eat whatever I want before going back to KL.
Checklist left quite a lot. XD

Never mind.
I jogged everyday okay, I also wanna keep fit okay? XD
Polo ground everyday man! Zumba soon too!
There's also a group of Malays, with super hot bodies exposing their abs, muscles
at one specific area.
Doing warm ups etc. Every girl cannot stop looking at them, even guys, uncle aunties went near
to watch them train their body, do crazy warm ups.
Not sure are they from the Muay Thai Gym across the road.
HAHAHA cannot tahan, I need my bf. XD


Alright, time to sleep.
I love you babe, don't misunderstand.
HAHAHA!!! Wo ai ni~

Muay Thai Tournament night.

This guy kicks a lot!

My fav shot that day :D

Look at that FACE!!!

Oh so man~~~

Mr before the tournament.
Sending cendol to my mouth. HAHAHA!!!

What a lucky shot, they both have the same kick!
GO FAIZ!!!

I can see that he's quite nervous :P
But congrats! He won the match!

Thabo and Hamdan.
UTP VS Ipoh Gym.
Most intense last match.
They're both so huge!!! 

HELLO???? Just an elbow scratch on forehead can be like this.
Bleed non stop!!! You think I'm not worried?!

A very intense night, my very first time watching a Muay Thai Tournament.

UTP VS Ipoh Muay Thai Academy gym team!

surprisingly UTP won 7 match out of 9!!!

WOOHOO they might be very stress in UTP :P

It's Mr's first fight! of course must go and support! :D

Thats why I came back one day before~ 

Honestly I don't really support this activity cause it isss dangerous.

But after some time and this fight, I don't care anymore.

This is what he wants, then let him be, HAHAHA he'll stop doing this after some years.

It's also a great experience! At least he have a mission to do, at least he will fight for something.

Also college is about creating awesome experiences and memories, so why not~

Since he like martial arts, Muay Thai's death rate is not as high as kick boxing so OKAY! DEAL!

But still.... I hope he can take care of himself better, cause I know he's a clumsy person. XD

Congrats again!! You really look amazing in the ring.

HAHAHA. Hmmmm, very attractive :P

After fighting also, whole body sweat smells bad but he still looks good.

HAHAHAHAHA I don't know, maybe we did not met for a long time already.

But I'm not sure about him, he stop looking at me oftenly, like how he does a year ago.

Keep staring at me, but now.. HMM :|

I do feel sad. 

No tablet, therefore, CAMERA AND LAPTOP

A muay thai fighter's feet, look at the vain and small scratches.
An ex ballet dancer's feet, my big toes are like that,
not as straight like others due to ballet feet practices.

Everything capture by brother in law's Sony DSLR.
(forgot which model and lens but I like the size of the picture, long~)

Ah I'm finally home sweet home.
Will be watching Faiz Muay Thai live tonight~(16-3-13)
My external flash light is quite cacat so I borrowed brother in law's DSLR and his flash light.
Sekali gus cause the flash light cannot be used on Canon, his's is Sony DSLR.
So I kinda tried out that camera. Like the lens and the photo size!
The cropping is nice, I really like long pictures.
Hmm, but the timing for auto focus is not as fast as canon.
Got so confused when I'm using Nikon and other models. HAHAHA, used to Canon only.
Yeee, 1 month did not meet my boy already, maybe it's because of this,
I feel extra happy and shy when I meet him.
We both feel so funny when meeting each other, close but still feeling excited.
Sigh how i wish I can see him twice or more in a month.
Luckily I'm on holiday in Ipoh now, so he can come back to visit every week.
Not every week though, I won'e be here forever. :|
HEHEHE finally can eat mom's food! Feel so good to be at home.


Less car, less jam, less buildings, less suffocating.
HAHAHA I created a food checklist :P
Gonna eat them all before I go back to KL or go some where else~
I have a strong urge to practice digital painting but darn I forgot to bring it back.
No choice, have to wait until sunday, meanwhile.....
I'm gonna snap photos, do freelance work and fill ma sketchbook!


From my observation, he seems bigger, more muscles but should eat more la.
HAHAHA, he's nervous and happy for the fight! HEHEHEHE, thanks for the cendol baby~

Before these. I do feel unhappy.
I'm a negative person. I'm living in a cave or something.
I wanted to interact with people but I have problems in communicating.
I'm a cave woman.
I guess I'm just a person who cannot handle with stress and problems.
And I cannot pick up the journey fast.
Even after semester ended, I'm still not in a holiday/ good mood.
I look at my face, I say, yes, your mood, your character do show on you face.
Im like a KU GUA LIAN right now.
Face got no brightness, eyes are tired, lips are pale sometimes.

Surprisingly, a rare customer-my lecturer started a conversation on FB with me.
I felt so sorry that I said I hate him to friends..HAHAHAHA   :P
See, this is me, actually i am super 犯贱。
1st day dislike this person, next day I will feel guilty and find excuse for me to forgive that person.
What the heck. I hate myself now.
He did gave a lot of advice and did tell me truths. AH.
I feel so relieved. But still. I'm still not confident with myself.

Hope everything's gonna be fine, hope I can really get my ass to the level of my
own expectations. YOSH!!!!

Freelance work MACAM YES!

Glad to have a superwoman cousin who brought me jobs.
I got the chance to design something modern for finance events since they are targeting youths.

For friends studying in University Nottingham and University Malaya (UM),
when you see these 2 heads, then that's my design. HAHAHAHA!!!!

DANG DANG DANG DANG!!!!

OMG for the first time doing something for uni students and it will be up for months.
Feels so good when your work is up and people are watching it!
I gotta improve more and do more stuffs this sem break.
This freelance job is enough to make me dizzy.
But yes la can improve skills and thinking.
Somehow critical writing is involved, oh yes!!!
Herrrr herrr herrrr.......
I finally finished the whole set of this project, YES!!!!
Thought can relax but no URGH!!!!
Huhu, but have to take a break, going to Genting with ys and ashley's gang.
YAY!!!! Then go back to KL then Ipoh on Saturday with my dear mother
to watch my babe's first Muay Thai Fight.

Feels like he's enjoying it so.. Support lo~
This is what a girlfriend and a wife should do :P
Fighting against same weight man, I wonder who will it be, HAHA!
Jiayou jiayou!!! USH!!! Don't be panic don't be stressed out o!
I will be there snapping your scary ass faces cheering for you yo!!!
CHEERS! XD

H&M got sales. WOHOOOO!!!!!!
Just reminding....... XD

A part of everything I've done.

Creepy horoscope stuffs

3.【金牛座】

金牛座的人都真性情,爱恨分明,总是口是心非。如果吵架,没有多想,一定下一句话说的比对方更狠,更没有退路,然后不知道得意个什么。要命的自尊,喜欢简简单单就好,不喜欢世俗,一根筋想问题。开心时候什么都能丢一边,不开心时候一句话也不愿意说。

金牛座最大的弱点就是心软，即使受到再大的打击和伤害，只要对方低下头来说对不起,虔诚的道歉，我们就会忍不住说没关系。金牛座最见不得别人哭，看到痛哭流涕的人，会不由得去同情,去安慰。金牛座的心最软，也最容易受伤，生活的琐碎，习惯了一个人承受。

金牛座最毒的地方就是那张一天到晚呼个没完没了的嘴，话多起来停都停不下来，沉默起来谁都不理。金牛爱的狂热起来连呼吸都忘了，冷淡起来对方的存在都可以忽略不计。金牛幼稚起来可以去读幼儿园 ，深沉起来可以媲美哲学家。金牛疯狂起来可以把天捣塌下来，安静起来可以消失在空气中。

金牛座通常脾气很好,因为他们有极强的压抑心理 可以将任何情绪掩盖在外表之下,并且你要相信,他有这个本事一忍到底 通常他们不发作是为了不让别人难堪,金牛很爱自己的面子,自尊心极强,正是因为如此,他们也很懂得保护别人的自尊和面子。

金牛男其实并不喜欢喧嚣热闹的场合，对他来说，舒适的，习惯的地方才是好地方。特别是上升金牛的男生，年纪越大越有宅男倾向，饭店，品牌，无不选择自己习惯的，很少去费心更换。如果你要和金牛男谈恋爱，就得和他拥有一样平静的精神曲线，否则早晚会闷到受不了。



4.【双子座】

双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。其实真的是一种误会！

突然感觉，其实身边很多人不懂双子座，很多时候的好心总是被人误解。用心的付出，用心的爱却总是被别人浪费，甚至嘲笑。一个人的时候才是真正的自己，一个人的旅游才能收获真正的快乐，是否这样就注定了双子座王者的孤独。牵强的微笑背后谁能看出双子们的忧伤。

双子表面花心，却实际是个爱情的执着者，不管这个世界变成怎样，他们对爱的专一永远也不会变。双子的爱很深，他们虽然不常开口，但却一直都在观察着你的一举一动，还有双子的第六感出奇的好，千万别做让他们伤心的事情，双子会记住，要爱双子，最主要的就是要能踏踏实实不能分心的给与最深的感情。双子座的博学多能总是很招人嫉妒，在爱情中，聪明伶俐、才思敏捷是其战斗力发挥高效的主力因子。

双子们给旁人的感觉就是爱情精力过盛，要不然大 家为何总看见双子们总和N个异性暧昧不清？其实能做到 “博爱” 所需要的战斗力不是一般星座能达到的，像双子座这样的 “二班” 星座也不多。双子的孩纸们是讨人喜的，他们是博学家，懂得很不少，不管在什么场合，他们大都可以侃侃而谈，让人无法忽视他们的存在。故而，双子的孩纸们素有“十二星座交际大师”之称。

如果你是双子的另一半，那么不管是在公共场合还是私密场合，他们都会让你觉得不被忽视，有他们在身边，你不会无聊，不会不痛快。他们仿佛是天生的交际者，有着让人折服的魅力。双子座的人才华横溢，拥有自由的思想和英明的决断力。不喜欢在一处久留，不会义无反顾地投入到某件事中。言语行动通常恰到好处，厌倦单调和枯燥的环境。如果能够利用意志力把自身的多种矛盾因素拧成一股力量，可将自身的优势发挥得淋漓尽致。


5.【狮子座】

狮子座不喜欢做决定，小事随便怎么样都行，没所谓。大事很喜欢听朋友的意见，如果你是狮子可以信赖的人，你需要做的只是分析，决定狮子会自己来做。如果狮子有了自己的想法，一旦下了决定就算全天下反对几乎也没有改变的可能。其实多少有些靠直觉行事，不过狮子的直觉大多时候还蛮准的。

狮子座的笑永远都是最单纯的,无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的狮子,因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人,却只把悲伤留给自己。你没有看到过狮子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在别人面前哭,当你看到狮子的眼泪的时候,那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了,因为狮子真的很需要一份值得的依靠。

狮子座擅长交际，阳光开朗，口才很好，对人对事都很大方，同情弱小，很够朋友。 面具下：非常非常自我，总会有种“我是对的，你和我不同那你就是错的”思维模式。超级爱面子。恋爱私下会很呵护对方，乐于付出。

狮子座爱上了就会变得特别体贴！喜欢自由，单身时最不喜欢被束缚的狮子，一旦陷入爱情会立即180度大转变，恋爱中的狮子们会表现出与平时截然不同的状态，变得很居家、很会照顾人，难得一见的温柔面在这一刻尽显无疑。能和狮子座的人在一起无疑是世界上最幸福的！

狮子座的人喜欢和没有心机的人交朋友，就是那种为朋友两肋插刀的那种，一旦成了朋友，狮子就把你归为自己人, 在他的控制范围内了，那样有时候会给那些人带来困饶，因为觉得狮子太粘，感觉不太对味！其实狮子心理明白付出不一定有回报，但是，作为狮子来说，宁愿别人负我，我也决不负人。



7.【天秤座】

天秤座有善辩的口才，被别人误会的时候却不爱解释。不要问为什么，就是不爱解释。不喜欢伤害任何人，宁愿伤害自己。前景不乐观时会对喜欢的人冷静的说恨话，会口是心非。吃软不吃硬的一族。你软，秤子就对你没脾气。你硬，秤子就比你还横。有调查，十二星座谋杀记录最少的就是善良的天秤座。

天秤是个不能长期处于孤独之中的星座，一生都在寻找停靠的港湾，冥冥之中遇到你，喜欢你，爱上你。有了爱的人，他们便习惯天天粘在一起， 即使因为工作需要不得不暂时分开，也会保持最密切的联系，最后的结果常常是天秤什么也不顾的去你所在的地方，陪伴着你，因为爱着，所以习惯相依相守。

天秤温文尔雅，风度翩翩；在人前永远一副超脱的什么都看淡的，老好人的模样； 面具下：很注重自我意识，并且很需要别人的肯定。他们很有表现的欲望，无论在什么场合只要得到肯定他们就会非常满足，喜欢成为公众人物的感觉，同时有些自恋。

天秤座的人在争抢东西方面总是最弱的。属于自己的东西总是被人抢走还一副无所谓的样子，总给人留下懦弱无用形象。其实不是天秤没有能力去争抢，只是天秤明白一个道理，真正属于自己的东西是不用去争去抢。这不是优点，是缺点，只是天秤一种与生俱来的性格。




8.【天蝎座】

天蝎座嘴很毒，心很善，表面把你说的一无是处，心里却比谁都珍惜。蝎子缺乏安全感，睡觉喜欢侧着身子抱着枕头或被子。他们总是看起来很快乐，看起来很坚强，可那都是伪装。有人说天蝎可怕，那是因为他根本不了解天蝎，如果你走进蝎子的世界，那里一定充满温暖却很忧伤！

天蝎座通常感性重过理性，比较偏执，比较极端，要么不爱，要么爱到骨子里；天蝎座有时通情达理，有时歇斯底里，冷静下来又很心软；天蝎座一旦动了感情，拿的起，放不下；天蝎座外表冷，内心其实很热，很温暖，真的成了知心或恋人，这辈子，很忠诚。受冥王星主宰的天蝎座具有核武器一样的能量，核能带给人类的是进步也是毁灭性的灾难。对于天蝎本身，巨大的内能如不能正确地发挥，导致他们的能量向内消耗，无意识的天蝎有着自我折磨和自我摧毁的倾向。强大的能力如果变成愤怒，真是如同原子弹一样具有摧毁性，一发不可收拾。

不要辜负蝎子的信任，如果蝎子信任你，那就是毫无保留的相信，如果这时你不相信蝎子，他本来就不会太温暖的心就会迅速冷却，之后回归冷漠。无论你再有什么事，都会用一双冷冷的眼睛看着，不多说一句话。蝎子的自我保护欲很强，如果被伤到一次，就绝对不允许再受同样的伤，很难再相信别人。




10.【摩羯座】
摩羯喜欢一个人待着，想自己的心事，做自己的事情，沉醉于自己的世界。摩羯情绪波动较大：为一件事情可以心情突然就阴翳下来，有时候无由来的烦躁、忧郁。但摩羯心地很善良，同情弱者，常常喜欢打抱不平，敢爱敢恨。讨厌虚伪做作、华而不实、虚情假意、玩弄心计，搬弄是非。

有些小虚荣，爱情至上，勇于去爱，享受被恋人欣赏和拥护的满足感。说话直率，常以老大的口气劝导朋友，但自己往往做出飞蛾扑火的事情。外表开朗坚强，内心彷徨而阴暗。摩羯座本真的一面很吸引很可爱，行动力强，感染力也强；复杂的一面里夹杂野性、另类、冷漠、自我、彷徨。

摩羯座内心敏感，前一秒你可能还跟摩羯玩得疯颠，下一秒你就看见摩羯安静冷漠的做着自己的事。对真正喜欢的东西很坚持，其他都三分钟热度。相信永远，又害怕受到伤害，是个非常矛盾的星座。

喜欢一切温暖的东西。热爱一切自由阳光的事物，做事坚定，执着、不虚假。魔羯星座对你的情感持久、稳定，他让你找到了对男人的尊敬。他冷静、强大、理智、专注投入、持久，他少年老成，给你一个坚强的臂膀让你依靠，在你最需要他时，他能够提供最可靠的保障。无论在家里、在事业上、在生活上，他都当仁不让地肩负着保护你的责任。这就是摩羯。摩羯真的很为别人着想，打心底的为别人着想，决不是做表面工作的那种，是用心去关心他人，很在乎自己说的话会对别人的影响，尤其是自己一直看重的人，如果会对对方造成负担，摩羯宁愿自己默默地承受一切。摩羯是十二星座中对人最诚实、最心软地一个星座，也是相当孤独的一个星座。