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LOOK AT MY PIMPLES!!

It's 1.10am now.
I am reading this book.
About another perspective of looking into Disney's world.

This is one of the library, it's at College Lane.
There's another one at De Hav, which is another place,
 we need to take bus to reach there.

This is Ashley

This is Wailok.
HAHAHAHA, interactive student, Ash's classmate.
Also from TOA.

Yup, we're now camping in the library.
We're all working on our essays, cause we have tutorial tomorrow, separately, different lecturer.
Ah, man I am seriously. Tired.
I hope my essay title can work out man, cause I really like it.
USH!!!

October in UK

Leaves are turning yellow, red.
Wind and rain are getting heavier day by day.
The weather is changing, like how things change rapidly.


It's been awhile not typing anything here. :)
I miss blogspot.



It's 5PM here but it's like 7.30 PM in Malaysia.
We're having more night time here.
I feel different here.
The level of stress, is way different.
I do feel ultra stress, but when I went out for a walk, or went to the kitchen to make food,
it feels like " man, this place is chilling. "
Unlike those time I had back in TOA, finish class, went for dinner or lunch then drive home.

I still couldn't believe I am here, alone without family and relatives.
But I feel okay about it. Like, I'm used to this.
I am happy to have flatmates, at least I have another bunch of friends around other than classmates.
Halloween is around the corner, they are planning to watch horror movies on Thursday,
in our kitchen with all of our flatmates.
Then Friday will be our kitchen's Halloween party night. :D
YAY, this is the first time I celebrate Halloween!
I'm excited about it!

So far, I can understand most of the heavy British accent, but not Jonathan.
Jonathan is my flatmate, handsome tall Polish guy.
What happen to my ears yo, I cannot catch up at all, I felt sooo embarrassed every time I have to say
"sorry come again?", "pardon".
Damn. This is so hard. But he did suggest me to talk more to him.
So I ca adapt his accent. HAHAHAHA THE HECK .
He thinks chicken feet is disgusting. HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!
Funny dude. He is a really helpful person, super gentleman.
He tried to fix everything before callig the student service center.
Super cool guy who studies physiology.
Lamiyah is a cute Muslim London girl I met here, another helpful person who have a boyfriend name Hassan.
HAHAHAHAHA!!! Studies Graphic Design, level 5 here. XD
She loves horror stuffs, she's the one who suggested both day's plan, movie night and halloween night.
Sweet!


Hmm, here I realized, many asians got so westernized after a month staying here.
It's seriously. A huge change. HAHAHAHA!!!
Sex here is like, normal. Still to me, ain't something I can do with everyone. :|
Ah, I'm like, no club, no pub.
Probably cause I dont have time for that man, every weekend have to go out and do research.
I AM SO TIRED.
MY FEET. MY TOES.MY SHOULDER.MY BRAIN. MY EYS.

I NEED REST.

David + Suhan

It's been a serious long time listening to both of them talking about each other.
Man, YOU GOT NO IDEA HOW LONG.
Everyday same story man, suhan suhan david david.
OMG. Serious. This 2 person kept on talking about each other to me.
WALAO EH, david suhan david suhan, this 2 names kept repeating in my head.
I even dreamt of you both you know?!  (for 3 4 days recently)

Anyway......
From classmates, best friends and now!!!
Finally, I present you.

Couple David + Suhan.

DANG DANG DANG!!!!!
OMG HAPPY.
(Jack must be looking at this and laugh like mad)

Look at the last photo, me and Ashley trying to mimic them. HAHAHAHA!!!
And look at my shy face looking at them every corner. HAHAHAH!!!
SIEN OH!!! SO SWEET WEI!
Diabetes, diabetes around me now.
All I have to say is, congrats.

See I told yeah, who says best friends can't get together?
Manga just got real yo!!!
OMG. Look at this 2 emo and negative person,
they finally exclude the emo-ness and move on to another stage of happiness.
Man, I'm really happy looking at them, keep laughing also got. HAHAHAHA!!
Hope you guys can manage each other well and live a better, happier life, okay?

No more emo, no more negative.

YOSH! CONGRATS!!!
<3 p="">

Spirits in UK?

Edward my flatmate have the ability to see what we don't see since young and
yesterday he told a few of us that he saw one white shadow in our kitchen.
He said he saw it few times there, and this explains something about our kitchen.

Everytime I open the door, I feel there's a strong cold wind hitting my face. I shivered.
Everytime I go in and make my food, my fingers will be freezing like I'm in a huge freezer.
Even when I wore a lot of cloths.
I called the service center to heat up our building cause the whole flat is too cold, it works,
but never in the kitchen.
I did checked our kitchen's heater but meh it's not working at all.
And the scariest thing is, Edward told me that spirit is always at that corner, around the heater, and
one of our refrigerator. MY GOD.
That's one of the peti sejuk I'm using man!!!
No wonder I felt extremely cold there!
Sometimes the plugs are not working, like, weird.

But the good thing is the spirit is not giving a bad pressure.
So nevermind, I still go there like nothing happened.
So far so good. AHAHAHA!!!

Watford

MUAHAHAHA.
(of course I don't own them all XD)

All of us, and SUHAN who's taking this photo!

Each of us had a super ugly face in
different photo. HAHAHA!!!

Our important day.
We wore dress for the first time in UK!
(first time for me wearing to go out)

Ashley Me and Joanne.
HOHOHOHO!!!

/// Last week ///

-first time at Watford-

Watford, not so far from our university, the place that have many handsome guys and shops. XD
We went there to get some basic clothing cause things we brought from Malaysia is simply too thin
for UK man, it's really cold, and we really need scarf and gloves.
So here we are! luckily it's not that cold that day, and hohoho.
Me and Ashley wore skirt!!!
Cannot believe right? XD I never wore any skirt to date or something,
but here, I have to try, cause I don;t have much cloths. HAHAHA!!
Didn't expect ashley to wear too, coincidence :D
We went there to shop for our needs then we stopped by Nando's to eat our late lunch.
We took bus there, actually it's not that long, almost an hour I guess.

Now I know how to go by myself, I know the direction, YES!!!
Look at the first photo, david is the only guy, AHHAHAAH!!!
Weird right, looks weird.
Well, he took care of us alright, so bravo although it seems a little awkward standing with a big
gang of girls. HAHAHA!!!
We spent a lot of time in Primark itself cause it's really really cheap!
I bought a coat there, I guess winter can tahan.... HAHAHA!!!
It's pretty nice. Also the panties there is nice. HAHAHAHA!!!
Not bad quality yo! :O  It's like forever 21 selling panties, but better quality!

little things

I may sound stupid but..
Yeah me suhan and joanne bought 2 3 bags of that cute figures
to try our luck.
That one on the right is for Tiger B. XD

SUPER CUTE RIGHT!?
It's Moshi Monsters!

This is what I got. CUTE!!

I bought Cocorosie's latest album,
the last piece on rack, like super rare to see.

Lucky man!!!
I like the texture.

Also the illustrations inside.
Very elegant, detail and the type feels very raw.
I like it.

I bought that album from Galleria, nearby our university, last week.

Wow, I am super happy, at first I kinda look through everything but I found no cocorosie.

beofre going off, I searched it up again and YAY I FOUND IT!

hohoho, those indie music in Malaysia is considered quite mainstream here in UK, like The XX.

It's heading to mainstream accordingly to a UK local band guy, my classmate.

Woo, there's a lot of interesting things in the shop, which shop again...

Many nice album covers! WOOO this is my first ever album I bought myself,

usually I download them, I know it's bad.. D;

Now I am seeing the art of buying albums physically, so exciting, and each album have 

unique things inside.

LOVE~~

I bought those toys at Watford last week too, super super cute.

:P hehehehe I like them a lot. 

Yes

I decided,
to leave my relationship aside and focus on UK life for now.
I cannot screw my studies.

I love you babe.

Action, is what you're lacking of.
If you manage to pick it up, I will definitely stand up and give you a big clap also a big hug.

Hoping too much?

I hope you can improve your studies,
ignore and filter those that doesn't benefit you.
I hope you can grow up and be a man,
who protects me and you,
in many ways.
I hope you will think further,
think in a realistic way and plan your future, also our future.
I hope you do what you promised,
do what you need to do,
and stop doing things that waste money and time.
You have to realize you don't have much time and you have many things to consider,
and there's always a chance to lose things from your life.
I hope you can take things seriously and start to plan wisely,
be someone I can rely on, be someone that plans thing for both of us.


I am so far yet so close to you.
I felt like you're always nearby, and I am still worrying about you.
When can I let go of all of this?
Do I need to tell you what I like and dislike directly?
Or should I put it aside and pretend I don't know everything and let you
realize what's the cons of doing all these thing.

Seriously, I hate you staying up for me.
I forking hate it.
Can't you think of your work and your health?
Please, take care of yourself first before taking care of me, I . AM. SERIOUS.


I am almost 21.
I am almost graduating.
It's about time to step out from my room, my university to work, earn money for my future.
Be serious. I am forking serious.


Should I give up stuff that haunts me all these days?
Or should I fight against it and try to change it?


Honestly, I am not loving anyone here or anything that made me change my mind.
I am thinking about all these because I realized I don't have much time on things.
I realized things are getting more and more serious here, and things must be well planned.
Mature. Is what I need.
Here, I can totally focus on my studies, how bout you?
This is my last chance to strike in University, and I hope another side of my life- my relationship,
is stable, well planned, and confident.
I hope you understand our situation, our difficulties, our personalities,
our future. I want you to be independent too.

I don't want m life to screw up man. Seriously hell no.
Balance, is what I need.

I love you, don't get me wrong.
But I want someone that can support me.


If we got through all difficulties except family issues,
I will think twice.
If your parents doesn't wish us to be together, I will choose to leave.
I won't be happy, bahagia, if one of our family's elderly don't agree or dislike our relationship.
It's about future. Our future is important. And their acceptance is one of the core.
If anyone attempt to change me, then I will definitely leave the place,
cause once I accepted it, I will not be myself anymore, and that's not my life is about.
If I know that this sad ending will come, I will find a way to leave.
To make them like me or not? it's on you.
It depends on how you do it dear. It's really on you.
You don't even do what people SHOULD do, what else can I say.
You need me to teach you how to do?

Are you proud to be with me?
Are you proud to talk about me infront of your friends and family?
Ask yourself and give me an answer.

One day, a western DJ, david's friend took his phone and slide his photos of him and his GF,
keep on spreading his love towards his gf, like:
" this is my gf, I am really lucky to have her, she's the best girl i ever met"
I shall say, If my bf is like this man, boy, I am really lucky.

Did you stand up for me?
For our love?
No.
I cry every time talking on this topic.
It haunts me so badly.

If you love me, you feel proud.
Proud to bring me around, introducing me to family and friends.
If you don't feel so, you know the answer.
Tell me what you feel when you see this.

拥有物

Kit 叫我写我的泰国名字，
最上面那个。
好像66包。。。哈哈哈！！
那个是我的学生卡，很样衰。XD

我在 St Albans 买的花。
适合室内养的。

会收集更多不同种类的叶子！
很不同对吧？
现在也只变红了咯！

一包4片，超大的软饼干。
而且很便宜，一包5块马币。
超好吃！！！！

/// 最近 ///

很懒得煮。。。。。。。。
所以买了一些饼，面包，和乳酪吃咯。。
实在顶不顺天天煮，很累人咧，一天煮三次！
哎哟。明天有课，很够压力了。。。。。。。
没办法，今天快点有灵感就可以早睡，然后明天准时到。
很好！！！我肚子痛，不说了，
爸妈我想你哦～～

昨天和david聊到姐姐和侄儿，忽然又想念到他们咯。。。
呵呵呵呵我回来就会走路咯～

First class in UK

We, a bunch of Malaysians stepped into class of 65 people at 10am,
and realized, holy mama, there's SO MANY STUDENTS.
I think the international students are already 1/3 or half of the class man!
There's so many people in this class, luckily the classroom is big enough to fit us all.
Well we couldn't mix into the locals today cause when we got into class, they are already sitting together and there's not enough space for us.
So the international students sit separately. (not only malaysians, there's more)
Wow, there's 3 lecturers to help us in this particular GD subject.
There's one lecturer who sounds and feels like Ban Lee.
Gaolat liao, I can tell he is picky and very fussy.
This time, gaolat.

And another one sounds harsh, straight but honest.
Then there's a female lecturer, super nice man, like her a lot!
So we got to sit with 2 china girls and 1 local if not mistaken.
Kind of have a small activity writing about our expectations on ourself and tutors throughout the year,
and our concerns next year.
It's a group work, so after writing that they put them all up to explain how they will help us,
answer some questions we made on the paper.
I like it this way so we can get our answers right away.
Then they kind of brief us what is this module about and our project about.
And showed us our alumni's work.

HOLY SHIT I am seriously stress.
There's many many good graphic works here man!!!
We got to get our senior's exhibition booklet for free!!!
YES!!!!!! I'm gonna post it soon.
Then there's this one TOA senior studying here got nominated for D&AD's award!!!
SERIOUSLY. THUMBS UP.
It's a perfume packaging design, wow, 3D modeling yo, super nice.
Then the lecturer's showed us some works that might inspired us for our project.
It's something about lost heritage la, something we did before last semester.
But those examples were mind blowing.
The best part of today's 10-4 class is, they contacted some alumni
to give us a sharing session, also Q&A session.
MY GOD westerns are really cute, super friendly and funny.
It's unlike asians, shy type.
They shared their working experiences, and joked around, made us laughed like hell!!!!
6 of them, got a job, and they shared us about interview experiences, highlights of final years etc
things that we want to know like the real outside working world,
some difficulties we may face, some smarter way of completing things, etc.
Very very nice of them, I appreciate this session.
I gained loads of knowledge from them.
Thumbs up man, and I saw some of their ideas for final years,
mamamia, UNIQUE and UNBELIEVABLE.
Very interesting! Gosh, I got so inspired by them, that I finally realize
I've been working my ideas so wrong, like so restricted,
now I'm feeling motivated yo.
I'm gonna start an illustration personal project.
MUST. To include this in my portfolio.

Buddha I need this so badly.
I finally got the feeling of working ULTRA 200% hard in UK.
This is my final shot. And I need to kill this!!!
MAN I love this thing.
I like it here, it's so different.
Although I know the lecturers gonna kick our arse,
(they said they gonna give us a kick in our arse hard)
it's okay, I understand that we need this kick.

MOTIVATED.

Love love love

Kit, 那个泰国同学，虽然认识不久，但是通过聊天才懂他结婚了。
而且妻子也为了她放弃泰国的生意，来到英国陪伴他，
为他洗衣煮饭照顾他。
Kit在 St Albans 租了一间房，给老婆和自己住。
实在甜蜜，是在幸福。
我在facebook看见了他们的照片，好恩爱呀！！！
他们原来是大学同学，啊！！好好哦！！！

看见他们那样觉得真的好高兴，是替他们感到高兴。
我在这里如果有同学恋爱了，我会非常地高兴。
ashley,在伦敦被搭讪哦！
对方还留了号码，交charlie. 我们看见他，
但是suhan说是我的类型，哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！
我的类型就是ashley的类型哦！
Ashley在这里认识了很多很好的人，而且住在她隔壁有个
很说的加拿大同学，时常和他打情骂俏～
我也看过他们交流，真的很好笑，很高兴，好羡慕。
如果。。。。。。
我说如果，他们在一起的话，我会非常非常高兴。
真的会替他们鼓掌！

姐，你说很容易遇到男生哦，
一点也不容易好不好。
我觉得我看起来就不是非常活泼，没什么人看得见我的啦。
真的，老外都不会来搭讪。哈哈哈哈哈！！！
我也没什么眼缘吧。样子问题？
真的，一点也不容易。我隔壁全是女生啦。
而且我这楼超多美女的，轮都轮不到我。
哎！我也不是那种很活泼像ashley+suhan那种人。。
也不是美女。别人看都不看啦please.
我本来就没什么自信。。

不过没关系，在看啦。
我会努力的。哈哈哈哈哈哈。
努力读书。哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！

一些人说爱他就别放弃，和她一起经历。
一些人说自己辛苦就不是爱情，他不适合你。
到最后说来说去，根本没有一个正确的逻辑。
真的很靠个人的意志力。
而我呢？
我了解有很多困难，我了解很不舒服，
但是我并没有真正的想放弃。
也许是我拿不定主意。
但是现在好早，看着办吧。：D
反正我就没有说不爱他啦，虽然我也想被老外搭讪。
哈哈哈h哈哈哈h哈哈！！！
但是搭讪不是出轨，不是不爱他。
我终觉得在这里谈恋爱有点不是很安全，安全感不够。
我们不熟悉他们的恋爱文化。
何况是要在新地方认识一个人很久，不容易。

算啦。
我都不够有魅力。





meow mi忽然好想你。
哈哈哈哈！
我每天睡觉都会抱着mr faiz哦！
会向他撒娇。很变态吧。。和teddy bear撒娇。。
但始终觉得这只特别像人，特别有亲切感！
我想你，但是没有非常想你。哈哈哈哈！！！
我的人就是这样，不会特别想念什么。

想你就是啦～meow mi~~

Rush London trip

We visited all the popular places and finally we got our free time to sit and eat.
Here's the closest restaurant we found and yeah.
We got no time and money to think.
So this one will do. HAHAHAHA!!!

This pasta is so blend.
I am not that picky but still, very blend. Not much flavor.
1star.   :|

But surprisingly this is good.
5 stars!
Chicken salad!

Garlic bread with cheese.
Me and suhan shared this meal actually!

Busy street in London.

Looks nice.

I stalk. HAHAHAHA!
Too bad not enough battery.

Sad socks.

///  last week ///

Paid some money to our university for this London trip.
The whole trip was a rush+mess, we don't have time to chill, take photos, and etc.
Seriously, plus on that day there's a cycling competition so certain roads had been blocked.
MY GODNESS, I don't have any mood to take photos, we were running, rushing
around checking out places and in the end we have a few hours to go free.
Then we have to go back to our bus.

The ultimate goal for our group is to visit Oxford street to buy some warmer cloths
cause Primark is really cheap.
We went to eat after visiting every place, the palace, etc, then we went to china town
to buy some ingredients. I bought Asam Laksa maggie there :P
Craving for maggie and Malaysian flavor. AH!!!!

So I followed some Malaysians to go Primark, seriously, not much time and it's too far away.
REALLY TOO FAR MAN!!!!!!
I think i walked more than 2 KM in this trip, MORE FOR SURE!
It's been a tough day, I got into Primark and we only have 20 minutes, to shop and pay.
Super crowded. And i simply grabbed some good deals and get to the counter and pay.
I got a scarf, a stockings 3 for 3pounds (about rm15), and a bag (about rm50-60 ).
It's a 2 way bag with 3 partitions. Not bad la, at least I have a better bag to go out or something.
Cause part of the leather of my back pack started to fall off, looks awful.
Soon I shall check out another place in London with a few of them for some underground clothing,
and some second hand clothing.
I strongly believe second hand stuffs have some good deeds too.

I gotta say, London is not so cold, but this trip,
MADE ME SWEAT LIKE HELL!!!!!
We're late for the bus, but luckily they waited for us, cause there's a few of them were later than us.
Probably because of blocked roads due to the event.
We got a little lost at first but luckily we're fine in the end, some nice locals helped us out.
In the end, I sweat like I just finished marathon.
And I got so many blister on my feet, and look, my socks, got 2 holes,
actually there's one behind. SO SAD!


Oh yeah, now I feel that, many stores need chinese workers because I got called by a manager
while shopping in Primark, cause they don't know how to communicate with a chinese aunty.
About credit card and stuffs. HAHAAHAH!!! OH MY GOD.
I am laku. He asked, are you from China?
Me : No , from Malaysia, but I still speak mandarin.
Manager : OKAY COOL do you mind to solve a problem for me?


HAHAHAHAH, wow!
few days later I met a local englishman telling us many stores and company need Chinese
cause we know more languages.
Not bad, I think I can find a part time job then, HAHAHA!!!
So in the end problem solved. Then I got no time to shop. XD
I will go back to London again, to shop, take photos and meet some friends.
Next time next time. :D
not much photos this time, so next time yo!
(Cannot walk much after that day, super painful)