2 a.m meeting.

Almost 5 a.m in the morning now.

This is unbelievable. We're still in a meeting.

But feels good, at least I feel more comfortable less stress.

Still tired though.....

It's 5.12 a.m.

We got it. WE GOT IT!

ENDS MEETING!

Let's sleep now.

Oh wait, I'm not sleepy at all now.

WALAO EHHHHH.........

Si Beh Gao Latt

This semester really gave me a lot of pressure.


Never felt this tense before, like really pushed and rushed 100%.
Been sleeping a few hours per day recently, like 2 3 hours.. I am so tired
as though as I had a super long marathon jog everyday.
Brain is processing hard but not fast recently, cause of sleeping late and
long term under high pressure.


Some people are really talented, they burst out ideas out of no where without putting much effort.
And work smart, talent, this is what I don't have much in this course.
Basically illustrators have their own thinking too, also a bunch of creative people.
I am in graphic design pathway now but still,
it's still my hobby, and I wanted to make use of that part to apply that in graphic design work.
Not only typo, shapes, and stuffs.
there's people who look down at illustrators, probably they're a bunch of creatives in between
artist and graphic designer.
Up and down, it can be considered both.
But the thing is there's very geng graphic illustrators, good in both.

Illustration and graphic are always connected, like why look down lah?
Weirdo. I think graphic designers who dont know how to sketch out drafts is really a joke.
We should have a basic skill of drawing to draft out sketches for people to see.
Meh....

Walao. Can even fall asleep in a short time while lying down on bed with laptop infront of me.
Also when there's something to support my back. Fast.
Back and shoulder is always in pain, and I can feel my ovary too.
The old sickness came back, pain started, this feel not right.
Sibeh gao latt.
Sibeh tired sibeh sien sibeh stress sibeh beh tahan sibeh tak syok sibeh jealous sibeh confused sibeh pain sibeh dangerous sibeh hardcore.

Sibeh hardcore college.
After CNY need to finish essay and course works.

Yes it is sibeh hardcore but still.
I chose this college. I chose this path I chose this life and I am gonna finish this no joke.
Dad saw me staying up late no sleep one day and he's so sad, 5 in the morning.
And he asked me to quit stop studying like this.

NO.
Paid fee, studied halfway already and this is my dream college I always wanted to be in since secondary school.
No way quit is not for me.
I understand mum dad feels sad looking at me like this, but no no.
We do this with a purpose and we gonna handle all this.
I really love this design school very much, all lecturers really push us like hell.
Can see they're here to help us and shape our future.
Im clear. I shall not give up, or work slow.
I must work a lot faster. Decide faster and just do it.
USH!!!!!!


Oh yeah my group held a meeting at midnight 2 a.m online.
Noted **2 a.m.**
Been meeting half a day already.
Hardcore. This is so unexpected. HAHAHAHA!!!!

Check out your birthday month!

JANUARY=PIMP

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY=THUG 
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH=GORGEOUS 
Drop dead gorgeous!!! Attractive personality. Very sexy!!. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others . Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! A very big flirt!and quiet the charmer. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of the other 11 months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.likes to keep theyre crushes kinda secret.pretty much flawless.

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains.

MAY=LOVER 
Hella sexy, loves sex n making luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!! Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. 

JUNE =FINEASS 
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
JULY=GANGSTA 
You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner, a wicked hottie. Like somebody with a JUNE brithday. It is also more likely than that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!!

AUGUST=ATTITUDE 
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. self control. kind hearted. Self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. likes talking and singing. loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of “that someone”. longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or restricted. lives by “no pain no gain” caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious.. independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER=PIMP 
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. 

OCTOBER=HOTTIE 
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. 

NOVEMBER=SWEETIE 
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck.. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

DECEMBER=BEAUTY 
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

(Source: smileismyweapon, via mooch213)

Wow. quite correct aye!!!

Sibeh behtahan

I came across a page on FB, UTAR confessions.
Damn interesting la wei. For those people who need entertainment like me.


Then scrolling scrolling, HMMM..
There's a guy with super brilliant brain who scores full A's but seems to be not that mature.
The way he asks questions shows it all. Man..
Where got people ask do girls like these these men or those those.
Girls.. Have tons of categories how to conclude them all in that particular answer??
No point asking that.
And he thinks art stream people are not rationale enough.
Not only science stream people think a lot and rationale dude. So wrong.
I bet he knows non of graphic students.
And he wishes to have an art stream girl. (who he thinks is fun, interesting, dress up nice etc.)



Tsk tsk tsk.
And he's trying to post photos of his penis.
Damn this is so erotic already man. It's a university confession page.
I am not really disgusted but the way he types into sentence is gross.
I can feel the horniness.

Mother

这两星期里，我哭了好几次。
哭得满脸泪水鼻涕，连男朋友都不知所措。


一开始脑总是一片黑暗，想不到些什么。
过了一会，我看见妈妈的背影，但是我一直哭，一直想不起妈妈的脸。
结果哭得更惨。

很努力的，一面苦一面想，终于想起了。
一开始是因为承受不了压力而莫名其妙的哭起来，过后演变成
想念妈妈而哭。

这几次脑里的画面没有别人，只有妈妈。

记得上星期我梦见妈妈坐在轮椅上，在一间豪华医院的lobby
正中央和我一起，看似妈妈没力走路了。
而我则跪在妈妈前，拉着她的手，靠在她腿上哭着。
梦里的妈妈日子不多了，是癌症末期。
我很没用，在这个时候哭，大庭广众的哭。
在梦里我也是个大哭包，没用。

我忘了妈妈说什么，但我知道她在安慰我不需要感到伤心什么的。
我简直哭到不像样。我忽然惊醒，眼泪直飙，谁在身旁的男朋友依然想只猪，熟睡着。
我还搞不清楚是梦是现实，依然在哭。。

然后过一两天，妈妈就一直打电话过来，问问我在干嘛什么的。
我好开心哦，妈妈还很好，那是一场梦，一场我绝对不想想起来的梦。
和妈妈聊得很开心，但是那几天实在太忙了，我知道妈妈也在担心我，差不多
每天都和我通电话，了解状况。

我知道她非常地高兴因为我表姐和他老板给了我一些freelance graphic design工作做。
这不是开玩笑的，是finance公司。而且常常有活动，说一手头上都有蛮多东西做的。
妈一直高兴的问着，做完了没有啊～有没有和表姐谈生意呀～做得怎样了啦？
还催我回去一点要给他们两老看看我的设计。呵呵，我听了都好高兴呀～
妈妈因该是觉得哦最后一个女儿快毕业，要出社会做功了咯，
最后一个负担快放得下了。
但我知道，妈妈会更加寂寞。爸爸出差不是一两天，有时候长达一两个星期，
留妈妈一个人在家。虽然说有朋友，有自己喜欢的活动，
但是一个人在家，肯定很寂寞，不好受。尤其是孩子们长大了要做工什么的。

很想家。。好想回家。。
新年到了，没错大家团圆，但是依然有功课要做，很不喜欢。
这次，我一定要和家人拍很多很多照片，因为我发觉我们很少照片。。


I LOVE YOU MAMA!!!!!

Man I LOVE THIS JUMPSUIT!!!

end of last year yo with mama.

Birthday dinner during Christmas Eve.

I got number 1 shaved head. walao i look scary.
WITH LOVELY MAMA!!!!
Last year's may or june something...

The Irrepressibles

A very very touching homosexual story.
A very very true feeling.
A very very beautiful voice and band.

Totally felt the beauty of homosexual.




Found out though this song, Royksopp's remix. And it really brought up the whole
music to another feeling.
Very intense.
Lovely voice, lovely orchestra lovely remix.



The Irrepressibles, another band that give me goosebumps.
An orchestra based band, also a lil bit ambient I would say.
All songs composed by this guy, Jamie McDermott.

Set ups, fashion, are all very conceptual. Music videos too.
He moves like a ballet dancer, elegant and full of passion.
Sings passionately, uhh I think, his voice is absolutely stunning.

So moved by his music.

Voice

Look at the skin. WTH!
Pimples pores deem color..
I really really jealous of my mate's skin condition.
Sleep late always still look so bright AND smooth !
WITHOUT PORES!!!

Best example. TOBY!!!!!

Turtle neck. Only black suits me ._.)
Go Uniqlo and have a look, its selling rm24.90 now!!!
SCREAM!!!

Been focusing on people's voices this few days to really listen to their voice.
And surprisingly I think most of our voice sounds good when you really really focus.
Thats why Patrick Wolf, Frande, Teriyaki Boyz and Rip Slyme's voice make me mad. HAHAHAHA.
Ah they sound too good to me. XD
SEXY NYAAAA...
Also looking at Vitas's face when he sings is better than porn. HAHAHAHA!!

Really focused on my boyfriend's voice yesterday.
Although his voice is not as deep as that 1 year guy, but still~
HAHA~~ HAHAHA~~ I like it. (maybe because I like him? XD)
HEHEHEHEHE.......... *SHY*

Only those who added me on Skype and followed my blog previously
knows this blog so.
Everything here 都是真情告白！
No one knows this blog other than these people. :D
(i mean friends and relatives not including strangers)


Hmm, I found that many people ignores me. :T
On face book....... uhhh... -_-) Don't feel good.
Oh well. I've been treated like this for quite some time already.

Noticed cats playing with rabbits last week.
SO CUTE!!!!! I thought the cat is going to bite the rabbits. XD
But no, it ended up playing together, hopping around like rabbits.
And these rabbits are very smart, they wont get lost and simply go anywhere when they got out
from their cages.
They went out and played awhile with the cats and go back to their own place together with their cat friends.
WHAT......... Amazed. XD

Recently.

Recently..


- I got bloated. (by eating irregularly, drinking too much water at night, not getting enough sleep,
sits and do work too much )
- Pressured. And cried 2 times last week, because of assignments, and missed mama.
- Forgot to bring boyfriend to Ara Damansara, and Wondermilk.
- Tried chewing food with mouth open wide at home alone but failed. (too noisy)
- Successfully made baked potatoes+tuna+onion+vege and Potatoes+chicken fillet+vege+cheese
- Attempt on following a recipe to make Salmon meal (70% successful XD)
- Slept 13 hours after a assignment and freelance marathon. Continues today though. T^T
- Dreamt of a guy who chased me for almost a year in real life, he's doing the same thing again in dream, infront of my boyfriend,driving a rolls royce wearing a white suit.WALAO EH(he is rich in reality). 被人追的感觉实在很棒，哦～～
- Dreamt of sitting behind a bus, with Ying tong, my percussion partner. Going to somewhere to buy grocery for our band camp at school. HAHAHA!!! I MISS THOSE BAND TIME!!!
- Bought a whole big bag of daily products, food like vegetable, potatoes, some fillet last week to cook at home. (pokai now)
- Bought a fragrance candle to relax myself.
- Also uses candle to replace bathrooms bulb.
- Forgot to use water for paper clay. WTH!!!!
- Always update Uniqlo's promotions because they worth it!
- Checking some phones for myself. Gonna change already....
- Had Nujabes almost everyday for 4 hours. ARGH I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER NUJABES! his music will stay with us forever.



Feelings 0%-200%

- Got DARN scared 200% when a house flies flew out from the dustbin when I opened the tong sampah. WALAO EHHHH ran away straight. HUGE FLIES!!!
- Felt 101% shy and sweet when boyfriend spoke to me softly with eyes focused on me on bed before sleeping. Felt extremely shy not even dare to look at him.
- Felt so happy when boyfriend and course mates cares and motivates me.
- Romantic 101% when boyfriend hugs me from behind and watch movie on laptop together
- Unhappy that I cannot fit denim top from Uniqlo. Tried L but bust part is ugly, tight. XL slightly better but other places look loose and baggy. Boobs why like that, shirt why cutting so small. URGHHHH!!!!!



Animal page :

- Hooked up with a cute active yellow male cat near ma place. Invited him into the car and he accepted!!!! He's always there when I reach home in every evening and night. >O< CUTE!!!
- Bought 4 packs of doggy treats for the 3 kids at home. Lamb, chicken, steak, beef flavor sticks. THEY LOVE IT YAY!!!
- Noticed some noise and got scared behind the window right in my room. It's a yellow adult cat hanging out there everyday. Stepping on some plastic that made the spooky noise.

lil doodles from sketchbook

A mixed media portrait of me.
Finally I drew myself. XD

OH our childhood!!!

Ipoh oldtown.

Some stuffs from my sketchbook

I must draw more.
I must build a consistent artstyle.

Bad. Bad indeed. The worse.

I hate being like this, staying up late, cannot even sleep when I force myself to get some rest.
Unable to present in class. That's the biggest thing I ever done.
Worse.


I like the subject, I really like it.
But for some reasons I have to change my direction and subject
last minute and this gave me a hard time.
Not only this, I shouldn't be taking any jobs during college time.

This ain't a good idea although you might think that this is an opportunity of
trying to balance and doing more stuffs in shorter time.
It sucks. It make me feel so sucky.
I am late for half an hour this time, late.
Marks will be deducted. Doomed.
I am mad and I feel so disappointed in myself, I really really do.

But I am glad that Suhan Jack and bebe texted and checked me out.
It's so supportive. I do feel so happy that actually someone do cares about me.

Also, I am very very happy that Mr F accompanied me all the time until I go to Sunway.
Stayed up without sleep with me, motivates me, helps me to solve problems, calms me down.
And always there for me when I need somebody to talk to.
I am so happy that I got these people around me.

I love you guys.
Without you all I won't be able to submit today. :')

So end that negative aura and stop regretting about it ANGEL!!!
Move on and find ways to improve the current design and
finish everything that need to be done!
Firstly, sleep. Wake up and eat then start doing work.





RAWR!!!

Finally

Made in illustrator, by me.
Brand new Aeroplane chess board game.

I suffered from hunger and sleepiness for days because of this assignment.
Definitely not doing one piece like that above only.
Still more.

Tried to do something more vector this time and finally.. Yeah!
I think I kinda achieved what I want but still. More room to improve!

The most gek sim part is my characters are still not fully dried.
Done my paper clay.
Since I am unable to submit it on time, then I shall remake them and redo this subject as one
of the project for my portfolio.
Because I put hell lot of effort in it.

Been eating one meal per day for almost 5 6 days in 2 weeks.
Bad habit.


Biggest disappointment in the semester.
I never got so tired and so frustrated dealing with my assignments.
Probably because of my freelance work too, I cannot push cause thats my cousin.
SIGHHHHHH... A lot of problems.
A lot of pressure.
Although I submitted this heavy assignment, still, I don't feel happy cause I still
have tons of freelance work to do.

I need a break.

Almost 2 days did not sleep already. Managed to have a power nap yesterday only.
Challenging like a survival game. Wow we're actually playing a game.

Cheers to all! we survived!!!

18 Jan I still can fit both !! WAHAHA!!!

Tried out the jacket I bought since form 4.
MUAHAHA I still can fit!!! A lil bit tight though. :P
Must jot down the date I tried YEHEHE..

18 Jan 2013

Check out that lazy ass behind me.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
He can sleep and ignore both of our phone's alarm ringtone
forever. FOREVER and I am the one who
stops the alarm ringing.
BEH TAHANNNNN.........

But I still think you're cute. XD

MUAHAHA I can fit this too!!!
Bought this ins Hong Kong for many years already(form 3/4), cost a hundred or 200 something, cannot remember.

It's in bronze color, material is very unique and quite thick but comfy.
Made in Japan, sold in Hong Kong.
There's a zip behind and it reveals a hoodie when you unzip it.
very interesting jacket.
Luckily I still fits well, a ll bit loose.
UHUHUHUHU~~

Gonna take a picture of it using DSLR,

That spooky human being.......

He says he's obsessed with my fingers.
SOT!!!!! But he's the only guy who thinks and says I look cute.
*melts*

Actually Mr F looks quite bad boy-ish.
Right??

                         

Frandé 法蘭黛樂團 . One of my favorite Taiwan Indie Rock Band.

Her voice is absolutely lovely, sweet yet sexy.

Kinda listened to others, I like her the most.

HAHAHAHA.. Maybe the elements in her music is more dreamy, i prefer her kind.

But not all of her songs are so soft and dreamy, still a lot of rock elements.

However, I like this band a lot. :D

Main factor is her voice her techniques and the aura of this band's songs.

Of course different from Kishi Bashi and Shugo which I like A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Those are super dreamy and pure. 

ARGHHHH!HH!H!H!H!H!!

Very very experimental. Shugo's new album. IM WAITING!!!! XD

有些开心，也有些羡慕。

应该做功课的，但是刚巧她上传了一些照片，让我忍不住好奇心看看她们的照片。
分开了快5 6 年了，我们还是朋友关系，很好对不对？
对呀，的确很难得。

她们看起来好幸福呀，替她感到高兴，
至少看得出她女朋友比之前的更疼爱她。
她依然坚持自己的选择，非常勇敢。
相信她们可以感化他的父母。

如果让现在的我遇见她，我绝对不会放弃，
我一定会坚持和她在一起。
现在的我更勇敢，更坚持，更相信爱能感化世界。


不过就是有缘没分。


我们各走各了，我们走向不同的方向。
但依然选择刺激的，有挑战性的。
更准确的因该说我们更热爱现在的自己，现在的她／他。

依然在看着她的updates，一样是朋友。
支持你。

Inspired by Singh.

Yesterday, someone awesome called me and asked me out to yumcha around sunway.

Bahgwan Singh!!!!!

Luckily I haven't go home that time, it was raining cats and dogs out there.

We had teh tarik, updating each other our current life in Syaaz.

Every time we meet up, I am strongly inspired by him.

I mean, the way he sees life and the way he lives his life is so interesting.

Same age, but he been to so many countries and met so many people around the world.

He's been doing all kinds of job, learning different stuffs from different fields.

Studies piloting, hikes everywhere with different people, goes to conferences,

trips, working as different occupations.

And the important part is he enjoys them all. 

And the awesome thing is he works hard, build good connections and really aim for his target.

Singh have clear targets and clear time period to achieve all targets.

Life is short he says, life is for us to experience as much as possible before it ends.

He recommend me not to work in the field for a year or 2 years right after graduating.

Make use of this period and go out and see the world, work as waitress, florist, some other occupations that I never tried and never thought of before.

Get out from Ipoh, or KL or even Malaysia and experience culture and make more friends.

He's right, if I start my life as a designer after graduating, I will be doing this for many years and

it's impossible for me to change to other fields.

Not saying that I wont be doing design in future, and I will be unstable in my work. NO.

But talking about experiencing different lives.

Yes, I am planning to save some money go to somewhere else to start an independent life,

work and travel for a year or more.

I need a solid plan for this.

I don't want to lock myself in my comfort zone doing what I do best.

Just like current semester. I am doing something I do bad, crafts and graphic design.

Not saying my illustration is better, it sucks too. I haven't been drawing for weeks other than 

the digital portrait.

Man this sucks, this is so bad.

Luckily there's a subject called Imagery, working on our creativity and imagination.

Comparing sketchbooks, seems that I doodle more in Imagery sketchbooks!

I should be doing more. New year new sketchbook.

Hmph hmph~

Singh is going to India soon and turkey next year.

MANNNN so good!!!

After Taiwan trip, he bought me souvenirs and some he made it by himself.

Awww so sweet. THANKS!

Life is short, life is even shorter than you imagine and we're given a chance to be a human and experience everything.

Why not we enjoy life, go travel, see more stuffs and work as what you really like?

Enjoy what we're doing now, find ways to see them as something useful and challenging,

even though I am stress like hell yesterday, after meeting singh,

I feel much more better. He taught me how to enjoy what I am doing right now.

Taught me how to make fun, make my life worth it.

And yes, he been though a lot previously and grew so much after things happened.

The word future is such an interesting word. 

Don't see it as a negative thing, see it as your hope and freedom.  :D

**Enjoy your life mates! I am sure you guys will have a bright and awesome future!**

1st 2013

First visit in 2013.
During the most stressful period in the semester.


Did enjoyed most of the time with this guy here but feel sorry for letting
him sleep late together with me again.
This time, is not normal kind of late, is really early morning, at 5a.m for 2 days.
Haha, again, not much surprise but this time I really felt support from him, physically and mentally when the time I feel depressed the most.
These few days were a challenge, dealing with course works and freelance works.
Fighting with my body, and my brain, trying to push the limits further and finally I made it.
But it doesn't goes so well as expected, for some.

OH TOA.
I got no college and uni life like what they described.
This is the cons of studying here we all knows that, but blame who?
No need to blame, this is our sacrifices in order to achieve higher level of success.


Yes I desperately need sleep. Oh My Buddha.
Please spare me some time.
I have to calm down myself and feel less guilty for not working on assignments for few hours.
This is so tiring my braincells died a lot after these few days.
Alright need sleep still got morning class tomorrow. Oh well.
Complains stops here.


Hey bee, I really really appreciate your visit especially this time.
Thanks for cooling me down, helping me out solving problems and giving me
100% support although I know you're a bit off focus -_-)
But still, not much boyfriends will accompany their girl a side doing their own work and trying to
keep themselves awake by doing something else.
Hugs.......... T^T)
I really need you all the time (sounds very very sticky)

I <3 darling.="darling." p="p" you="you">Had a wonderful time with you. Thank you :3