Angel T: May 2009

Friday, May 29, 2009

YAY!

Muahahaha,
lost 1 KG...
my leg lost 3-4cm..
YAY!
even school uniform became more fit!
wahahahaha,
whole body lost some fat.
but..
my...my...
become smaller...
NOOO!
My worst nightmare!!!
I must eat more papaya..
hmmm..
sad..
ToT

but not flat..
It can't be flat..
cause I'm born to be BIG.
XD

yea...self-lovin~
can't...
not enough....
I'm gonna be crazy soon..
so..
wish me luck guys~

Art of the Day~

Its a letter actually...=)

haven't finish yet~hope u all like it~

Closed up

My pencil artwork..

" The Dark Mage "

Original size..too skinny right?

( cause i hope to be as skinny as her )

haha..

erm....just finished my exam a week ago..

damn stress,

so I took a pencil and a piece of paper and start "party"

haha,weird...==

but this is the way for me to relax..

always sit down and think...

" what to draw?...what kind of feeling that I wanna express through my art?"

then...3hours something only start..hahahaa...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Riflessione di miniera

Sappiamo che cosa reciprocamente pensando di,

sappiamo che cosa reciprocamente farà ,

Così aspetterò per voi.

io vi amo.

@#$%^&*

yeah...
went for Pn Chau's tt today~
Planning to hang out with Vincy..
but..
we are damn lazy..
so..after holidays ba..lazyworms..XD
sish.........
I think some guys misund me..
==
they thought I'm a tb...damn..

I was..
so...
SHOCK!
@#$%^&*
I got BIG BOOBIES!
SEE!!!
DAMN!
I DIDNT HAVE SHORT SHORT DURIAN HEAD!!!

Your eyes got problem?
form5 edi still dunno how to differenciate TB or girls?!
I'm MAD!
You Are Just a sucker Who Just Know How To Kau Lui!
everyday kau lui,go tuition to kau lui?!
you pay fees just to know girls?!
you dont even looks like a guy...learn people kau lui?!
better go die.

==
sish....fine...
Yee leng and Ah Sum wanna learn latin..
hahahaha..
Ah sum,latin relly suits you man...
you and Fiona have the same style..
haha...Yee Leng's Heng don't wanna accompany her to learn...><
nevermind..
then you two learn Latin there 1st ba..
later only go MY ler..
=D
Add oil~

Saturday, May 23, 2009

cool...><

Man....
In love with this kind of style too..
haha...

Miyavi....so handsome man...><

My Favourite Group...My Chemical Romance...

Marilyn Manson....Kinda Miyavi style..love it..

terry's hair gonna be like this...wow..==

damn...love this pic..

Marilyn Manson,Eat me,Drink me.

Lova~

Tjj's...hahahaha......on my bed now...damn big and cute!!

Aww...=3

" Eat me if you dare!!! "waving hands...see...=_=

really became my dinner....

sacrificed....

eating this just for dinner...nothing else...

keep fit...XD

I love Italian musics...

love is all around..=D

romantic...

love their language...

french too~

wanna learn...=)

♥ È difficile per noi, ma tutto diventa più presto.

Mi sto aspettando il giorno a venire, credo in voi.♥

Saturdae~

My first shoe art...

This is just one of them...(wakau...da background got problem...sorry...that's ugly..)
waiting Terry to take the pics...==....waited for a long long long long time...........TERRY!!!

what a day~~~

ush!

I'm going to draw 5 pairs of shoes in a month...

for coming canteen day...

ngehehe....don't tell you all my plan first...

that's my target!!!
USH!

yeah~

today Shwu Hwa cried...

honestly...I felt bad...

She cried because she can't play her parts well like before exams...

she can't accept it..then...

Hmm..

but I'm quite happy...

really..

not because she cried la...==

happy..

cause my junior cares about her standard.

She knows what she's doing right now.

she knows how to compare...

At least some1 of the whole group understands what's going on..

Most of them won't care how BAD they played or how much they dropped...

Just "lai lai han" or keep on blaming others...

Yes...

Everyone dropped because of exam,no practice or what..

but this is just a short period,

it won't last long if you keep on practising..k?

don't worry.

I feel so weird playing my parts too...

everyone became KERAS...

Hugged her just now..

she cried like a kid...

saw her crying second time..

"I felt that too...not just you,I believe everyone do."

"...."

"Don't worry...it will become better soon,k? so..we must play our every single part better and better...set it as a target.."

"okay...."

"if this bar we get it wrong,then we must play the next bar perfectly..make it better.."

"Alright...I will..."

"so...Play it with your heart...enjoy the music...so let's go! cause I'm going to play my parts d..haha.."

"Okok.."

then she smiled...=)

haha...became ok after that..

then continued her parts..

phew...XD

aduh...

whole body pain...==

don't tell you all what have I done...

hahahaha...

yesterday...

me and mama went to the orphanage...

sigh...

those little kids...

kinda pity...

we brought them something that they need..

and something fun too~

kites....puzzles....bla bla...

not many kids there...

most of them are 6 years old and above..

got 2 of them are 3 years old I think....

We ate our lunch there...

cause the aunties called us to stay longer....haha..

ate porridge and tong sui lo..

not bad~=P

hmm....some of them were damn naughty...ishhhh....

erm...anyone wanna come with me next time?

hahaha....quite fun gah..

go teach some lessons lo....

they need teachers too~

anyone will do....=)

I asked Tjj....wow...

I'm quite surprise!

he wanna go....

he said he wanna teach Maths....hahahahaha...

ooo......al...alright then...

hahaha....

anyone interested?

or you can donate some money for them~

cloths...anything~

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Thursday~~

what a day.....

yor,
BI paper 1 is out!
OMG.....
disappointed man...haiz....
kinda sad this time,
can't reach my target...ToT
75 marks i just get 55 marks...
15 question 3 wrong....
shit..damn careless...
no longer full marks....NOOOOO.....
but thank god got a full marks in dunno what section...
haiz..
fine..
maths..
hahaha....still like that...
got improved ler...
XD
love ms leong...ahahaha...gonna hug her tomorrow...

I kinda hate economics...==
Wan Qi gave me an essay question..
her homework actually...
" A rainy Day "
what the hell.....long time did'nt write this kind of essays...
haha,helped abit la...
then gave Evette d..
the English Gof of the class.
XD

Erm...........
saw Yan Er after school..
she was absent today...
haha..
but she came to school wearing a long sleeve T and a short mini pants..
wow..
Yan Er's leg was so damn beautiful..
long and fair...wooo~
Sexy girl~
and she didnt tie up her long curly hair..
looks sexy...hahaha..
hotnye....tall and slim....
envy...hahahahahaha...

Hmm...explored...
while waiting mum to fetch me..
hmm....alot of form4 and 5 students looks nerd..==
form3 and younger badge looks so...
so...lala..
haha...most of them ler..
where is the looks of AMC?!
some of the form5 badge still got AMC student face...
looks more knowledgeble,but not nerd o~
form3 alot of leng lui...and tb..
wow...
okay...it's fine to me.....==

Hmm....I wanna but earrings AGAIN!
beh tahan....bored of my earrings collection..
wanna have more...more...and MORE!!!
crazy edi...
nono....I must have somemore piercings after SPM...
the last day of SPM!
now I have 5 only...not enough..
maybe 6 or 7 will do...XD
my classmate,Wei Jean has a ring on her TONGUE....
walau....so pain..>o<
ouch...but she suits that kind of look...
she has her own style...cool~
always saw her playing with her pierced tongue during school time.....
haha...

Hmm..someone's worried....
keep on calling in...
sish.....doing facial la uncle tye...==
tarak masa..
ben...=)
Hmm...
Love mum so much...
she's just like my friend...my best one..
I won't keep any secrets between me and mum...
she knows me alot too...=)
she told me something today...
and she pulled me out from The World of Negative Thoughts...

对!
我要做永远都打不死的蟑螂!!!
宁愿做蟑螂也不要做戴着面具的蝴蝶...
我呸...

呵~
少来了...
我写了一篇散文,
“ 面具”
下次才在这里写吧~

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Deep of Thoughts

Sigh.
The world is ugly..
and,
Humans..
The ugliest living thing in the earth.

And I found that..
Tears are words the heart can't express.

I find myself getting increasingly irritated with aspects of the community, and by extension irritated with myself.
I'm tired of the people who think that they are good and talented in something means they are ready to charge people for half-assed crap.
I'm tired of replying crappy messages when I'd rather reply one thought-out comment or something.
I'm tired of protecting myself with some words and actions that sounds stupid.
I'm tired of the people who use words or any spectacular ways to hurt and kick someone's ass with awful disgusting and indelicate ways.
I'm tired to bother and fix things up although I do care.
I don't want looking at beautiful and interesting photos to feel like a chore.
I'm tired of getting stressed when knowing I'm behind from everyone's streams.

Cacophobia seems to be a more common of a phobia than what I was thinking of.
It is a fear of ugliness, not ugly people, just ugliness in general.
I rarely find things plain ugly myself...in fact,
I can't think of anything now.
This would certainly be a scary phobia to have none the less.

A shadow of what I could be,almost like a ghost.
I feel like there's something inside,
but I don't want to let it out anymore.
I've become to self concious.
I've always been a bit of conformist..
It's just so much easier for me to take the safe route and adapt to things.
But I know that,
by heart I'm a risk taker and I can't be happy living my life like this..

I hope this phase will go,
or perhaps it will never be.

It's Counter

It's Counter...

How I wish i could tear your flesh,

taste and smell your blood

on the Black Sheet.

excessive and unreasonable fear..

running and screaming from Death.

今天

erm..
can I put a scorpion in your shoe?
but maybe scorpion ran away
cause terlalu busuk...
hahahahaha...
funny...
thanks for viewing my blog..
OMG...
you found my blog..
fabulous..
AWESOME!!!

Beiru...
you really know me and JJ alot...
hahaha...
erm~
I love you Bei~
I'll see you in school later~
just finised my extra subject,Art...
=_=
3 hours sitting there...
plus stomach ache somemore...><
alot of people taking arts nowadays...
great~

Took Sejarah essay marks today..
walau.........
2 people took 50 and above over 70 marks...
=o=
geng.....
I'm kinda happy with mine too la...still boleh tahan.....34...XD
erm...so shit?
hahaha....never mind...
Studying SJ is just for some history knowledge ni...
ciu~
I rather study hard in Maths..
Maths no A jau really no face...
Ms leong will hate me if I did'nt get an A1 for maths...
adui...
for me...maths is killing me...
my brain is just for art...
can't calculate...==
haha....try la...

Tjj sms-ed...
haha.....sitting science paper wer..
can ge la~
er....I'm a human...
not your cat anymore ler...
hahahahahaha...
meow..==
and my Naruto episode 55....
sish.....
lei hou yeh..

Today is mum's birthday~~
I LOVE YOU MAMA~~~
muax~
>.<

haiz~lonely without sis...
sis called today....
haha.
asking me to buy a Secret recipe cake for mum...
alright then....
no need to claim back money from you le..

haha...
CC give up her gf...
haiz~
this is your decision~
A TB wanna have a relationship with a GUY?!
=_=
hard to.....to...
hahaha...weird weird dei...
nevermind...
some of us know the guy..
stupid guy....
sish...don't believe him...
XD
I know what you're thinking...
PLAY!
ush....play tell die la then...
saya tak mau campur tangan....><
but don't play till too over o...

烂人烂作风~

Monday, May 18, 2009

Fav

This is my Favourite...

I'll give you my Love

Great Concept and Colours...

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Happy Teacher's Day~~
have fun marking our test papers...XD

wow...AMC really got alot of potential pupils...
cool....
nice voices...
AMC idol...=D
sorry..
forgotten her name...
and another form5 choir girl who plays piano and sang her own song..
wow...
looks great babe..
sounds awesome...
fuyoh...AMC geng...

DAMN!
I HATE THE BARBER AND I HATE MY HAIR!!!
don't wanna go out..
don't wanna go anywhere...
don't wanna let people saw my ugly hair...
wanna 闭关一个月!!!
ToT

两个月后的十七日

我会再次出现

我会令你后悔

我会令全世界

惭愧于你们错误的判断及观念

别小看胖子的努力

stupid

Am I happy?
yes.
kinda.
yeah.
not really.
nope.

I feel like wanna slap myself now.
Hit myself.
Kill myself.
Draw and paint the whole house.
I just know how to express my feelings by drawing and painting.
Scream or yelling doesn't helps.
can't describe.
can't describe my feelings now.
no one knows.
no one can fix it.

OI!
JUST BE HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE OKAY?!
YOU ARE DAMN STUPID!!!
(slapping myself...)
(ouch...)

Love???

Everything starts from Love

Love can be simple

It can be complicated too

" Love "

Is it a fairytale?

A sad story?

or just a game?

Love is Hard and Cruel

It may be nothing for someone

It may be everything for someone

Love may be The End

Someone fights for love

but someone gives up for love

Unpredictable

Love is Hope

but

It may be a losing game

Love may be Ugly

Cheated

Torn

Lost

Love may be Beautiful

Faith

Kean

Precious

The Worst Nightmare?

The Sweetest Dream Ever?

Love

Rules the game?

Conquers?

Bleeds?

Hollow..

Fear..

Love

Leads our thoughts and soul?

Changes everyone?

Heals?

Blind?

Unreachable

what the hell..

change?
or?
what the hell....
change a blog template also wanna use so long time to think..
hard to make any decisions..
erm..
that's me...=)

so how...
gi me some comments man...
wanna change to a cute and nice template...
or...
black and white again..==

I think some of my freinds can't accept me to change..
change it to something girly..
erm..
so...conclusion is?
struggling man........><

FREEDOM

=)
今天是晴天呢~
怎么说好呢...?
长篇大论==

唔..
挣扎了许久呢~
现在我已经做出了选择..
让我自由吧!

对,
没错..
这样大家都不需要挣扎.
不需要在烦恼了.
不需要感到不安了.

就用这一段时间,
当作是磨练,
改变自己.
有缘,
就会再次相爱..

酷吧!!
哈哈哈!
也许,
只想让自己开心点吧.

生活就是这样....
有起..
也有落..
都是一样要过.
不如让自己开心点,
活得快乐点,
这样也会长命点!
呵~~

天天笑一个!
也会比较漂亮嘛~
不会酱快老..
哈哈~

我懂...
我天生就想得很远
很多
很复杂
很有关联性
太过有创意( 艺术家的怪脾性?? =.=)
尽量不让自己在这样下去!
用活动等等，
来充实自己，
不让自己有任何机会想!!

好像有点多余..==
没办法,
唯有这样.
就是这样了.

决定

能改变你的世界

Saturday, May 16, 2009

that day

saw you too actually.
but..
i was wondering,
should I say a " HI " to you...?
or should I kept quiet and smile?
or?

cause I don't know how you think.
will you say a HI to me?
is it my problem?
cause when I'm with jj,
I realized that,(maybe)
you won't do anything.
don't even look at me sometimes.
because of JJ...?? urgh!
am I right or?

If you think I'm wrong,
then fine.
I'm self-loving again...(but why I wanna self-loving..?)
JJ is nothing,he's better than last time,
he won't do anything to you.

from our conversations,
from the way you speak and react,
I'm still kinda confuse..
what are you thinking actually?
what you want actually?
Did I said something wrong and do something wrong?
I don't understand you.

suddenly,
popped out a weird message,
then sometimes,
disappeared.
wanna play hide and seek??

What happened to you???
don't dare to ask,and find you.

ANYMORE

Friday, May 15, 2009

addicted to cute

sei mou..

apa dah jadi?!

I changed my taste...

erm...god thing or bad thing?

urgggghh....wanna bite people....

but I'm still drawing my style...

I'm trying other style also ler..

always Emo and Black also sien la...

hai mai ya...

yer......

can't tahan er...

saw someone's blog..

damn cute..

just some simple and light colours...

korean style of designing..

damn kawaii!

but when I return to my blog..

awww..

all black and white..

sien edi..

hish..

wanna change my blog's layout...AHHH!

crazy...

oh ya...

forgotten about mother's day...
hahaha...
Went to JYU in greentown for lunch...
cause big sis and 2nd sis need to go back to KL...
with their MAN...
haha..

oo....big sis and her husband arrived 1st..
then we arrived...
daddy was the last one..always late for everything..==
haha...
felt so happy...
long time didn't see each other...
all members were here...=D
yay~
happy mother's day~~~
muackxxx~
but sorry mum....didn't gave you anything cause I didn't go out to buy..
exams still going on...
but you'll love my gift...ngehehe...
big sis's gift sure 100% organic ler...
cool..
dunno how to describe...sorry...XD

adui....
the nutritionist of the house...
big sis...The Mother looking siu lai lai....
XD
all organic...all natural...
so healthy...but why your tummy still so big...
hahahahaha...
she let us try some sort of 塔逻牌,
but not exactly...
apa la..
very accurate wan wor...
so my 2nd sis try 1st...

haha...
she chose 5 cards...
then understand it by reading the guiding book..
she looked at me,
and said..
"....果然很神!!! "

hahaha....then my turn...
and..
I looked at her with the same emotion...
"真得很神"
everything of big sis..
all so GOD...
really GOD...
so weird...==
cool ler.....=D
some alat still can heal someone's pain,tried before...
really GOD!!!

haha.....keep on talking with them..
miss them so much..
haha...ate set lunch..
woohoo...
still got tempura....yummy~
XD
bok bek bok bek...
talking non-stop...like radio..
everyone finished their food...
and I'm the last one..."ah mei si"..
ISHHH...
kena ketawa pula..
neh....2nd sis's BF...ish..

walau...kinda full...
=D
then mama wanna buy some cloths...
hoho.....today got "bank" here...
daddy..haha..
XD

so happy ler....
everybody went home...(KL)...
sobx...
left me and mum in the house...
but we're used to it...
livin like that for a few years edi..
sup sup sui only..
that's why me and mum's hubungan like couples..
haha..
my friends told me that~
=)

i love you mum~

FRIDAY!!!

Friday...

felt so exhausted...
==
BI paper....walau....
needed to write a complain letter...
did'nt study the format earlier..
plus wrote something wrong...shit...
continuous writing...
haha....chose question 1(describe your dream house)
=_=
kinda....kinda....
difficult...
face difficulties in BI jor...
manage to finish it in time...ngam ngam time tim...

kay...BC paper...
so hard man!!!
the first composision is so damn touching..
aih~
suan le...BC did'nt score A before...

Haiz~~~
what a day~
hugging CCarmen...TT
both of us were facing some problems...
ngam ngam let alot of people saw us hugging....
ee...sure thought we are lesbians...
whatever...I'm NOT!
although CC is a lesbian...
fine...study study study...
kinda happy...
a bunch of juniors saw me and said..
"OI! Keep fit got results wor! so fast de?!"
>,<
sure ler...XD
cause im your senior...sure hardworking wan...hahaha..
ini sifat senior yang bertanggungjawab dan rajin..
ish....joking~
yeah..ate abit bit only...
do some simple exercise when the exams still going on..
hoho....exercise at home too ler..
massage...stretching...
USH!
to the name of SLIM!!!

after school...
I waited mum outside the school...I thought mum will come early...
so I stood under the hot sun...waiting for my dear mum...
waited for half an hour,kulit dah bakar...
went inside lo....chat with some friends...
then walked out again...
yau saw CC...haha..
chat chat...
her mum came...then she went home ler...
hmm....so ngam..
I saw Tjj's car passed by..
Tjj looked at me with big round eyes..
what a stupid face you have,tjj..
hahaha....
miss you....:)

SO....
left me...went in lo....sit beside the jaga table...==
waiting for my MAMA...
tick tok tick tok....
clock strikes at 2...
what the hell....where's mum...
she won't forget about me gua...
OR?!
anything happened?!
kinda worried too,
so I borrowed 10sens from Vern Xin...
10sens only...TT
ok....called mum...do do...
do do....
suddenly...
10sens finished like that...
GOD DAMN!
the stupid phone ATE my 1 and only 10 sens!!!

urgh...
walked away...
sigh...where's mum...==
then I saw a aunty...
looks familiar...
she's my relative..
she didn't noticed about me..so I went out and wait again...

then she came out,
she was looking for me!
WALAU!
then she explained...mum's car broke down at her house...
unlucky ler...
repairing edi e lo..
Then she borrowed me her cellphone to call mum....
"HALO!!! MA MI!!!"
"oi...sorry ya..haha...ahah...your dad's car lo..."
"har...then when only finish?? "
"erm...not sure...haha...."
"har...then.....come and fetch me as soon as possible le...bye..."
"bye lo..."

ToT
kay..then my relative went off riding a motor...
haha..
haiz....sat alone...
wondering what to do....kinda hungry...
but..pokai..
wallet also forget to bring...haiz...
suan....took out a piece of paper and write something nice..

walau....
it's 3 something now..
wo de ma ya...
damn hot there..
sien la....just wanna go home...TT
Hmm..
I heard something..
erm...
izit...
OH YES!
it was mum's car car!!
ahhhhh! I packed my things and run towards the car excitedly...
XD
OH!
finally......3 hours something...
can't believe myself....
I can tahan 3 hours waiting for mum...
surprise~

mama apologized ler...
nah..that was nothing...as long as you didn't forget to fetch me...TT
then mum told me the stupid guy called...
mum said that he sounds worried in the phone...
=)
really?
ahaha....happy..

walau......tired...tired....
heheh...
CC was right too...
when you lost something,
you'll know how much it mean to you..

** 我要幸福!! 快乐的活下去!! **

Thursday, May 14, 2009

我的感觉

我,
果然比较喜欢
用行动来表示，
表达，
感觉,
爱.

少了拥抱，
就像少了被爱的感觉.
少了亲吻，
就像少了被用心呵护,
被珍惜的感觉.

被紧紧抱住的感觉，
是多么的幸福.
多么的难忘.
让我感觉,
自己是他最重要的,
唯一最爱的.

被紧紧抱住的那一刻，
让我感觉,
爱.
是多么的温柔,
多么的温暖,
多么的美丽.

只想永远停留在那一刻，
永远被抱着,
永远在一起,
深深的爱着对方.

8 po's topic for today

hahaha...
before BM exam starts...
Ching Li came to me...and start to do what 8 po does.....
XD

yeah...long time didn't 8 lo..
topic starts from...
CCarmen...
CC's love life...
Love stories...
GF...
BF...
TB...
TG gang...
Our lesbian history and story...
class gangs...
friends's relations...
Cheap people Cheap school...
Influenced the name of school...
Lala mui...
AMC students...
Netball...
Softball...
Band...
SUKMA..
School Team...
Chinese Okes...
Games...(sukan)
Whole school's Societies...
Generasi of our societies,games, and badan uni...
Form6 life...
Rasuah...
Desakan dalam game and comp...
Pilih kasih...
classmates...
Canteen day...
Dinner night...
....the end...

only finish...
took us about 3 hours to finish that...
hahahaha....
gengnye.....
==
today I only find out that...
most of the people I know..
is damn flower heart...hahaha...
how?
their life...
jangan campur tangan..
I'm not jau can edi..=D
chat till so tired...train our muscles...
XD
boleh train tongue?
hahahahaha....

maybe your are right...

Yesterday....
I'm damn mad....
damn down...
wanna die like that...
OK...
Today....
Feelin better...
Hmm...
listen to what you said...
erm....
maybe your are right...
=)
I understand how you feel now..
guilty right?
then GO TO HELL!!!

nah...just kidding...
If I was mad last few days,
firstly,you're dead.
secondly,you'll never see me again.
thirdly,you'll never get to contact me again.

hmph..
fine..
a month's time.
Let's see how..k?
change?
or remain like that.
hmph~~~~

hmm....sittin for BM essay today...
walau....
I wrote 3 paper FULL for 1st time!!!
terkejut..>,<( hidung tinggi..hahaha)
cause my BM so shit....this time really got improve..
thanks Ms Loo....
didn't thought that I could write 3 papers man...
over 600 words...woohooo...
but unluckily,
time's up!!!
wawancara's penutup didn't write tim..
just stop here..."sama sama.."
sei fo lo....==

nevermind....
haha....enjoy jau can lo...
as long as I did my best....=D

** 明天是晴天吗？**

AMC band Kuantan 09...pics again...==

haha.....sunrise....=D

biscuit rise??

TKN wrote this stupid thing.....hahaha...

lookin into suspended cymbals...

our 1st dinner....10 pp share 2 bak kut teh...

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

nice songs intro.

nice songs....=D

=Your Call........by Secondhand serenade( one of my favourite...)
=Come Back To me......by宇多田光

Hmm.....Saturday night's song was awesome...
so lum...so touching...
haiz~
love songs.....
some of them live their life just for love...
Do you?

Take a break,let me breathe.

It's time for me to have a break,
to take a deep breath.

I can't continue like that,
just stop and end it.
I'm tired of guessing around.
just prove it to me.
prove that you really grown up.

I'll take this time to study,
to do my best in the test,
you know right?
SPM mean so much to me.

Okay,it is time to take a rest,
for both of us.
maybe this may be the impel for you..
I'm sorry babe.
I can't continue.
it's hard for me..i need some time.
If I continue,
I think I'll collapse one day,
just like a building.

Altercations

My life....
normal?
or?

full of difficulties.

sigh.
sometimes,I do hate myself so much....
why can't I forget everything?
why can't I accept it?
why can't I let it be?

Altercations.
with some sort of indelicate person.
does it worth?
Scornful remarks.barbs.vulgar.
wow,you're good in talking something like that,
but I'm bored of your words.
Always using the same word,but you just know out of the 2 rude one from your knowledge?
Maybe you should try to look up the dictionary.
everything came out from her.
you are just making yourself cheap,girl.
deal with you?
huh......I'm just wasting my time...
what a wisecrack...

Why should I reply you?
Maybe I think that,
ignoring is rude.
Maybe I wanna let you know that,
I'm not a wimp.
To really settle this?
depends on you.
oh well...who cares...
you're just a stranger in my life.

Fundamental.
Who cares about that actually?
I'm sure you are not the one.

so long girl.
life is precious,
so.
I wanna get rid of you,
and live my own life.
No need to waste my time on you,
cause,
that's just worthless.