stupid

Am I happy?
yes.
kinda.
yeah.
not really.
nope.

I feel like wanna slap myself now.
Hit myself.
Kill myself.
Draw and paint the whole house.
I just know how to express my feelings by drawing and painting.
Scream or yelling doesn't helps.
can't describe.
can't describe my feelings now.
no one knows.
no one can fix it.

OI!
JUST BE HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE OKAY?!
YOU ARE DAMN STUPID!!!
(slapping myself...)
(ouch...)