Breath Taking Full CG Animated piece! MUST WATCH!

The Third & The Seventh from Alex Roman on Vimeo.

My mouth left opened wide as my lecturer shared this piece by Alex Roman. I cannot believe it. It's full CG animated video man!!! Took him about a year for this I think? Yeah, maybe my lecturer is right. Maybe one day they don't need photographers and others, animators can make everything already. It worth for sticking my face infront of the laptop for 12 minutes. WORTH IT! BEAUTIFUL!!! AMAZING CG AND COMPOSITIONS!!! Like the recomposed music - Gattaca as well!

Grey people

Some stuffs that I doodled during my working time past 2 weeks.
Seriously, it is very very boring.
Trying to draw and study more different facial features.

My grey magic color pen is going to run out of ink very soon.

Must try color pencils and watercolor next after finish up all magic color inks.

Uhhh.. I must.. must... must. IMPROVEEEE!!!! 

I felt so energetic after talking with Xiong-Ie after art jam.

USHHH!!!!

Appreciate Them

I like this place.

Waiting for KTM to arrive and pick me up to KL central.
It was my first time taking KTM.

Actually I like to travel alone.
Although it's dangerous but...It feels good. :)

Thanks to photography assignment, it is a great reason for me to go home.
My hometown-Ipoh.
AHHH I miss the smell of Ipoh, miss the smell of my bed.
Miss Ipoh's food too. Thanks mum dad for driving me to my all time favorite restaurants
and mamak around Ipoh.
Uhhh, but spending money for train tickets almost once in 2 weeks can make me really broke.
This semester kills my wallet. Bleeding.

I am waiting for my boyfriend to come home and chat with me from Muay Thai class.
He seems to be happier and energetic after joining Muay Thai. :)
Well it's healthy, and a good activity, why not right?
But I'm worried that he'll get hurt. :O


Saw a FB article just now regarding the news about the Batman movie gun fire case.
Hmm, it says there were 3 brave men who protects their girlfriends,
using their own body as a shield for their girlfriends and unluckily they were killed in the process.
It's a very sad yet touching thing. Look at the power of love.
Look at how much they love their girlfriends.. Sigh.
How lucky if you have somebody who's willing to protect you first when something's happening?
How lucky? It's very touching but in the end, those girls suffers psychological pain.
Yes it's so hard to move on.. I cannot even imagine what will I do if I were one of the girls.

Great to know how much they love you, sad to live without them from now onwards.



Appreciate those that loves you and you love.

Some midnight work again

Some practice done for a group presentation?
This is too.
Rubbish.

Sometimes I ask myself.
Sometimes I ask some of my friends.

Because I became an insane person.
Because they are acting weird?
I dislike him ma ex.
UHHH...

Happy 1 year 5 months +

Post it here as a memory :)
Thanks for the effort of writing these and giving me a surprise!!!

Today is 1 year 5 months and 14th day!!!
OMG I am so happy!

Ishhh~~
I like you very much and I don't know why.
Everyday I feel very excited when I pick up your call,
since 2 years ago until now :)

I love to chat with you, you're like my best best best friend and lover.
I feel so relieve after sharing thoughts and problems with you.
Mmm... And I miss you so much.
I miss your bedtime stories. HAHAHAHA!!!
Remember your version of 3 little pigs?
OMG the funniest story ever. XD
More stories please? HAHA!



Hugss..
I love you darling >_<
Hope to see you soon!

Happy 1 year 5 months and 14 days!!!

A broke day. rm6 for 3 meals.

Actually I know I did not bring enough money for today.
I have not more than rm11 in my wallet.
Hmm, take off rm7 for my parking fee,
I left only rm4.....

Hmm, interesting.
I bought a bread for breakfast, rm1.60.
Then left not much for lunch already.
"I am so broke", I thought.
But then!!!!
I forgotten my coins!
OMG, overall I have rm6 in my hands.
WAHAHAHA!!!

So, I decided not to join my friends for lunch,
I went to buy rm2's meehun.
Hello it's so cheap leh, 2 kinds of mee in one.
And the hawker made my day lucky.
He said I can choose one of whatever food or beverage from him,
FOR FREE!!!!
This is my lucky day I told Jin Foong who brought me there.
Yes it's true, this is a business strategy.
And yes, I feel so good when I hear the word "FREE".

Alright.
It's a good meal. XD
I felt so good, spending lesser money that can feed my stomach full :)
After that I spent my time doing some work in college while waiting for my kaki.

Ush!!!
Then for night time, rm2.50 only.
Tosai telur bawang!!!!! MY WHOLE DAY IS SO CHEAP AND I AM SO HAPPY!
I should eat cheaper everyday!



It's time to save more money.

men with tattoo

He's always there, with shisha and cigars.
A tattoo artist maybe?


There a couple, sticking very close,
having shisha together.
They kiss each other, and hugs each other.
*shy*

I.
Beh.
Song.


Time to sharpen more.
>:B

Look like who's style??

I noticed,
the style I like and my current style look like one of my senior's work.
Is it only me who thought like this or?


I am not sure.


If it's a yes?
Should I change style?
not really........I should try to make it more like me.
But time.
TIME!!!!!


I am quite beh song now.
DAMN

Red head. Midnight Practice.

Unfinished.
Unrefined.

Sleep. UHHH tired.

(who says I won't practice my illustration skills anymore?)
(HMPH)

Working as a Promoter.

First day or work, bad luck.
A lot of stuffs happened. XD

OH YEAH! 4th time working!

Hair curler is a tough thing to handle. -_-a 

Working as a promoter in a cosmetic counter is tough, but boring sometimes.

After working there for 4 days, I finally got more accurate and detail info of

cosmetics and skin care products.

WOW. Met a Japanese aunty today, she said Kanebo's skincare is very good!

She also said that in Japan, one bottle of lotion cost approx rm400!

This lady was so friendly, can sense the kindness of her by listening to her conversation.

So soft, so calming. XD

I quite like the job actually :D

Been rejected, show faced, what so ever, but it's a great experience.

By doing this, I think people can adapt the real world better after graduating :)

Learnt a lot from my full timer partner, and forums.

Uhhh..... From that, I finally know that,

I am a super duper lazy ass who doesn't care about my skin much.

SIGH! I AM SORRY MY FACE!!!!!

Beh tahan my face already.

Have to start from basic already, if not I will become older and yong sui-er.

Oh yeah, luckily I bought my sketchbook along.
One more page left for my sketchbook that I bought 3 weeks ago.
My grey color magic color pen will die soon. Not much ink left.
Fast eh! Good thing, practice practice practice.
ARGH!!!! I am sitting in GD class but I won't dump illustration aside!!!

USH!

纳闷

纳闷。
好迷惑。

男生简直是和女生一样嘛。
想什么的，做什么也真不一样。
解决方法也很不同。
偏偏男和女的解决方式都起不了作用。
难得有他的想法，女的也有他的想法。

看来是时候买 “Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus"
来吸取有用的知识解决问题。



我们看待每一件事的确都有不同的结论。
据我的观察，现在不是交女朋友的好时机呀。
想清楚了没？


不想再追问，不想知道。
不想再做那个只懂得担心的人。

忽然觉得我好野蛮。
好固执。好疯癫。
不过我真的担心你的安全。
多人，男人，不是天下无敌。
命案到处都是。抢劫案也是，无所不在。
理你是男的女的有人没人都照办，
那么简单的事你都没办法明白。
那么简单。就那么地简单。

我想，又不想做那个主动的。
头脑很涨。很辛苦，身体发热。
忽然一股压力把我击倒了。

我能做什么？
感谢学院，在我面对感情困难时，
助我一臂之力，成了我的寄托。

算我逃避现实吧。
平时我觉不那么做，一定要把事情解决了再睡，
现在却相反的，没法子解决，
病了也没办法睡觉。

就是睡不着，也不能把枕头染湿，
不如利用这个难的的机会做功课？
大罢功课要做呢。

功课。就从最难的做起吧。

Awesome

You dare me?
You said it, I'll do it.

This is what you wanted.



You can hit the road now.

I am back, but unhappy.

Feeling ill again and again.
Feels like going to have fever soon, eyes, body and breath are hot.
Went back to Ipoh also don't feel like enjoying holiday.

Really felt weaker compare to 2 years before.


Cannot tahan anymore.
Fever is here.
Have to shut down my system now.
Serious then have to get MC tomorrow.
Sigh. Luckily my ideas were approved last week.


Girls will leave her boyfriend probably is because of?

1) BF did not pay enough attention and care.
2) BF has an affair
3) Friends, work, family first, no GF no wife.
4) BF breaks promises, no commitment.
5) BF repeats his mistakes again and again and again.


Is it?
Or more?


好纳闷。
好病。

Understanding people's Attitude.

Looking back to what I had done,
What I did, How I behave..
I think. It's really dumb.
I guess this is what people say- The process of Learning,
Understanding.
Not to say mature, I could never define mature.

After all these days studying here, being a student,
a friend, a girlfriend, a sister, a daughter, a granddaughter,
a cousin and niece a whatever role,
I am sure that I did changed.
Not sure in a good or bad way, but I think it's quite positive. XD

Every individual in this world is different.
They have different attitude and behavior.
You can't stop them sometimes, you can't change them sometimes,
so deal with it.
Be flexible I shall say.

It's okay to ma already.
We all have our own problems.
We all have an imperfect part in ourselves.
Last time beh tahan, now? It's fine with me already.
Because I am imperfect too.

Gossips? I don't want anymore.
NO MORE. Maybe that's why people find me quiet when the topic
changes to this? or maybe I am always quiet?
I don't talk much because I am listening.
Processing, and thinking.
Not because I am smart enough to catch every one's attitude weak spot
or something stupid.
I'm a slow thinker, I react slow and little.
I am not that kind of person like 攻心计。
I'm too dumb for that.

Maybe sometimes I hurt someone.
But then I will apologize no matter what happened.
I really cannot dislike somebody.
People who hates me, I am sorry.
Okay? I've been a bad ass I guess?
(I believe I had individually apologized to those people
I think I hurt them? Missed out anyone? XD inbox me if you are left out XD)

It's too hard to hate, dislike.suffering. I will apologize and accept the person's attitude.
I believe everyone will change in the end.
We won't stay at the same stage forever.

Honestly, I am the person who can forget everything after a good night sleep.
So no worries, I won't hate you forever unless you betray me.
I won't hate you after that but I will always remember you.


Yes we can give comments but no hating,
no dislikes, no beh song okay?
Giving comments to the person is good, but not
saying it out in a harsh tone and beh song face.
Sometimes it's just useless because everyone has their own
behavior what?
So sometimes, talking = nothing.
Choose not to change a person unless it is really ridiculous
and it will crush a person's future.
Then as a friend I will point it out and try to change.


Friends, I know you guys think I am leaving this group but no.
It is just coincidence.
I got no smart phone to line, maybe that's the reason you think I am leaving?
I have to go home asap because my sis cooks sometimes
and as everybody know, I am a tortoise, I need a longer time to finish my work.
So when I say I need to do my work, it means I really got no time to spare.
If not doomsday.
I am quite happy that finally you guys notice me but sometimes
I need some space and time, for myself and my work.
I am slow behind................

I am fine people.
I am fine.
No worries okay? I think everything will be better soon.

Recently.

Recently?

Yeah. Been skipping meals honestly..
Which made my tummy ill.
Sigh, my neck muscles are very very tight and
cramp attacks sometimes. Not only gastric pain.

But then the good thing is,
I had made my choice.
To fully concentrate in Graphic Design.
AND continue practicing my illustration skills.
Because I don't want to lose both of them, I like them both.


I really cannot do any work at home.
Yellow light? Maybe.
Bed? Maybe.
I don't care, I just wanna stay in TOA to do my work.
I feel motivated when I see students reading and doing work in the library.
From now on, I wanna do that.
I'm gonna bring my laptop to library often.
Library is the best place to do my assignments. LOVE IT.

And with my mate Jin Foong,
who's very hardworking and motivating,
can really push me to do my work faster.
I find myself getting better recently.
And also Seng Hong.
A super fast dealer.

Awesome. And Yik Hua, Jye Min, Wei Lyn
all race cars.
Me? I just can walk.
Slow walk some more.


I really got very broke, so pyramid's food is not my food.
I just wanna hang out around TOA.
HAHAHHAHA.. And one of the reason I work part time
is I have to earn extra money to cover back my design material fee.
I just feel.. Bad to ask for more money from dad.
From foundation year, I did not really claim all those material fee from dad.
I covered them up myself. Oil, parking, materials..
If I really really really need to pay for something that I must pay, then.
Sorry I have to ask.
I don't like to ask.

I'm trying. Trying to work more and get my pay soon.

Then, I'm going back home late recently because of my work and
my hobby- Life sketching.
I really have passion in it. I wanted to continue this activity and work on it,
develop a stronger style for myself.
That's why I always ask Jin Foong ( life sketching kaki) out.
I know she has the passion too, and shes living near so it's okay, I can
fetch her back after we are done.
By this activities, I learnt more from her, and knew more people around.
It's a good thing isn't it?

I have to sleep soon.
HAHAH.. going back to hometown tomorrow. FINALLY!!!!
CHEERS!

Super Roller coaster in Cameron

Obviously my mother loves these kind of challenging activities.


 

Mum why you out this bag there. XD


 

"OMG There's something in ma eye!!"

"but im used to it already. XD "

What a funny face. XD

My cousin drives Hilux all the way to the top of the hill.
It's like super fast roller coaster.

OM Buddha.. Insects are flying towards us man..
At first me and mother was standing behind the car but..
I can feel that the wind is strong enough to blow me away
so we sat down slowly.. Capturing pictures are very risky.
I managed to record 7 seconds video only. AHHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Who wanna try? let me know.
I'll bring you. XD

Very productive today

Chin. A.K.A Double Chin.
A cute and funny course mate of mine.
Doesn't really look like Chin here. XD

Used magic color + Digital

My Pakistan friend.
Who loves metal music.

Used only magic color.

I discovered one style.

Using two highly contrasting colors overlapping each other can make 

the effect of dizziness.

A lil bit 3D kind of feeling. 

Inspired by my poster assignment last semester.

But after scanning, the effect seems to be weaker.

Maybe it only affects on naked eyes?

I produced 7 sketches today. WAHAHAHAH!!!!

broke.

oih, design students are really really broke.
Printing can spend 1/3 of your monthly money/ income.
in just a few hours.


Printing really really need a lot of knowledge, not only knowing the right files to select
and save you work.
Admire those people who opens geng geng printing shop.
Sometimes depends on luck too, AHHH!!!!

Was in the printing shop for 6 hours+ just to get mu stationary printed.
Adjust adjust. wait wait. Print Print. Select paper.
Search paper. Print Print. Cut Cut. Adjust adjust.
Wait wait.
Transfer transfer. print print. Again and again.

To get the perfect color, paper, size, font size and other details.


Broke man.
My friend spent 150+ in a day.
We used to spend 100+ just for 4 pieces of final photograph.
Test printed a lot.
Adjust a lot.
Pay a lot.

Outcome abit.
But of course it's good. AHAHHA!

Sometimes really pokai.
My rm500+ ang pao money were gone few days ago.
Man, this is tough.

And it's not only for a subject and it's not one time printing.
Imagine where our money goes to.
That's why I am eating in mamak almost everyday recently. XD
i really cannot go anywhere else other than ming tien and mamak.
Damn I am broke. So broke.

Sketches, Typography?

Some lame sketches in ma sketchbook..
Was developing my own handwriting typeface.
I am trying to develop a stronger and better art style.
Hmmmm....

We need to put in emotions, and some illustrations into out typography.

These are inspired by muscles, hair, and female ghosts.

Wanted to create a "creepy" typeface by using these elements.

I just can't stop drawing..
AHAHHAHA... All done using coke can handmade calligraphy pen.
Thank you Mr Marius who taught us how to make it.

Smell

Sniffs pillow.
Sobs...哇我的安梯样。
嗯，这就是现在的我。哈哈哈！

你回去后，顿时觉得很空虚。

好像刚刚做了一场梦。真的。。
每一次都是那样，心情立刻低落起来。。

远距离恋爱者都有着相同的感受吧？

匆匆忙忙的赶火车。

匆匆忙忙地离开。

什么都没留下，只是一些回忆和淡淡的味道。

时间怎么过的那么快呀？

我们何时再见面？

来了，但我也忙着做功课。

不过至少我们在家看了三部戏呀～

虽然转眼间就离开，但我已满足。

现在我只能努力的寻找你的味道，

一个人睡觉咯。

我们努力吧，好吗？

谢谢你听我说话。

哼，没想到晚安故事还没开始说我们就倒下了，

哈哈哈哈～下次吧！

The role. Don't take it personal. Finish it.

Sometimes I just cannot stand people using my studyroom and bathroom
and turning them into a mess.
I don't use my studyroom that frequently already ever since I got my laptop, and
weekeneds,
AND all I wanted is to sit on the floor and get my things done in my room.
And keep the environment quiet.

It is so sien that I get scolded and blamed because of the mess.


I don't mind cleaning the mess but I hate to be
questioned and blamed like everything were done all by myself
as though as nobody is using the space.

And yeah, I come back late of course eating outside,
and I wouldn't wanna cook at home.
Cause I am just so tired, and I got hell lot of work to do.
He visited but then, I still have to work until midnight to get
all things done on time.
Plus we seldom eat at home.

I did cleaned up the kitchen.
How the hell I know there's rubbish when I did not step into
the kitchen for days.
Especially when I am sick and always come home late.

I did not step into my studyroom for days when somebody
was using it.
How the hell I know what is happening inside.

I am so frustrated on my assignments already,
so sad that I am not going to meet my boyfriend soon,
and so stressful that negative stuffs are happening around me at school and
also now.

Same, I clean up my bathroom everyday because it's full of dirty
footprints and sometimes dirty cloth and stuffs are in my bathroom sink.
I feel you, but then I did not blame anybody although
I am upset looking at it.
I kept quiet because I know you know- we share the same old house and
we all have the responsibilities to clean the space.
Yeah right.
But then I knowwww I knowww..(-_-)

No point complaining to anybody also. If I am stress,
just move it to typing a blog post.
I complain a lot few years ago, but then,
it doesn't help unless it's a business.

I just have the same old sien face. (-_-)
It does not mean I am mad or hatred or blaming people,
it's just neutral. (-_-)
National service had all kinds of problems and I know all these conflicts
are very normal in fact it will be 家常便饭 when you're working with people.

I would say that, yeah, it was my mistake because I did not ask about the rubbish
and I really did not use that area until I forgot about this thing.
I apologize for that.
But then dear sister, you should tell out dear cousin to play the same role as we do.
because he stays in this old house sometimes, and he's always at home for a few days.
I believe we did not play the role well sometimes, and this is what we need to improve
as a human being right?

It's okay I've been scolded by anybody until I feel sien especially
when mum scold me -_-
I know pregnant woman has unstable hormone circulation.
Sorry for if I offended you in some ways.

Just that, I hope he will understand his role in our house too.




Nothing personal, hugs. :)

3 years ago..

Scrolling back to 09's blog posts,

I found a lot of stories, pictures and illustrations.

Was so into marching band that time.

Of course, that's my spirit in my secondary school.

But then I found some emo stuffs too, I remembered I deleted some emo blog posts too.

I hate my ex boyfriend that time, bloody hate.

But then I forgave him since last year, no point hating people right?

No point complaining about others too.

So I learnt to keep quiet and continue my work.

Complaining is just to annoying. It helps sometimes, as a stress reliever but

sometimes not. 

Hmm, I think my art style changed a lot.

See, I did a lot of black white illustrations last time.

All in marker and artline.

Not much colors, can say it's very less.

I dislike using colors back then.

A lot of details, alot of shading but less color.

These are all my illustrations since form 4 to 5.

I forgot where I got this inspiration from.

But then this is my fav that time.

Did a lot of shading using artline pen that time.

Come on, what's going on to me that time.

Full of darkness man.

Seldom use pencil..

Emo emo emo...

Scary.

But then it's quite detailed.

Did not do this kind of stuffs for quite some time already.

In form4, I gave myself a pen name - Njoe.

Because the pronunciation is almost the same as Angel.

Some people pronounce Njoe instead of Angel.

I'm still using it in some sites nowadays. 

I don't know.

I still cannot find a solid art style of mine right now.

Looking at all these make me feel down.

I used to be confident, I used to be bold, to be so detailed.

I shall say a person's aesthetic and art style changes according to 

a person's knowledge, experience and mood.

But somehow I am quite confused with my own now.

A bit, not so much..  :|

But one thing I know about my past is,

I am a negative person.

I doubt my ex's loyalty. Hmm, he betrays and betrays and so on.

Just very moody. Very sad.

Bak Kut Teh Ipoh :9

Dry bak kut teh.
Uhhh... craving for this now..

Mushroom mushroom!!!!

I'm not a pork stomach fan actually,
so mum ate them all by herself. All the stomach.
HAHAHAHA..

Okay, I like the pork pork here.
Nice to chew :P

AH~ Bak kut teh, I believe that's Malaysian chinese's favorite~
My mother and me went to eat this for lunch because....
I did not ate this for months man.. =_=a
Shared both dry and wet bak kut teh with mum, but sadly, we were to full
to finish them all.
Need to tapao back home. XD

Ummm, it's good.
I cannot imagine my life without pork.. (sorry Faiz I am honest. XD )
Heh why think about this?
I shall eat all pork kao kao before I cannot eat if anything happens.
HAHAHAHAHA..
My sis even asked me to travel around the world just to eat the whole world's pork.
Good idea actually, hmm, should start planning. XD

Alright, sleep sleep sleep!!!
Kinda hungry though :P

adobe adobe adobe.

Had a few similar dreams this few days.
All about doing assignments.
Like having class la, doing assignments at home la,
doing certain subject's work..
Adobe adobe and adobe dreams.


It's not holiday what, usually I have these dreams during holidays.
Oh well, it's a reminder I guess.

Been having fever for 2 days.
Hopefully I can get well asap.
Phew, finally finished 50% of one of my work.
Uhhh.... 130% more workload to go.

Got no mood to care about any stuffs except for
my assignments already.
Sleep... Let's sleep.

Unfinished sexy dude

Midnight fire.
HAHAHAHAHA!!!  Not finished yet :O
Long way to go.. Sleep for now :)

I, pet goat II

"A story about the fire at the heart of suffering. 
Bringing together dancers, musicians, visual artists and 3d animators, the film takes a critical look at the events of the past decade that have shaped our world."  says Heliofant.

Original soundtrack "the Stream", written and performed by Tanuki Project.
thetanukiproject.com

The textures are well made, and the whole story is just so creepy.

Beautiful yet disturbing.

It made me relate to the end of our world.

Shit man.

BLUR MODE

I DONT KNOW WHAT I'M DRAWING.


Pening.... Sure got sick after sleeping late for more than 3 days.
Uhhh.... Finally left 30 percent of my corporate identity
assignment. Can go to sleep soundly. Worth it!
I just don't know what I'm doing with this.
Trying out with new art style. Hmmmmm...........
weird...