my long 1000th post

This is my 1000th post. I want to write about the people I cherish the most.


Great chinese new year，让我感到心酸的新年。
我的第一桶金来了。
当然每一次赚到一些钱我肯定会分给父母外公外婆，
这次也不例外，他们收到我的红包，脸上充满了笑容，
我知道他们很感动,我当然很高兴。
不过每次我给外婆，他都不拿来用，
存起来，说以后买东西才用。
但是。。。他们的生活，实在是很艰辛。。
过年什么的还要花费卖肉助给大家吃，
煮很多很多饭菜给大家。。
并不少人，很够多人咯。
忙着煮饭，买菜什么的，很辛苦。
一些来吃饭拍拍屁股就这样算了，什么样来的？？？
而且什么都不帮忙。那么忍心让长辈，老人家那么辛苦吗？


我不明白，为什么有些儿子会那么吝啬？
明明支付父母是天经地义的事，为什么可以那么自私？
我一定一定会赚更多钱，支付外公外婆。
外婆太省了，非常节俭，
省到连一碟rm 2 - rm3 的猪肠粉也不舍得买来吃。
我听了，忍不住偷偷地流泪。
还说一个月买一次就很够了。。
自己想吃的东西都不舍得买来吃。。
菜园工真的很辛苦的，肯在菜园帮忙的年轻人真的很少了。
我看我身边都没几个肯来帮忙，做一下都肯定在抱怨了。
老人家，上70了，还在劳动。。外劳也是。。
这几年来花的钱，非常值得。
那些外劳非常好心，看见外婆外公搬重物会过去帮忙。
花那一点钱买的食物干粮，衣服，算得了什么。
但是多少都能帮轻些负担。据外婆说，他们连肉都没钱买来吃。
就是吃饭和菜罢了，偶尔才有罐头吃。
如果看见着post的好心人想要捐不穿的衣服可以联络我。
食物干粮什么都可以。

Happy new year.

** This CNY **

I miss my grandma, my father mother, my sisters a lot.
I visited all relatives with parents only, cause both sisters were married and went back
to their husband's hometown.
Feeling weird.
Feeling sad, I wonder, if in future, I got married to a Chinese,
I wouldn't have the chance to accompany my parents to visit relatives anymore.
They will be alone, for first few days. They will miss us very much..
Dad's hair is getting white when the color dye goes off.
I see wrinkles on my parent's face, I noticed my mother's arms, knees have some problems.
Sigh. I'm witnessing the cycle of life.
Reality is beautiful yet cruel.
Sometimes, I hope time passes slower, I hope my grandparents and parents can live
forever in this mode, I hope my sisters can always be here with us.
One family, 5 of us together.
I love all of you.
I don't know why I felt so sad this new year.


** hey where's our sister picture. XD still in your phone sis!!! **

how come my face look thinner here -_-

** That Mr Meow **

I know I know, the way we call each other sounds disgusting and gay,
meow meow, meow mi, meowa... something about cats la.
But don't you think having a language with the one you love is an awesome thing?
It's like a code that only you two knows and recognizes.   :)
This CNY, sorry babe, I forgot to invite you to Cameron cause somehow I feel that
it's a bit impossible to bring you there (your family prob).
Although we have solutions for it. Grandma misses you Mr.
She always try to create new halal Chinese dishes for you, very thoughtful.
All my relative asks about you, "wei where's your boy?", "wheres your Mr Malay?"
HAHAHAHAHA... Funny, you're kinda well known now, cause the news are spreading XD

I noticed I gained a lot, I know I know SHH SHUT UP. XD
Well...... sorry grandma's cooking is just too good! XD And also my uncle from Singapore's cooking skill is superb!
Excuse yes yes I know. ERRR... Yeah I'm gonna fix that... AHHAHAH!
Yesterday when I saw the picture my friend tagged, I..
大受打击。创伤。
I am just too fat. Now I see how I look like.
I really confused of my look, really really confused.
Sometimes I look different in different pictures, I am darn confused.
Then Mr meow (mr malay) was there, I am super sad, lying on bed.
Asking him which one looks more like me, the real and recent me.
I don't understand his answer though, " both la? cause that's you in both pictures."
What........ I want to know my size and look la wei, like how I really looks like,
He says " Angle's problem. Or maybe camera I think?"
You're not giving me a clear answer dude. HAHAHAHA.
Never mind, in the end burst out crying.
Surprisingly this time, he tried his best to cheer me up,
hugs me, joke around, sings chinese new year song again..
The one I like the most is:
" If you cry ah I'll lick your tears, and and, don't make me lick and suck your mucus! "
I just cannot tahan this phrase I laughed, he even acted like he's sucking my mucus.
Disgusting but I like it. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
(somehow I heard him saying nucleus. HAHAHA)
After that I continued crying. XD

Even though I look like this, he never complains about it. NEVER.
(of course I do feel worried about this)
He never asks me to be like this girl that girl.
But of course he likes me to keep long hair for once in a lifetime for hm to play. XD
He says" if you think you're fat then try to exercise and slowly in the end you wont say that to me"
And he HATES the word FAT coming out from my mouth.
He hates to the word to the max.
Whatever..... HAHAHAHAHA!!!

I kinda think that I found it.
I know people are made to be imperfect. Right?
Our communication skills are improving, a lot. :'D
I am so happy!!!!!!!
Hmm, I can feel that I am being loved by this person from other family.
And I love this person too.   :D

** stress mode starts now **


The thing I hate the most is nearby now.
I wanted to leave this assignment so badly, because of the group? or because of the assignment?
Maybe I just cannot really fake out my own feelings towards certain people with certain personalities,
really hard, my face and conversation show it all.
I got no idea how to communicate with certain kind of people.

I can simply become another person in front of certain kinds of people.
Suddenly became quiet for an example.
My communication skills suck la honestly cause it's just hard to communicate with every single person in this world.
This is a big problem, I need to fix this.
I do feel that my limitations of tolerance is getting better, I am getting softer.
At least easier to forgive someone.

I think I really got problem.
I can suddenly lost the mood to be or hang out with people,
the feel of creating a distance between me and people.
For just a period, then like nothing happened, like normal.
And feel so far away, isolated.
This feeling comes naturally, like suddenly I feel so awkward being with some people.
different kinds of people. And I'm not sure why.
I hate this feeling. I hate it very much.

I think,
这副德性令我少了几位很好朋友。