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I can't stand this, I had bad dreams, nightmares almost everyday here.
Me fighting with monsters, escaping from something, saw abused animals, stuffs that I don't want to see.
My brain is so damn tired man, such negative dreams!
I got no idea why, I didn't abuse any animals, I have not seen any articles about it recently too.
And I hate fighting with monsters or trying to escape.
DAMN PLEASE. I need nice and sound sleep, or maybe a sweeter dream.

Maybe I need a dream catcher.
Sis said I need a meditation class.

Oh yeah.
Indeed.

-_-)b

The Croods

Spent a lil time watching this since I haven't watch it in cinema.
Wooooo there's a few touching moments, the music boosted my emotions.
It's pretty short though. :\
And some parts happened a lil too fast.

I like to do screenshots while watching movies on laptop,
to capture nice moments.
HAHAHA, this movie has interesting concepts, like combining land and sea animals,
combining both land and sea elements on ground, the world might be like this before we were born.
Pretty interesting!
And I love the artstyle before the movie starts and also the credit part.
very pretty.

Birthday eve

So, it/s still 24th of December now in UK.

I am having maggie for dinner. HAHAAHAHAH!!!

Such an unhealthy malaysian meal.

But I fancy maggie after staying in UK, feels closer to Malaysia.

It's a quiet Christmas Eve this year, many students went home to celebrate,

EU students flew back, left some asian students, including me.

My floor left me and Edward, Catherine, another malaysian went to Italy.

WALAO EH.... whole block, whole college lane is so lonely and quiet man!!!

No cars, no people.

Hardly can see people around. Even security guards.

But it's okay, it's christmas eve, everyone should be together with their family.

How I wish my family is here, and also friends.

Maybe I am too tired traveling for a week, Dublin and Paris.

PHEW! My toes and feet hurts a lot!

Cause of this, I got no mood to cook myself a fancy dinner for Christmas eve,

thats why I chose Maggie. HAHAHHA!!

Fast and nice.

Gotta eat and watch a movie, then sleep.

Thats all for today, cause I am still being tired after the trip.

WOOOHOO!! HOLIDAY FOR A FEW DAYS!

then need to start my assignments. 

YES!!!

End of sem 1.

Here's some videos of what I saw around The Forum.

WOW, they have random dancers dancing around!

Bought this for my niece in my sister's tummy Zoe~~
I bought dogs cause I feel that my sister's family is more
associated with doggies. Doggies everywhere!

Barn owl who tries to
ignore us photographing it.

2 Sad looking reindeers, :(

Turkey time.
ToT
Didin't eat turkey meat for a long long time.

HOHO super cute!!

Lovely ceramic pendant by our product design students.

what I bought from the lil mini Xmas market.

Monster "ink".
HEHEHEHEHE...

Merry

Xmas!!!

Gave this 2 to Joanne and Ashley cause I met them. HAHA

Mr faiz and me.
AH, he became another faiz.

Faiz's pet.
Super cute kitty.

This is one of the best thing i ever had.
OHHHH NOM NOM NOM!!!!
With fudge brownies man!!

/// Relax mode ///


So I finished my 26+ pages dissertation.
It's a long run man, they said my eyes look very dead and I have red eyes.
Yeah. I didn't really sleep actually.
And I have to wake up after 9 hours later to prepare, and say bye to Hatfield Hi to Dublin.

Yes, I'm going to Dublin (Ireland) and Paris for a week!!!!!

I'm actually very tired now.
But feels a little excited.HEHE HEHEHE HEHEHEHE.
Must bring my sketchbook along!!!
WEWWW..
I am seriously very tired now. Gotta sleep soon..
yawns....

So I won't be bringing laptop, so I won't be updating blog or anyone of you in 7 days.
Unless I got free wifi, HAHAHA.
Gotta faint soon.
Take care!!1

Chinese tunes

哦。好烦恼。

在写最后的论文，所以特别压力，

但还好我这次没有自我毁灭，我选的题目是我爱的。

幸好教授接受了。太好了咯。

我很少听华语歌，刚刚忽然想听听。。

翻翻 itunes, 想起了他们。
第一个，这三首playlist里德都很好听。
第二个，我相信我有post过。喜欢哦。。就觉得她的声音不是那种小女孩的。
我也喜欢Joanna Wang, 就是不像Olivia Ong。
Joanna Wang的声音有魅力多了啦，就像她自己的look, 不是超级美女但是就是不错。
好耐看，好耐听。

他们都好适合在晚上听。
也很适合写作时候。。

现在听了，我觉得有灵感继续写咯。
拜～

不平衡

Sometimes, you simply know it, you can feel it.
When there's a pretty or handsome friend with you, people will tend to
ignore you, and talk to them, look at them but not you.
Trying to know them better, like. Talk.
Keep talking looking.

And obviously some people are just adding so called friendly people and pretty people.

I can tell that one is not paying attention on me.
So yeah, beauty wins.
I got no match at all.

很明显咯。
就是有这种以貌取人的人。
我真的很纳闷。我很讨厌这种屎事。没错，屎事。

A friend shared me an article about right brain-ed people, creative people's acts and stuffs.
Yeah. It all happens on me except one.
Living in our own world, i'm not so sure, but sometimes,
it's not we wanted.
The incident above made me want to live in my own world.
(i am not offended. cause there's more strange people out there, not to say weird but more unique)
But damn! This beauty issue always be with me since many years ago.
I am trying sibeh hard to improve my look already okay?

I AM TRYING HARD TO BE THE IDEAL ME.
The look that speaks for me, I am coming.

Beef sandwich

Spinach + Mushrooms

ADDED!!!

Before adding them :
Minced beef with onions with cheese.
Overall, GREAT.

I got bored of rice plus my bread had been in the fridge for a week.

Gotta finish them asap.

Therefore, walah! A beef sandwich! 

This few days

I love this coat yeah.
It they have red, GET!!!!
too bad they don't, this is the one from Uniqlo.
Got bigger size cause I will wear alot inside.
Cute not? :'D

So this is my first Dr Martens.
I gonna survive with this!!!
* had 25% off  *

Omg thanks google auto awesome.
automatically edited my photo, let it snow. let it snow. let it snow!

Xmas cookies from a craft fair in St Albans.
Sold by a cute grandma.
I got myself! YAY!
If only I have a real xmas tree for me to hang them there.

Snapped by Suhan.
I looks thinner side view.
AHHAHAHA!!!

We got on the wrong bus.
St Albans.
HAHAHAHA!!!

No where.
HAHAHAHAHA.
This place is cockane something.
So we waited at this bus stop.

This is one of my shortcut to class.
Actually not hat short but it got not much stairs to climb.
HAHAHAHAHA.
The person in the photo wore a nice color,
so I re snapped the same place again.
With better composition.

I took back a few bats from our kitchen party last month to decorate my window.
And some part of my room.
I'm looking for materials for Xmas currently.

Went to St Albans yesterday and wow. This is awesome.
As suhan said, it's like disneyland colors.

HAHA. I'm in love with polka dots recently.
I have both black white inverted ones.
But that one with black BG polka dot Tee I got it back in Malaysia.
I bought this from TKMAX.
SALE.

Google+ auto awesome added sparkle to my photo.
So sweet. :D

AWW SO CUTE!!!!
This is the long work out stairs for me.
Super tired. 

/// St Albans ///

So then I decided to have a day off to a christmas market in St Albans, just nearby,
took bus with suhan and david the couple there in the morning.
Then lucky us, there's a craft fair + book fair!
So we 3 keep on checking out books, thinking which one to buy, and in the end we got
quite a lot of books.
My rug sack almost burst. cause i have 3 super thick books, with a few smaller books.
Then we continue walking around the market!
After that went to H&M and a few stores nearby. wow ho ho.
I got a new back pack for school.
A better one. ;_;)

Also some basic tees cause it's cheap! and I can wear it in Malaysia.
Hmm, got really cold recently. Seriously.
SERIOUSLY COLD OKAY.
Me and suhan was like talking about stuffs and when we stepped out from the building,
FOOOOSHHHH!!! Wind is too cold and strong!
Almost everytime we're like "WALAO EH" when we step out from a building.
HAHAHAHAHA!!! we sound very dramatic, but it is that dramatic.

Okay NEXT :
we went to tesco, wow man, cheaper and looks better somehow!
Their cherry tomato is 1 pound per bag!!!
GET!!! got myself 2 cause I have not eaten any tomatoes and fruits since 2 months ago.
Then bought milk, and Innocent Fruit Smoothie back.
So... I got many many things to carry.
Whole person got so stiff when I got home.
My shoulder got really stiff and painful this few days,
I think the pillow is too low, and I'm always sitting. So.. Yeah,
don't worry, I got exercise in between.
FOR REAL YO.
Yesterday was a tiring day, whole day in St Albans.
And I feel so nauseous on bus man, suhan too.
It's so rapidkl. UEKKK.....



I will be posting photos of St Albans later. tomorrow or something.

非常愤怒

http://news.sinchew.com.my/node/337381?tid=1


我看了，我都快吐血了。
我们是未来移民子孙，描述的太好了，太厉害了。

So, erm yeah, thats a superb statement made by so called high educated people.
All statements in this articles shows how HIGH EDUCATED are they.
Can't they even learn how to respect?
Moral since young they printed out same copies of moral books for all of us to study.
And seems like they didn't really know how to hafal and apply moral values.

荒唐。

because of 60% of the smart students are not malays, you doubt their quality and hardwork?
They must have been putting doubt on the wrong group of people.
Geez. GEEZ.
I hate to sound like a racist but this is the fact : Malays who got only a few A's got scholarships to
study abroad but chinese indians and lain lain got 10-14 A's got no scholarships.
Look for help, bla bla bla, but still. no.
And now they're still blaming non malays for getting 60% of the scholarships?
Please. You come to AMC see how teachers give work to students,
see how man chinese go to tuition and stuffs, see how many hours they study.
Definitely more than you all.

I didn't get great results and scholarship. nevermind. non of my business.
But my classmates, friends study hell hard and they are real smart.
Damn this is so offending. They have just offended smart non malays.
"Cause we want to take back our own things", doesn't mean you can do this to us.

Celaka. Betul-betul celaka.

I can't stop rolling my eyes.
We must not be affected, we must be calm and never start any conflict with these malays.
If not we will get our fork up our own life, and we will be blamed.
Seriously, omg seriously.
They doubt non malay students.
Ironically, they tried hard to ignore many non-malay smart students from getting scholarships from the government but still,
60% got them. Seriously. Come on.

自打嘴巴。

Statements like these can be made by so called high educated people, politicians.
Now I doubt my country's education system.
I doubt my country's educational board.
I doubt our government's ability.


But looking at the positive part of their statements, it somehow became another reason
for non-malays to work even harder, to be even more united to defend ourself.
We are part of the country, we will be forever.
Thanks to these statements, I am pretty sure that many of them will fight till the end, will never emigrate.
To prove that we, non malays contributed even more, and we are more united as you think.

Damn. I don't want my country to corrupt.

The Laughing Vampire

Manga : Warau Kyuuketsuki.
By Suehiro Maruo

I spent 2 hours reading this tonight. oh man. Beautiful.
Maybe this one from Suehiro Maruo is not that gore so I can accept.
Or maybe the gore-ness are accompanied by loads of beautiful and romantic scenes and depictions made
me accept this one.
The more I read, the more I like his artstyle.
That teenager is so handsome, URGH!!!!

It's a different kind of vampire story, and when the main storyline flows, there will be 1-2 stories
of different characters added in, a bit confusing at the beginning but it flows just right after a while.

It's nothing to do with cross, or Christianity. Not restricted to japanese vampires only, but cross cultural.
Plain "vampire". Beautiful, romantic artstyle.
Loads of details will drive you read slower.
Anyway, I felt sad in this manga. There's still things that related to humanity as well.
The beginning is really sad, and almost the end too.
First character introduced in this manga, had a sad life, a woman who's born with an appearance unlike
normal people got boycott, abused, killed and hanged on a tree.
Then she got buried, but she's not dead, instead she had become a human, or shouldn't be called as human,
who has an urge to drink blood. So, kill, drink blood.
And if she let another person drink her blood, the person will become like her, same species.

Then the story goes on.
Interesting perspective. I like this one.
At first you'll be like no way this is so weird, yuck, but slowly,
the manga will make you blend into them and start to get use of their lifestyle.
You'll feel sad for them, feel angry.
URGH FEELS!!!!

and yeah, surprisingly this manga got not much to do with sex in my opinion, although
there's some weird fetish going on. But still, compare to other quick search of his manga,
this is level 10 only out of 50.

Too much info

Today I found out some documentary about Yonaguni underwater ruins in Japan,
some articles about this and a few underwater pyramids around the world.
Feels creepy. Imagine you dive there, and saw this underwater ruin...
Man. The aura. It's like looking at pyramid..
It reminds me of Osamu Tezuka's manga- Phoenix.
I were lucky enough to rent it before they sell it out from a comic renting store in Ipoh,
so lucky. Somehow I feel that Osamu Tezuka is quite into ancient history and the future,
many work of him showcased a lot of ancient civilization and futuristic themes.
And after watching more and more documentaries about ancient architectures, I finally can relate them to most of his works.
I bet he is interested about archeology too.

Phoenix is really interesting, it focus a lot in Humanity.
Feel really down when I finish some of the stories. Every story starts from different
civilizations/ period of time.
It reminds me of people who believes god who cause certain civilizations wipe out in the past.

Phoenix will be undead, and it observes the people god created.
Then the story begins with the birth of humans, from the caveman to more civilized, to more advanced.
but got wiped out cause of war, plagues etc factors.
Hmm, after reading his manga, watching Ancient Aliens, there's a little link in it.
As in some themes and ideas of the birth of human, and the ancient past predictions.

Then okay suddenly I found this manga artist Suehiro Maruo.
He's a gore horror manga artist, with some sense of erotica.
Pretty artstyle, pretty people, but gore. NO!!!!!!!!!!!
I... I can't.. have too much gore..
Too much..
But I feel like reading one of his work. Man.
Cause it's so elegant!
Still.. HMMM... People who love gore, go for it.
GO!!!

trees go naked

The :ego Shop in Watford.
Saw the colorful round blocks?
Its a container for each color, and you can dig the amount you want.
Put it in a cup, and then pay.
Super cute.

2 Days ago.
AH. Look at the tree.

Pretty sad.
No more leaves.

Recently I sleep quite early, after tuesday, :D
And so I have more time for this boy.

Look so kesian, so innocent omg...

Winter is coming.
There's some ice around this morning..
Man, it's freaking cold here!!!