Sibeh behtahan

I came across a page on FB, UTAR confessions.
Damn interesting la wei. For those people who need entertainment like me.


Then scrolling scrolling, HMMM..
There's a guy with super brilliant brain who scores full A's but seems to be not that mature.
The way he asks questions shows it all. Man..
Where got people ask do girls like these these men or those those.
Girls.. Have tons of categories how to conclude them all in that particular answer??
No point asking that.
And he thinks art stream people are not rationale enough.
Not only science stream people think a lot and rationale dude. So wrong.
I bet he knows non of graphic students.
And he wishes to have an art stream girl. (who he thinks is fun, interesting, dress up nice etc.)



Tsk tsk tsk.
And he's trying to post photos of his penis.
Damn this is so erotic already man. It's a university confession page.
I am not really disgusted but the way he types into sentence is gross.
I can feel the horniness.

Mother

这两星期里，我哭了好几次。
哭得满脸泪水鼻涕，连男朋友都不知所措。


一开始脑总是一片黑暗，想不到些什么。
过了一会，我看见妈妈的背影，但是我一直哭，一直想不起妈妈的脸。
结果哭得更惨。

很努力的，一面苦一面想，终于想起了。
一开始是因为承受不了压力而莫名其妙的哭起来，过后演变成
想念妈妈而哭。

这几次脑里的画面没有别人，只有妈妈。

记得上星期我梦见妈妈坐在轮椅上，在一间豪华医院的lobby
正中央和我一起，看似妈妈没力走路了。
而我则跪在妈妈前，拉着她的手，靠在她腿上哭着。
梦里的妈妈日子不多了，是癌症末期。
我很没用，在这个时候哭，大庭广众的哭。
在梦里我也是个大哭包，没用。

我忘了妈妈说什么，但我知道她在安慰我不需要感到伤心什么的。
我简直哭到不像样。我忽然惊醒，眼泪直飙，谁在身旁的男朋友依然想只猪，熟睡着。
我还搞不清楚是梦是现实，依然在哭。。

然后过一两天，妈妈就一直打电话过来，问问我在干嘛什么的。
我好开心哦，妈妈还很好，那是一场梦，一场我绝对不想想起来的梦。
和妈妈聊得很开心，但是那几天实在太忙了，我知道妈妈也在担心我，差不多
每天都和我通电话，了解状况。

我知道她非常地高兴因为我表姐和他老板给了我一些freelance graphic design工作做。
这不是开玩笑的，是finance公司。而且常常有活动，说一手头上都有蛮多东西做的。
妈一直高兴的问着，做完了没有啊～有没有和表姐谈生意呀～做得怎样了啦？
还催我回去一点要给他们两老看看我的设计。呵呵，我听了都好高兴呀～
妈妈因该是觉得哦最后一个女儿快毕业，要出社会做功了咯，
最后一个负担快放得下了。
但我知道，妈妈会更加寂寞。爸爸出差不是一两天，有时候长达一两个星期，
留妈妈一个人在家。虽然说有朋友，有自己喜欢的活动，
但是一个人在家，肯定很寂寞，不好受。尤其是孩子们长大了要做工什么的。

很想家。。好想回家。。
新年到了，没错大家团圆，但是依然有功课要做，很不喜欢。
这次，我一定要和家人拍很多很多照片，因为我发觉我们很少照片。。


I LOVE YOU MAMA!!!!!

Man I LOVE THIS JUMPSUIT!!!

end of last year yo with mama.

Birthday dinner during Christmas Eve.

I got number 1 shaved head. walao i look scary.
WITH LOVELY MAMA!!!!
Last year's may or june something...

The Irrepressibles

A very very touching homosexual story.
A very very true feeling.
A very very beautiful voice and band.

Totally felt the beauty of homosexual.




Found out though this song, Royksopp's remix. And it really brought up the whole
music to another feeling.
Very intense.
Lovely voice, lovely orchestra lovely remix.



The Irrepressibles, another band that give me goosebumps.
An orchestra based band, also a lil bit ambient I would say.
All songs composed by this guy, Jamie McDermott.

Set ups, fashion, are all very conceptual. Music videos too.
He moves like a ballet dancer, elegant and full of passion.
Sings passionately, uhh I think, his voice is absolutely stunning.

So moved by his music.

Voice

Look at the skin. WTH!
Pimples pores deem color..
I really really jealous of my mate's skin condition.
Sleep late always still look so bright AND smooth !
WITHOUT PORES!!!

Best example. TOBY!!!!!

Turtle neck. Only black suits me ._.)
Go Uniqlo and have a look, its selling rm24.90 now!!!
SCREAM!!!

Been focusing on people's voices this few days to really listen to their voice.
And surprisingly I think most of our voice sounds good when you really really focus.
Thats why Patrick Wolf, Frande, Teriyaki Boyz and Rip Slyme's voice make me mad. HAHAHAHA.
Ah they sound too good to me. XD
SEXY NYAAAA...
Also looking at Vitas's face when he sings is better than porn. HAHAHAHA!!

Really focused on my boyfriend's voice yesterday.
Although his voice is not as deep as that 1 year guy, but still~
HAHA~~ HAHAHA~~ I like it. (maybe because I like him? XD)
HEHEHEHEHE.......... *SHY*

Only those who added me on Skype and followed my blog previously
knows this blog so.
Everything here 都是真情告白！
No one knows this blog other than these people. :D
(i mean friends and relatives not including strangers)


Hmm, I found that many people ignores me. :T
On face book....... uhhh... -_-) Don't feel good.
Oh well. I've been treated like this for quite some time already.

Noticed cats playing with rabbits last week.
SO CUTE!!!!! I thought the cat is going to bite the rabbits. XD
But no, it ended up playing together, hopping around like rabbits.
And these rabbits are very smart, they wont get lost and simply go anywhere when they got out
from their cages.
They went out and played awhile with the cats and go back to their own place together with their cat friends.
WHAT......... Amazed. XD

Recently.

Recently..


- I got bloated. (by eating irregularly, drinking too much water at night, not getting enough sleep,
sits and do work too much )
- Pressured. And cried 2 times last week, because of assignments, and missed mama.
- Forgot to bring boyfriend to Ara Damansara, and Wondermilk.
- Tried chewing food with mouth open wide at home alone but failed. (too noisy)
- Successfully made baked potatoes+tuna+onion+vege and Potatoes+chicken fillet+vege+cheese
- Attempt on following a recipe to make Salmon meal (70% successful XD)
- Slept 13 hours after a assignment and freelance marathon. Continues today though. T^T
- Dreamt of a guy who chased me for almost a year in real life, he's doing the same thing again in dream, infront of my boyfriend,driving a rolls royce wearing a white suit.WALAO EH(he is rich in reality). 被人追的感觉实在很棒，哦～～
- Dreamt of sitting behind a bus, with Ying tong, my percussion partner. Going to somewhere to buy grocery for our band camp at school. HAHAHA!!! I MISS THOSE BAND TIME!!!
- Bought a whole big bag of daily products, food like vegetable, potatoes, some fillet last week to cook at home. (pokai now)
- Bought a fragrance candle to relax myself.
- Also uses candle to replace bathrooms bulb.
- Forgot to use water for paper clay. WTH!!!!
- Always update Uniqlo's promotions because they worth it!
- Checking some phones for myself. Gonna change already....
- Had Nujabes almost everyday for 4 hours. ARGH I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER NUJABES! his music will stay with us forever.



Feelings 0%-200%

- Got DARN scared 200% when a house flies flew out from the dustbin when I opened the tong sampah. WALAO EHHHH ran away straight. HUGE FLIES!!!
- Felt 101% shy and sweet when boyfriend spoke to me softly with eyes focused on me on bed before sleeping. Felt extremely shy not even dare to look at him.
- Felt so happy when boyfriend and course mates cares and motivates me.
- Romantic 101% when boyfriend hugs me from behind and watch movie on laptop together
- Unhappy that I cannot fit denim top from Uniqlo. Tried L but bust part is ugly, tight. XL slightly better but other places look loose and baggy. Boobs why like that, shirt why cutting so small. URGHHHH!!!!!



Animal page :

- Hooked up with a cute active yellow male cat near ma place. Invited him into the car and he accepted!!!! He's always there when I reach home in every evening and night. >O< CUTE!!!
- Bought 4 packs of doggy treats for the 3 kids at home. Lamb, chicken, steak, beef flavor sticks. THEY LOVE IT YAY!!!
- Noticed some noise and got scared behind the window right in my room. It's a yellow adult cat hanging out there everyday. Stepping on some plastic that made the spooky noise.

lil doodles from sketchbook

A mixed media portrait of me.
Finally I drew myself. XD

OH our childhood!!!

Ipoh oldtown.

Some stuffs from my sketchbook

I must draw more.
I must build a consistent artstyle.

Bad. Bad indeed. The worse.

I hate being like this, staying up late, cannot even sleep when I force myself to get some rest.
Unable to present in class. That's the biggest thing I ever done.
Worse.


I like the subject, I really like it.
But for some reasons I have to change my direction and subject
last minute and this gave me a hard time.
Not only this, I shouldn't be taking any jobs during college time.

This ain't a good idea although you might think that this is an opportunity of
trying to balance and doing more stuffs in shorter time.
It sucks. It make me feel so sucky.
I am late for half an hour this time, late.
Marks will be deducted. Doomed.
I am mad and I feel so disappointed in myself, I really really do.

But I am glad that Suhan Jack and bebe texted and checked me out.
It's so supportive. I do feel so happy that actually someone do cares about me.

Also, I am very very happy that Mr F accompanied me all the time until I go to Sunway.
Stayed up without sleep with me, motivates me, helps me to solve problems, calms me down.
And always there for me when I need somebody to talk to.
I am so happy that I got these people around me.

I love you guys.
Without you all I won't be able to submit today. :')

So end that negative aura and stop regretting about it ANGEL!!!
Move on and find ways to improve the current design and
finish everything that need to be done!
Firstly, sleep. Wake up and eat then start doing work.





RAWR!!!

Finally

Made in illustrator, by me.
Brand new Aeroplane chess board game.

I suffered from hunger and sleepiness for days because of this assignment.
Definitely not doing one piece like that above only.
Still more.

Tried to do something more vector this time and finally.. Yeah!
I think I kinda achieved what I want but still. More room to improve!

The most gek sim part is my characters are still not fully dried.
Done my paper clay.
Since I am unable to submit it on time, then I shall remake them and redo this subject as one
of the project for my portfolio.
Because I put hell lot of effort in it.

Been eating one meal per day for almost 5 6 days in 2 weeks.
Bad habit.


Biggest disappointment in the semester.
I never got so tired and so frustrated dealing with my assignments.
Probably because of my freelance work too, I cannot push cause thats my cousin.
SIGHHHHHH... A lot of problems.
A lot of pressure.
Although I submitted this heavy assignment, still, I don't feel happy cause I still
have tons of freelance work to do.

I need a break.

Almost 2 days did not sleep already. Managed to have a power nap yesterday only.
Challenging like a survival game. Wow we're actually playing a game.

Cheers to all! we survived!!!

18 Jan I still can fit both !! WAHAHA!!!

Tried out the jacket I bought since form 4.
MUAHAHA I still can fit!!! A lil bit tight though. :P
Must jot down the date I tried YEHEHE..

18 Jan 2013

Check out that lazy ass behind me.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
He can sleep and ignore both of our phone's alarm ringtone
forever. FOREVER and I am the one who
stops the alarm ringing.
BEH TAHANNNNN.........

But I still think you're cute. XD

MUAHAHA I can fit this too!!!
Bought this ins Hong Kong for many years already(form 3/4), cost a hundred or 200 something, cannot remember.

It's in bronze color, material is very unique and quite thick but comfy.
Made in Japan, sold in Hong Kong.
There's a zip behind and it reveals a hoodie when you unzip it.
very interesting jacket.
Luckily I still fits well, a ll bit loose.
UHUHUHUHU~~

Gonna take a picture of it using DSLR,

That spooky human being.......

He says he's obsessed with my fingers.
SOT!!!!! But he's the only guy who thinks and says I look cute.
*melts*

Actually Mr F looks quite bad boy-ish.
Right??

                         

Frandé 法蘭黛樂團 . One of my favorite Taiwan Indie Rock Band.

Her voice is absolutely lovely, sweet yet sexy.

Kinda listened to others, I like her the most.

HAHAHAHA.. Maybe the elements in her music is more dreamy, i prefer her kind.

But not all of her songs are so soft and dreamy, still a lot of rock elements.

However, I like this band a lot. :D

Main factor is her voice her techniques and the aura of this band's songs.

Of course different from Kishi Bashi and Shugo which I like A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Those are super dreamy and pure. 

ARGHHHH!HH!H!H!H!H!!

Very very experimental. Shugo's new album. IM WAITING!!!! XD

有些开心，也有些羡慕。

应该做功课的，但是刚巧她上传了一些照片，让我忍不住好奇心看看她们的照片。
分开了快5 6 年了，我们还是朋友关系，很好对不对？
对呀，的确很难得。

她们看起来好幸福呀，替她感到高兴，
至少看得出她女朋友比之前的更疼爱她。
她依然坚持自己的选择，非常勇敢。
相信她们可以感化他的父母。

如果让现在的我遇见她，我绝对不会放弃，
我一定会坚持和她在一起。
现在的我更勇敢，更坚持，更相信爱能感化世界。


不过就是有缘没分。


我们各走各了，我们走向不同的方向。
但依然选择刺激的，有挑战性的。
更准确的因该说我们更热爱现在的自己，现在的她／他。

依然在看着她的updates，一样是朋友。
支持你。

Inspired by Singh.

Yesterday, someone awesome called me and asked me out to yumcha around sunway.

Bahgwan Singh!!!!!

Luckily I haven't go home that time, it was raining cats and dogs out there.

We had teh tarik, updating each other our current life in Syaaz.

Every time we meet up, I am strongly inspired by him.

I mean, the way he sees life and the way he lives his life is so interesting.

Same age, but he been to so many countries and met so many people around the world.

He's been doing all kinds of job, learning different stuffs from different fields.

Studies piloting, hikes everywhere with different people, goes to conferences,

trips, working as different occupations.

And the important part is he enjoys them all. 

And the awesome thing is he works hard, build good connections and really aim for his target.

Singh have clear targets and clear time period to achieve all targets.

Life is short he says, life is for us to experience as much as possible before it ends.

He recommend me not to work in the field for a year or 2 years right after graduating.

Make use of this period and go out and see the world, work as waitress, florist, some other occupations that I never tried and never thought of before.

Get out from Ipoh, or KL or even Malaysia and experience culture and make more friends.

He's right, if I start my life as a designer after graduating, I will be doing this for many years and

it's impossible for me to change to other fields.

Not saying that I wont be doing design in future, and I will be unstable in my work. NO.

But talking about experiencing different lives.

Yes, I am planning to save some money go to somewhere else to start an independent life,

work and travel for a year or more.

I need a solid plan for this.

I don't want to lock myself in my comfort zone doing what I do best.

Just like current semester. I am doing something I do bad, crafts and graphic design.

Not saying my illustration is better, it sucks too. I haven't been drawing for weeks other than 

the digital portrait.

Man this sucks, this is so bad.

Luckily there's a subject called Imagery, working on our creativity and imagination.

Comparing sketchbooks, seems that I doodle more in Imagery sketchbooks!

I should be doing more. New year new sketchbook.

Hmph hmph~

Singh is going to India soon and turkey next year.

MANNNN so good!!!

After Taiwan trip, he bought me souvenirs and some he made it by himself.

Awww so sweet. THANKS!

Life is short, life is even shorter than you imagine and we're given a chance to be a human and experience everything.

Why not we enjoy life, go travel, see more stuffs and work as what you really like?

Enjoy what we're doing now, find ways to see them as something useful and challenging,

even though I am stress like hell yesterday, after meeting singh,

I feel much more better. He taught me how to enjoy what I am doing right now.

Taught me how to make fun, make my life worth it.

And yes, he been though a lot previously and grew so much after things happened.

The word future is such an interesting word. 

Don't see it as a negative thing, see it as your hope and freedom.  :D

**Enjoy your life mates! I am sure you guys will have a bright and awesome future!**

1st 2013

First visit in 2013.
During the most stressful period in the semester.


Did enjoyed most of the time with this guy here but feel sorry for letting
him sleep late together with me again.
This time, is not normal kind of late, is really early morning, at 5a.m for 2 days.
Haha, again, not much surprise but this time I really felt support from him, physically and mentally when the time I feel depressed the most.
These few days were a challenge, dealing with course works and freelance works.
Fighting with my body, and my brain, trying to push the limits further and finally I made it.
But it doesn't goes so well as expected, for some.

OH TOA.
I got no college and uni life like what they described.
This is the cons of studying here we all knows that, but blame who?
No need to blame, this is our sacrifices in order to achieve higher level of success.


Yes I desperately need sleep. Oh My Buddha.
Please spare me some time.
I have to calm down myself and feel less guilty for not working on assignments for few hours.
This is so tiring my braincells died a lot after these few days.
Alright need sleep still got morning class tomorrow. Oh well.
Complains stops here.


Hey bee, I really really appreciate your visit especially this time.
Thanks for cooling me down, helping me out solving problems and giving me
100% support although I know you're a bit off focus -_-)
But still, not much boyfriends will accompany their girl a side doing their own work and trying to
keep themselves awake by doing something else.
Hugs.......... T^T)
I really need you all the time (sounds very very sticky)

I <3 darling.="darling." p="p" you="you">Had a wonderful time with you. Thank you :3

Illustration practice

Got so bored and stressful of assignments so.. XD

Working on a friend's present, a Lee Hom portrait.
MANNN drank white coffee and I couldn't sleep
thats why I started this.

Skills getting worse.
Cannot blend well. Dare not to put so much attitude.
Sigh.
Skill will really get bad if I dont keep drawing constantly.
Hopefully the final version will be better.


USH!!!!

Foundation year - Now

before 2010

Remember I drew this as a present for Frederick,
a NS friend who bus me to give him some work.
HAHAHAHA he's in US now, far far away~

AHA,, Im also drawing animals and flowers and stuffs.
Curly and swirly stuffs with thin lines.
Line art. That was back in 2009 then.
Now? huge difference right?

I am a Shaman King fan so I drew this for fun in 2009.
UUUHUHUHUHU...I loveee Foster~

The second class of figure studies back in 2010.
Drawing each other.
HAHAHAH OMG we're just too BL influenced until we draw each other
like some BL characters.

Also not to forget the epic time when both of our works
were sticked on the wall side by side and
formed a GL story. XD

Few years ago, I took buses to school and back home.
These are those time that I draw a lot.
Cause rapid KL is really.. Okay slow and jam on the road.

SEXY MAN'S SEXY ASS OMG!!!
LOVE IT!!!

This too on TOA website.
WHAT?!!!!

Used to draw anytime anywhere.
2010.

Favorite time,
FIGURE STUDIES!!!
That on the left is on TOA website and I was like...
WHAT SERIOUSLY ?!

HAHA 2010, when I'm in a saloon.

First detailed sketch in my very first sketchbook in 2010.
Foundation year.

This is the most challenging one. WALAO EHHHH...

Remember I did this with Peiying, not in TOA anymore.
A history of art's reinvent idea. AHAH.
We really tried our best in foundation time!!!
NOT KIDDING!

I remember lecturer says the paint is too thick,
is like oil painting already.
Because last time, I really tend to add more and more layers. Foundation time ma,
noobie ma. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

2010. The time we first got into a designs school, what an exciting moment, never thought that
I have a chance to study here. Like really, I love ma college.
It's been so fun man!
We always say foundation year is so busy this and that, now?
I think I like foundation more. Cause it have to do with a lot of design and illustration basic and
need a lot of hand work.
I really really wanna go back and do this again.
Without assignments behind me. URGH!!!

May be an excuse.
I shouldn't be hoping this and that to happen
but should do it as soon as possible before I graduate. :)

Close friends

To be honest. I don't really have close friends who treat me like close friends.
Is it? I may be quiet and shy or something, don't know how to communicate..
There's this one day I chat with my younger cousin sis, and I am so surprise that
she already don't care much about friends and say..
"Friends will graduate, will find new friends, and no friends will be with you from now till you grow old."

Yeah true but then, I still believe some friends can keep close connections with you
even you're graduated or married.
Because they really appreciate and see you importantly.

I'm always alone compare to other people that have close siblings, I mean the gap of age is not so far.
Im cool with my sisters now, cause I'm going to be an adult already, on the way.
At least easier to communicate with them.
Again, friends friends friends.
Some friends I do feel comfortable to be with and talk to doesn't really that close to me.
And sometimes I am behaving like ass. (dont feel like going out in a bunch, being in a crowd)
But this made me feel lonely somehow. ._.)
自己拿来的咯。

What "like" means to me? **FB like button**
Like means you like my work? Support me? Like me as a friend only like?
Like it cause you like it?

Once in a while, I will think like this:
I don't have much likes. I suck. No talent no connections no close to friends nobody likes.
People like something common and not so great more. suck i do suck. Maybe my stuffs is not even common. Is suckier that common.
._.)a

Just splitting out. I am fine and okay.

I need to talk

You're my red nose reindeer for my Christmas? 

I seriously need you by my side...
You're the person I want to talk to, to share all my stuffs.
I am so stressful dealing with everything, urgh...
I just want to discuss and discuss and discuss and talk and laugh and sot with you.
Make me less stressful please. :'<
Need more talking... *O*

Talking to mates is not enough.
I need more!! MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!


Pleaseee let me pass this difficult task in this semester.

TIME GIMME TIME!!!

I'm 70% panic for my next next week's submission.
Next Monday have one and next next gonna be the toughest one.
I still have freelance work on hand. OH MAN.
I cannot sleep more than 5 hours already.


Brainstorming for the event is so so time consuming.
Cause it's something I never did before, finance and business stuffs.
URGH!!! TOO PACK TIME NOT ENOUGH!!!

Some style I never tried before.
Heh I love men with this kind of look. Yummeh. :9

I always love to draw happy stuffs.
No more emo no more childish angel.
Erase all those negativity >:)

Maybe these it's what I'm chasing for.
And I subconsciously portrays this idea on what my illustrations. 

What these mean to me?

I feel so far behind.
I doubt my talent, like really doubt.

Flashing back at degree 1st year, 2nd year.
The reason of me taking this pathway is to strengthen my skills.
My graphic design skills......
I felt so energetic. But now... Battery low. Alert!!!

Assignments that I received give me such a horrible shock.
I knew I dislike them. I knew it when I received the brief.
But why I want to continue them?
I don't feel happy like how I react to the other pathway's assignments.
Did I chose right?

Learning GD not just about polishing my design sense and skills,
it's about working opportunities too.

I am so sure that I will be much happier in the other pathway.
I can do hell lot better than what I am doing now.
These facts are true for sure and you know that too.
Mates who's reading this post.
But why am I here? To prove that I can do both?
To prove that I can pick up this pathway like a boss?
To prove that I also have talent?

But so far I see nothing.
So far i think I am still shitty.
Why diploma students can do so well.. This confuses me somehow.
Same batch but why?? I am doing so many research putting so much effort but
when i comes to constructing my own work..
Total frustration. Disappointment. What the hell I can do?
A single logo took me so long. SINGLE LOGO.
The feeling is not right, the strokes are weird. Why la what happen to me?

Looking at what I have in my albums.
Hmm. Again I doubt my photography skills.
I don't even know which level I'm standing at.
I dislike taking modeling pictures, but usually those pictures have more credits.
People love them more- Fashion Photography.
But I dislike people posing. Awkward.
I don't know. I think I don't have any talent.

Hmm what else.
Appearance.
Why the heck I care this topic so much?!
Again about hair face body thing.
Hmm. Sometimes I can feel that I am not so cared.
Among friends. Not so important.
They say everyone has their own importance no matter how.
Maybe I will be important some where else.. Maybe? Future?
What I want again.
To prove that I can be shinny? I can look better than before?
To make people like me more because of my appearance?


And I hate how people stares at boobs.
Wanna stare go watch online. Yeeyuck.
Poke their eyes gao gao. =_=)v

ME?! WHAT?!

The part time promoter look.
Took of cardigan only of course I won't wear this to promote.

Working as a cosmetic promoter is so hard.
My face have few layers of make ups.
But I don't wear fake lashes.
I wear once during sis's wedding dinner and it doesn't feel good.
The upper lash will stick to my bottom lash when I blink my eyes. -_-)m
Mascara too. I hate it. It sticks together top and bottom. Yuck.

Somehow I look thinner that time. SHIT.

Few days ago. OH MY ma hair is so short compare to the one on top!
\(*o*)/

OBVIOUSLY...... I gained some weight.
Cause of not sleeping early and eat breakfast?
I know I sit in front of my laptop for long long time and don't eat properly.
Wow Mr doesn't look like him at all. Who are you?!

The time I don't really care about my face and hair.
Lazy to take care of my face that time.
Wrong saloon. WRONG WRONG WRONG.

Me and joyce. OMGGG....
Her hair is growing longer but mine.... shorter.
I look like a goat or sheep pr something chewing grass. :B

That towel. HAHAHAHAHAHA
But i look different. Right....

Conclusion is... Hair and weight changes your look.
Man........... Angle is another idea. HMMM..
Time to sleep earlier.
Time to eat proper meals and exercise.  >:\

Should I grow my hair longer?

Will I look ugly in long hair? :(

Considering more than others

Ma lil hero :3
*wow aunty and uncle looking*

A month more will be our 2 years anniversary.

Time flies. So fast until I cannot even recognize some friends and relatives.

They grew so tall and mature omg....... Then I felt weird of stepping into the 20 year old circle.

Also I did not know that it's been 2 3 years stopped meeting dad's friends.

They look shocked when they saw me 2 days ago, Saturday night in my sister's party.

There's one particular uncle still look so hot :P

Semakin old semakin hot oh my i like uncles. AHAHAHAHA!!! 

The shocking news is dad keep introducing Mr F to my elder relatives.

OH this is like showing off to relatives that theres another cup of tea they need to drink in future.

"When only wanna marry? After college la!!! ", one of my aunt says.

WHAT?! The whole table of elder relatives look so happy ._.)a

These uncle aunties ahhhh... But they seems fine knowing he's a Malay.

But dad's friends is like........ I can sense their eyes......The aura......

Unbelievable aye?

Among my friends I thought I am the only Chinese Malay couple until today.

My form5 classmate approached me and talked about the our relationships and it happens to be the same!

IM NOT ALONE!

Chinese Malay couple but reverse family problems.

My family is cool about it, but his family.... not so?

And my friend's condition is the other way round.

Most of the chinese family cannot accept that la I know.

I am so glad that my family accepts him with open arms, treating him like a son,

eat together, celebrate birthday together, at least treat him well.

I wish his family can do so to me. Sigh.

Being together with a Malay boyfriend is a 100% challenge.

Been through a lot of stuffs in these 3 years from the day we first met until now.

So much considerations, so much restrictions and problems.

A whole list. really. 

Quarrel and quarrel and quarrel. 100% frustrated.

But this made us know each other even better. Correct?

Now I see you differently. You never bother how I look, never complained, maybe a lil bit teasing but it doesn't hurt.

You never ask me to change. Physically and mentally.

* but I see the importance of change my appearance HAHA *

You never say you want to leave me even I became a psycho.

Sigh, I've been cruel to me and you.. I doubt everything because it seems too happy to be real.

Now I shall not continue this idea. 

I want to be happy too. I want to be really happy.

Can we be so together?

Think from each other's view and be a better person?

Lets do this together and create a better life in 2013, also future.

Shall we? :D

Fujoshi Time. Asumiko Nakamura.

Really a Fujoshi now.

Since form 2 and 3, I already know I love homosexual stories, manga.

Maybe that affects my relationship too?

Nah not really......... right....?

OHHH it's too romantic.

I love it.
Especially Asumiko Nakamura's works.
I feel in deep love once I read her manga, Sotsu Syo Sei, a 2 book story.
I knew I will search up her works, more more more!!!
Because the long, thin and unbalanced anatomy, because the beautiful line art, unique unlike other
line arts, because of the touching stories, the unique characters and so on.
She doesn't produce BL (boys love) and GL (girls love) stories, there are normal kind of relationship stories.
I love the strokes, especially those character's shoulders and limbs.
Really like how she construct them. Looking at other manga doesn't give
much impact to me after reading her manga.
Of course there's still absolutely good shojo comics out there la.
I.... I just cannot help myself!!! I want more of her manga!!!

Her strokes are very thin, clean and smooth.
Very very relaxed but of course this skill is very hard to achieve especially
you wanted to create flow in one character itself.
优雅。很优雅的。
This is what I like in her manga.
Not only normal stories you see, I read one of her manga featuring
sumo in the storyline.
It shows the Japanese culture and the sumo sports in detail.
Introducing their costume, people working in the field, sports culture, sumo's traditions, the sumo's stadium etc.
Very nice, very fresh to look at. Not only love stories, more than that.

haha... Muahaha....WAHAHAHAHAAAA

Just bought this and I almost cried. (im too sensitive)

Luckily I read sotsu syo sei first before reading this because 

it has relationships, it links to the story. 

Ahhh I like it.
The first story of asumiko nakamura I read.

She made me love uncles. Hot ones. HAHAHAHAHHA
with this kinda hairstyle. XD

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She reminds me of myself, the old me.
Who does line arts.


I am so gay right now... The happy gay and the gay gay. XD
Really like homo stories I don't know why.