From my laptop

Aww.... On Xmas eve, before I turned 20.
Too bad big sis and dads not in the picture. T^T

Blue in between 2 yellow.
Mum and Mr.
People who always support and stand by me.
I love you guys. All of you in ma family.

Looking at this freaky face. :B

I noticed this monkey likes to poke my nose.
I'm gonna stick mine into you nose. >O<

Earlier on Xmas...... :')

Captain in the house. OMG. So proud. HAHAHA!!!

Yikmun and tuba player in the house.
>O&lt; Thanks for organizing too!

Did not expect a cake but when few of them went out together..
I knew something will happen. HAHAHHA!!
Damn miss you guys!!!

Thanks for what you're done for me!! I loveee you guys a lot!

Well, this is a very very happy day.
Been years and months did not meet some of them in this picture.
We are all so busy. My holidays are always odd :|
Can't even visit band, sigh!!!

These pretties planned this surprise not bad neh!
Nobody planned a birthday surprise for me before.
And not much friends celebrates birthday with me cause they will be celebrating
with lovers and family.
Even if they do, it must be a party going on at my house.

So touched when they bring the cake in. T^T)
Aww... Too bad others are not around in Ipoh.
Chat a lottttt that day.
This gathering should be longer. XD
We shall organize another gathering next time while every one's in Ipoh.

This time, the feeling is a bit weird, slightly different
We're no longer fresh graduates from secondary school.
Fenny even graduated from her college. 3 years already?
I really don't know it's been 3 years leaving the band, these band mates.
This time, we started to talk about our own studies, sharing and discussing on some topics.
Jiayin our band leader is taking psychology, interesting right?
There's mates taking finance, education, business, and also design courses.
What we'll talk about now is basically our old memories and updating friend's situation.
Oh this is so different.

I can feel that we're aging.
Time is too important to be ignored.
It's time to appreciate all your family and friends around you.

No matter how, thanks to these pretty ladies who made my day.
Must try to meet each other more from now on!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

20th birthday :D

All from Secret Recipe except the one with candles.
Those cheesecakes..... YUM :9

Big sis in red look different. XD New specs heh~~

Nothing much, at home.
But comfy and warm with my family.

CHECK OUT THE NEW BORN BABY!

Been there for me many years, every year's birthday.

Eldest nephew , Hayden the tiger.

A kind and cute aunty who helps my sister to take care of baby and sis. :D

MAMAMIA!!!!

THIS IS SO SCARY LA WEIIII!!!!

This Christmas we celebrate at home.

I don't know why but everyone seems a bit Otaku. 

*me*

HAHAHAHA... It's better for Hayden to hang out at home also, less troublesome.

We bought pizzas, chicken wings, cakes and fried chickens, hmmm.

Like a primary school girl's birthday right? XD

But I don't mind, I like it. Relax and less stressful :D

This is the first year celebrating with 2 nephew and my boyfriend.

Finally. XD

This time no present, all cash.

I don't mind as well. HAHAHAHA!!!

Anything is fine. 20 years old already, I don't want to grow older.

But I can't ._. )  The clock is ticking, time is so important.

I realized I missed a lot of good stuffs in my life, I should have been going out with friends and family.

Talk more, laugh more. Cause my life doesn't worth to be so emotional.

Yes I need a change. I can feel that I am changing, but of course I know another part of me stays the same.

Family members always think im like this this this, but actually, 

you're not with me all the time and you don't know what I do.

So. You know you know me well?

Neh, you're wrong.

Only I know who am I. 

Talking about age, yes, my face look so old. 

What happened to me?! *.*

Still, desperately wants a nice nose.

Haha, sis asked me whether I edited my face in my pictures anot.

Hmm :|  Why should I? 

I just tried to burn the edge of ma face to make it look smaller. Use dodge tool to 

lighten those highlighted parts. 

Angle is everyone's best friend :D

Trust me, you will have a perfect angle that makes you look damn nice and slim. HAHAH!!!

And the quality of the camera affects too. MUAHAHAHA!!!

The end. Next post. XD

Bird caged for life

Who wants to live in a cage forever?
People who can escape from the cage is those who stand strong to what they believe in,
those who never give up in searching ways to escape.

Obviously, you're not the one among these people.


You panic, struggled, got scared when you encounter problems.
Breaks down easily, lost direction, lost your goal, and lost faith in yourself.
So you're willing to be a follower for life?
It's your life, stop living your life for others.
You'll lost what you cherish, you'll lost what you want.
You'll break down into pieces alone in the end.
Suffering all by yourself, no, and also those around you who's affected.

You're not a girl, even girls can be stronger.

You know you have issues with the statement, then why can't you tell people what are you thinking?



至少我会表明我的想法，解释我的观看角度，再来商量。
不坚持，不勇敢，不尝试，怎么做大事？！
根本不可靠！
适当的时候我行我素是okay 的。
哦？
难道你真的要我label你为优柔寡断的人吗？

如果是那样，那就等着吧，
看看我能和这种人坚持多久。
Maybe you can accept this personality, but sorry not everyone can do so.

不要说我现实。
我忍受界限已快到边缘。


You can't even protect yourself, then how about me?

24th

Long time no see monkey!!

Felt a bit different when I saw him.
Too long did not meet up maybe~ :D

What happened today only we both knows.
HAHAHAHAHA nahhh.
We went for dinner only, no time for movie.
Nyeh you promised to bring me out for movie next week!!!
I remember that! XD

Very happy to see this monkey :3
I love ya :D

23th Non edited

This is Secret Garden, Ipoh.

Evening already, to make the day romantic,
dad chose to sit outside.
Not indoor. XD

Me and MAMA!

Thanks for the dinner!!

Sorry for the bad quality and color.
HAHA, this is mum's dish.
Fried chicken with spagetti.

This is my dish :9
Shashimi Fusion.
Seafood shashimi and spagetti. YUM MEH.

This is a bit too pack, but the food is awesome.
Especially the smoke salmon on the bottom left corner.

*all pictures were taken using phone*


Left out dad's lamb. Too bad!!!
3 pieces of lamb steak man, size M-L. Awesome.
Overall it's good~ The portion for each person is enough.
One thing is.... We're feeding mosquitoes out there. XD

Mum's fry chicken piece with tomato spaghetti puree is so good.
Damn activated my taste buds. XD
That smoked salmon...... ARGH!!!
And dad's lamb steak!!!

Wow. There's a young active cat playing around our table.
So....we fed it some steak and chicken. :P
It's loving it! XD
Dad ordered 2 3 glasses of German beer.
Walao..... Seriously did not drink alcohol for quite some time.
Felt so "wing" after one shot of half glasses of it.
Half a glass can make me "wing" one shot.
Doesn't really want to drink alcohol but since dad is so excited then okay lo..


Thank you mum and dad for the celebration!
Gotta go Secret Garden again if I have the chance! >O<

23th December

23th, celebrating my birthday earlier with mum and dad.
At Secret Garden, a cool place for couples and family.
Will upload the pictures soon.

I love ma hair 360Degree. 

23rd of December, I am finally home.

Home sweet home. No place is better than home, agree?

Yesterday which is 22th of December, Senghong fetched me out

to paradigm mall to cut our hair, muahaha.

Actually he's planning to celebrate ma birthday but too bad we got not enough time.

I saw a girl with copper red hair sitting nearby.

Wow, I really can't stop looking at her hair, it's so long, smooth and beautiful.

Copper color. She had her hair bleached on top and it made the color even striking!

Cannot breathe! Plus she looks pretty too.

Pretty face+long copper red hair+long legs= 超级万人迷

._.)

What am I feeling.

Again. 好自卑。

Whatever, next!!
I was so so so happy to go home.
Took bus back, cheaper and nearer!
It's time to save money.

I felt so good when I have friends that saves a lot of money.
I kinda got influenced by Jinfoong, OH YEAH!!!
3 4 pieces of 牛角面包 can be bought in rm3-4.
Usually one pice rm6-9.
WALAO EHHH!!! I love promotions.
And the best thing of the bread is, it's huge. XD
So yeah, rm 5 for 2 meals, how great is that! Tastes yummy!
And sometimes Cold Storage have promotions for limited items,
selling cheap but near to expiry date.

CHEAP AND AWESOME.
I'm loving it. :9

Road to Krabi

Road to Krabi.
Lil river full of fish and plants.

If I am there at midnight..
I will cut off the rope and set it free.
It's just too cruel letting it stand under hot son without water and food.
Hmph. I always wanted to break into pet shops to set the animals free.
SIGH!!!! Birds are meant to fly but they're caught in cages.

I really get frustrated with my hair sometimes even I like it short and tidy.
Because. I am jealous of girls having of long hair, playing with their hair.
And men actually like long hair girls more.

What am I talking about.
Sigh.



I'm chasing for something.
I tried to throw this thinking away but I failed in doing that.
Yes yes yes long hair girls are very feminine, beautiful, seductive.
Then? What am I trying to do with myself now?
Because I am not pretty enough so I wanna mimic them in a way?
Is this why I always dreamed of getting a nose job?
Yes and no.

Why can't I feel satisfied for just a day?
A week, a year ?
I am really torturing myself.

自我毁灭。

This phrase concludes me.
The real me. I am doing this to myself everyday.
In everything. I am unable to satisfy myself.

What i hate about tumblr is. . .
They don't suggest auto save function!

Damn I took 40 minutes to write a long study of my research in ma research blog,
done, click post.
Boom. A huge boom hits me.
Service down. Engineers are trying to work on it.
Refresh or visit the site later.

WALAO EHHHHHHHHHHHHH..
Frustration 100%.

move your ass to work people

A friend of mine says my face are becoming longer.
What.............. I cannot see any difference.
A picture before cutting my hair. AHHAAAAAA
AUNTY ANGEL.
Wow my eyes look so tired and the black eye..... eye bagssss...
Things are getting worse. 

What a mess, almost miss the bus back to Ipoh just to get my hair fixed.
I'm home!!! in Ipoh already!
I felt so hard working this time, I can feel the fire in me. (new hairstyle affects?)
Still studying some theories and psychology stuffs for my essay.
I'm feeling pressured, hell lot of pressure.
This is choking me.
So many thesis and books to study. WALAOO EHHHHHHHH......
I must at least finish one paper by tonight.
Must save my own ass before I cry and crawl on the floor begging for mercy.


Now I know, designers really cover a lot of knowledge in different industry.
Good. At least I won't get cheated easily. HAHAHA!!!
Studying degree course is right for me. I'm glad that I chose this course.
USH!!! Question approved! Idea approved!
MOVE THAT LAZY ASS NOW!!!!!!!

What a dream

Recently, all my dreams are quite negative.
Also, I've been sleeping with lights on for almost 2 weeks after
an accident happened in my life.
What the hell.
ARGHHHH and I have scenes like Resident Evil stuffs.

There's a scene where me and my classmates, I remember is class 1 mates,
Suhan, Jyemin, YS and a few stood infront of a building,
deciding where to eat our dinner.
The night sky is so empty without stars and moon.
Just simply dark.
In the dream, we're in Subang.
And the Paradigm Mall I saw is so awesome.
Look exclusive. We drove through there are we arrived somewhere la.
Canot remember. Then we took lift to the top floor I don't know why.
The building is an old western style old heritage, but it's quite tall.
Then okay, the scenes are random.
We just came out from the lift and like finished one task, standing infront
of the lift wondering wanna walk down using the stairs or lift.
Then me, and a few of us walk towards the stairs, then suddenly,
a fence separated my gang and another gang which stands in front of the lift.
We were so damn scared and was like, what the hell just happened.
There are no lights here, the stairs, then suddenly the other part of the gang
disappeared out of no where.
Wei Lyn in my gang, walked towards the stairs.
While wondering where are the other gang, my gang disappeared too, IN THE DARK.

THIS IS SCARY.
I am trapped in a old western heritage, and there's no one else here.
WALAO EHHHHH..........  Panic..
Then changed scene.
Forgot what happened.
But this is so freaky. I cannot live in the dark.
It's like... This is what will happen if I turn off the lights.


One day, I shall study dreams and the signs of dreams.
HAHAHAHAHA

our childhood

WALAH!!!
Look what I found in outside National Library!!
There's a booth selling these and more !
USHHH! bought some for the gang who went to
library with me.
 

I don't really eat this much compare to the one below :P

OH MAIII!
It's really rare out there now!
I too, prefer this more than M&M. XD

Suhan says the character designs are different. HAHA
I like this one too! Now everyone is sucking lolipops but not these babe!
OH i miss those time~~ This is extremely useful for my project so I shall keep these. XD 

The gang can't even hold on a minute XD
Ate on the spot and in the car already. AHAHAHA!
It's just so hard to find la. Awesome.
These snacks bought us back to childhood that day~
SO SO SO HAPPY~

On Sunday

I can hardly imagine how I handle freelance work.

There is a chance. And shocking news is I accepted it.

WHAT?!

Alright I admit that ma cousin sis is so damn geng in marketing and business.
Very very convincing.
She's already working for company now, and she haven't graduate.
Also the head of one department who handles every event making.
我们没有看错，它的确是女强人。
现在是，以后也是。

Of course I learnt a lot from her and I believe she learnt a lot about graphic design too.
Glad that she gave me this chance.
THANKS!!!! Her big boss accepted me! OMG!
What a start. Yes this is a really good experience.
USH! I will work hard for my assignments and that work!

UHUHU.. I am so damn glad that my essay is on the right track.
Only need to refine some info. YES! I never been so confident in writing essay!
Thanks to Daniel who gave me lots of explanations and ideas.
He does thinks a lot. HAHA!! Knowledgeable ~
ADMIRE OF ALL LECTURERS HERE AHHHH!!!!!
4 years is not enough for me to learn!!!!

Patrick wolf Bluebells

All time favorite.
AND THIS REMAKE VERSION IS SO SOOTHING!!!!
That voice......

The use of piano, accordion, harp is so good.
Feels like im in some kind of beautiful small lil village somewhere in france.
Deep in the forest. UHHHH...
Romantic folk pop music.
Previous albums are abit techno+folk pop+rock.
MMM...Still nice :D


**melts**

Patrick Wolf fever

His latest album Sundark and Riverlight.
He remade some of the best songs in previous few albums.
You can compare the original and this (from latest album), totally different feeling.
More acoustic, more minimal in instruments, and more folk.
Even the album art shows it already.

Chalk typeface, hand written typography has some feel of organic, homey, relaxing.
It still mysterious, and it is very special.

The play of instruments gave the whole song a new feeling.
Traditional culture touch. Violin is always his favorite, thats why he features Andrew Bird
in some performance. Almost every song in this album shows violin as one of the main
instrument. Lovely!
Those drums. UHHH... Bring me to the top of the hill and let me enjoy this.
**dies**




This is more electronic. A lil bit psycho in the beginning i have the feeling.
It's quirky. Its beautiful. Love the video.
Try comparing. I wouldn't say either one is better, I only can say the mood is different.

Been listening for 3 years, all his music.
I remember I wanted to do his album art design in 1st year for one of the assignment but
as I show the mood board, feedback I got is he's too indie and no one heard him.
And people don't know whether is he a vask or something.
Means he might have the handsome face but might not have the talent, taste in music.
Are you kidding me. Not all indie music sounds the same come on!!!
He is different from other indie music, he experiments with different instruments,
using many sounds effects like Fireworks sound in his song, Bluebell.
Something like Cocorosie who uses toy's sound effects as music.

I am a hip hip, jazz fan but when I go back to his songs, I fell in love every time.
Unique. That deep voice is one of the factor, it kills me.
Because I am a girl! a girl who love deep voices!
Oh........ I wish I could get his latest album for real.

+ + +

Suhan and me.
Let us smile through this semester people!!!
POSITIVE! +

Suhan, Jolvyn, Yvonne and me.
HAHAHA short hair gang.

After seeing ma lecturer today, I feel so much confident in my essay.
Or course I switched direction of writing my essay.
Okay I loveee his classes.
He is so knowledgeable and entertaining in the same time.
Also his brain works very very fast. Luckily I was here today.
We must stay positive! Work on our tough assignments and smile through the whole semester!

Bastion

Main menu page.
I like the trailer as well!

Choosing your 2 main weapons.
Man. I love this kinda style's game.

HAHA... FINALLY!
I got to move my fingers to click in some games!
I think Bastion is really cute and beautiful especially the art style and color scheme!
Too bad I can only play trials. Have to buy the game or.... something else only can play.
Hehh I prefer using joystick somehow :O
Used to play PS maybe?

Nice graphics by the way~

给真正的我。

我一直以为我坚强了，我能够顺利放下担心，继续向前走，
迎接美好的希望。
我有珍惜眼前人。我有正面面对问题。
我对得起自己我的确有正面接受问题。

可是，可是可是可是。

太多因素是我不得不担心，不多想。
后来我才知道，其实我心里从以前到现在是多么的不安。
多么的假，我在欺骗自己我做到了。

原来并没有。

如果我可以消除记忆，我非常希望我能过删除 4 个情景。
如果叫我不贪心，可以，消除 1 个就行了。
我真的好想好想像初恋似的，无忧无虑，
没有担心，没有烦恼，
敢爱敢恨。
彻彻底底的相信一个人。


我好自豪，我以为我好强。
我真的以为我能重新来过。
我鼓励他人，说到自己真的很正面似的。
面对自己，为什么我就不能好像鼓励他人般鼓励自己？
我心门依然没有完全打开。
我依然还是很负面。
有人在吗？你是否能告诉我如何解决这件事？

写这篇，也是为了提醒自己，
时时刻刻保持正面，快乐就好。
当然这也是我对自己的真心告白。

如果万一再来过，我能承受压力吗？
我能原谅自己原谅未来的他吗？
我能够在迎接新的未来吗？

12.12.12, 要生了！！！！！ 要生了！！！！！MY NEPHEW!!!

还兴奋好兴奋！！！！！！
太兴奋了！！！

我姐姐快生了！！！！
二姐的第一胎哦！！！！
是龙子哦！！！
第一次听到姐姐要生的时候那么兴奋！！
我姐姐还有力和我通电话咧。。
真不赖啊！ 保佑我结合我的小龙Nephew!!

Sorry big sis, it doesn't mean I don't care about you when you deliver tiger B.
HAHAHAHA..
Just that.. I were just too ignorant and kiddy that time.
I don't really pay much attention of people and don't really appreciate that time.
IM SORRY!!!! I am very sure that I will shout hard by your ears when you gonna deliver
your second child. Because.....
I AM DIFFERENT NOW! :D
OMG! THIS IS HISTORY MAKING!! (family history)

My sister had lunch and yeahh...
She gotta feeling!
She's in the hospital right now! OMG!
I am so excited to see my nephew's face!!!
My sister sounds so calm as always, cool sis!
She sure can do it, I have faith! USH!!!
What a lucky day!

12.12.12! Now we got no excuse to say we forget his birthday. :P

AMITABHA!!!!

gross but..

These few days..........

Were sharing videos, interviews and stories of murder cases, sex abuse cases,

canibalism stuffs and other crazy things with Jyemin.

AHHHH I found another voice in sharing these!!

I know it is gross, cruel, some stories from hell but still..

I love it. 

I like to know their stories, how they evolve from an egg,

becoming someone so unique.

Their distorted visions and perceptions is interesting to me.

Of course this is some psychological thing which involves a lot of studies

and it's not something I do for my career.

This is just a part of things I will do for free time.

Documentaries of war, 911 case, Ancient ruins and architecture draw my attention too.

I LOVE IT!!!! I LOVE I LOVE I LOVEEEEEE IT!!!!!

Yes I do get scared sometimes after watching their documentaries but then....

This is a lesson to all human living on earth! 

Watching all these things gave me a clearer understanding of reality,

the relationship between countries, between me and you.

I think I do learned a lot from these gross videos. 

There's some videos out there talking about how murderer thinks,

ar... Quite important to us? We all should know a bit of their behavior to prevent 

worse cases happens. 

After watching, the conclusion is : The world have a lot of unique people indeed. 

Some of the maniacs are not so guilty to me. 

It's their childhood that affects their mind, their "used to be" innocent soul.

Family education do affects. Felt quite pity for some of the murders and maniacs.

I believe some of them hates themselves and yeah they are trying to hold their urge

to do something bad again.

You say you are unique or weird?

I, myself think that we are considered normal. SUPER NORMAL compare to them.

I would say, I (as a future graphic designer/ illustrator) sees and understands things in a different way. And the borderline of restriction is a lil bit farther than people who's not in the creative industry? Also the things we can accept is more than them. 

Still...

We. Are. Just. Very. Normal.

两个有威严的父亲

当爸爸不笑时，那认真的脸孔，垂着厚厚的眼皮，那夹死苍蝇的双眉，
简直吓坏人。沉思的，看电视看报纸的，写讲稿时的脸孔也是一样。
有时脸上还有些油，轮廓光暗显得特别分明，看起来效果非一般。
爸爸看起来就是重量级的，特别有威严。（身为女儿的都不怎么怕啦其实）
因为是自己爸爸嘛，想出那么久了，都没那么怕，
而且女儿最厉害的就是撒娇嘛！ HAHAHA！！！
当然还是很尊敬爸爸咯～

没想到看见男朋友的爸爸。。。。
我觉得好害怕。( = ... =)
记得一年多前我们不小心遇到他爸爸，哦买。。
我好紧张。那是我们才刚开始拍拖，在意见嬷嬷档吃宵夜。。
竟然遇见了！！真的太巧了吧。。
他爸爸跟她长得好像哦。。不过是man版的。
他和我爸。。看起来大概是一样的，重量级爸爸。
看起来超有威严的！他爸爸的眼眉毛跟他一模一样，
翘翘的，看起来蛮凶的，很杀！
我有被杀到。。


原来看见很有威严的家长感觉是那么紧张害怕的。。
我终于可以理解我前男友和现任男朋友的感受。

A day with Suhan and YS

Only me and Suhan were sketching.
YSSSS sien sien there. XD
Phone not enough battery some more.

An interesting day!

I did not know that our Imagery class starts at 9.30 until yesterday OMG.

Suhan stayed with me and we were so so later for class.

Bryan taught us Arcylic!!! SO HAPPY!!!

We got to paint again after more than a year!!! I FEEL SO GREAT!

Seriously great!!!
Then me Suhan and YS went to swim in Klang to stretch our body and refresh our mind.
UHH This is torturing. My arms and body are so numb and heavy!!!
I wonder what's my size back then... I think is S. Now. L...
Can swim 10 lap non stop that time of course not speed swim la.
But now... 3 4 laps already made me suffocate especially my arms.
Guess that I did not exercise my whole arms fully even I did some aerobic exercise at home.
Hmm. I'm getting slower.. Fatter... and unhealthy.
Screw this. I must follow YS swimming kaki every week from now on.

Alright, I did not knew Suhan like mystery stuffs like mystery historical architecture.
I did follow some you tubers who uploads documentaries of mystery architecture,
bermuda triangle, Egyptian mysteries, UFOs' and murder cases.
I like something without an answer, unexplainable, or say something unbelievable.
Hak. Cannibalism is one.
Just watched an interview with a Japanese Canibal. Oh my Buddha.
I think the right sex education should be taught by family. Maybe school?
Cause this really affect one's perception and preference of sex.
Okay gross.

That night we 3 went to Tong Pak Fu to do some  life sketching
since it Friday night! :D
We deserve some life man!!! TOA students!!!
(although going to Tong Pak Fu is not that geng XD)
Just a treat for myself since I'm being too stressful last week.
Actually Suhan, I believe you can achieve the level you want if you try more art style
and techniques. I see talent in your sketchbook!
Be confident!!! Don't care about what people say! This is just a learning process.



Let's improve together, :D

Law can be unfair too

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=399038536839900&set=a.170624956347927.42491.170507696359653&type=1&theater


Read/ translate this and you will know.
What's the matter with Law.
Yes, wealthy people can twist law and truth.
 Not only this case, I read about someone who did something more cruel.
Japanese, kill girls, cut them into pieces and stores them in fridge.
Then slowly cook or eat them raw.
But this guy are not guilty at all cause his father is someone big in Japan so he got to escape from punishment.
Also, he published his own recipe and novel about his art of eating human.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!!!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH THOSE LAWYERS AND LAW?!
 My sister read an article about certain occupations can lead us to mental illness.
Lawyer is one cause they cannot even differentiate which is the real truth.



Oh yeah, graphic designers are in the list too. (.__.)
**I still think that we are normal**



Heard Suhan saying graphic designers have mental illness too.
Hmm. Maybe our way of thinking is slightly different compare to other people from other fields? I do agree only graphic designers/illustrators /people from the same industry can communicate better.
And I do realize the way of some friends from other courses sees and thinks differently. Like not that in-depth?
Maybe we analyzes too much.
Especially when we see prints, ads and something to do with graphic design. -_-)
Just complained about our signboard design with YS and Suhan while on the way to Klang's clubhouse to have a swim.
HAHAHAHHAAHHAHH SOME OF THE COLOR AND TYPO REALLY DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!

Nice orchestra version

  I have their orchestra plus album and I couldn't find the w hole album on youtube so... I upload mine. USHHHH!!!!! Too nice... That violin!!!
This is so not hip hop!!!
AWESOME.
Our band can actually use this album's song as competition piece.
URGH!!!!! FREAKING LOVE THE WHOLE ALBUM!!!!

I just cant stop struggling between graphic and illustration

Always always always...
I am always behaving like this.
Since when I cannot decide and satisfy of what I'm doing right now?

Illustration pathway's assignments are very tempting every time I heard them talking about it.
Doesn't mean I dislike graphic pathway but..
I can feel that I like to illustrate more.
Am I too selfish?
Lecturer was right last sem before choosing our pathway.
He says designers that can illustrate and do graphic design will be laku.
He suggest me to try on graphics.
Yes. Laku is laku. But somehow I can feel that my design sense is worse than illustration sense.
And talking about portfolio, I can feel that I'm actually digging my own grave.
You know what I mean?
If say I can do better in illustration, i think my portfolio can be better than now.
Not sure but still, I feel that I can do better in illustration pathway.

That time, I decided to go GD cause I suck in it and I wanted to learn more about it.
Or couse to improve my design skills.
I am trying hard to improve but seems that everything doesn't flow so well.
Cause?
Personal issue or maybe I do suck in GD.
I did hell lots of researches on GD and I really wanted to improve more like BOOM!!!!
I am not sure about now but obviously my hand craft finalisation works really..
Awful.

Talking about interest, yes both.
But I feel more relaxed in doing illustrations.
Is this a big problem?
I am not sure why I feel stress every time I open Illustrator.
My skills are to sucky and make me stress? Maybe.
It's to digitalized? Maybe.

Who doesn't use computer in refining works now....-_-)

But every time I hand draw something, I feel good about it.
Because I am good in it? (not so say good but better than GD?) Maybe
Because thats my hobby and interest? Maybe.
I often feel damn excited when I heard what are they doing.
I felt damn curious and energetic.
But when I receive GD's assignment brief.....
It's totally the other way round.
Stress is the only thing in my mind.

Question is.
Am I putting myself in a complicated situation?
Do I wanna do something I less like in future?
Should I do something I am good at?
Should I make my hobby, interest as a career?


What's wrong with me?
What's my problem??
I don't even know what do I want for now and future.
Some ass made my vision blur and now I am seriously confused and helpless.
And that big bad ass is myself.

我们

我忽然很想写写我们的事。。
结果想找我们三姐妹的照片都几乎没有。
有，都少之又少。。laptop比较不多照片，但是回忆中。。
我们三个一起的照片还真的不多。。

standard 1 时，你们都毕业上大学了。
form 1，你们已经出来工作了。
我们在一起的时间根本不长。
现在，你们嫁了，还莫名其妙的多出一个孩子。
转眼间，大家都好像变了好多，不是吗？
大姐打着肚子时都觉得怪怪的，现在连二姐也是。。
忽然觉得更怪。。现在有另一个生命踏入我们的世界，
家人有这样多了一两个。。


本来读着中学nerd nerd的姐姐们忽然就有了自己的家。
我对你们的映像就是那时候，忽然就现在。
我们拍的照片，我都才6 7 岁。。
近几年拍的照片，是在你们两结婚的时候。
大姐结婚好像也没有拍到我们三姐妹的。。
我最记得的合照使我们三姐妹在泰国曼谷的酒店对着镜子拍的。
那时候我还顶着黄梨头，大姐办长短的头发，二姐的还好不算很长。。
不是搞笑，我们那时候还真苗条！！！！ （比起现在。。XD）
看看。。真的是，我衣服那时候是S size..
我发生了什么事。。
虽然说我们三个样子很大分别，性格不用讲，我们还经常有摩擦。
你们还整天吓我，讲我，骗我。。。。。。
我也常常逼你们亲我（现在很少）。。
complain 啦说你们欺负我。。
但是我知道你们还是默默地支持我，保护我，爱护我。。

写着，鼻子一酸，泪流像瀑布似的流下。。
鼻涕也一起。。。
忽然好想你们。。
我懂你们还是疼我的。我也是。。
不行，在写下去我会哭上一小时。。
是我本来就情绪化还是这是因为压力？
好我承认我是大哭包。。有事没事都哭。。

没有东西是比家人更重要。
任何事物的价值都不比家人。

我也很少说了。。
我还是爱你们的。

祝你们永远幸福。

Angel 妹妹上。

By Milton Glaser

"In terms of beauty, I never understood why designers felt they had to believe in anything. Because one lesson of history is, even the most contradictory movements turn out to be beautiful. You can't trust style. It's only a device for encoding material in a certain form, so why develop a sense of allegiance? It's a kind of design fundamentalism. I mean, the old slogan 'Less is more' was bullshit. What does that mean? Sometimes less is more; sometimes less is less. A Persian rug is not less beautiful than a solid-color rug."

-Milton Glaser.


Well said. 

Late night reading mood

I'm not sure why I am able to stay up so late recently
but I am pretty sure it has to be related with my previous deadlines.
Honestly, I can feel that my chin is getting sharper.
What a great news! for a fatty. XO

Having too much freedom is actually torturing.
Been reading related articles of my essay ideas for 4 5 hours
and I got no idea which one to write.
Some of them are quite new and don't have much evidence to support any argument.
Some are too wide until I cannot finish reading in 1 day.

Some are irrelevant to my course... Hmmmm...
Seems like having to much freedom on choosing your own topic of an essay is harder than I thought.
Man..
What makes simple illustration greater than messy illustrations?
What's the difference between graphic illustrations and illustrations?
Posters need to be artistic to be effective?
Gender and generation effects aesthetic cultures?
Gender effects consumerism?


**more and more questions ar raised by angel's brain....**

Suddenly don't now what word brought me to Immanuel Kant.
Walao ehhh theoriesssss.....
**faint**

朋友

忽然我明白到“正真朋友不需要很多，
那几个就够了” 的意思。
之前看见一篇文章，写着人生理不能缺少的几种朋友。
支持你的，给你动力的，还有的，我忘了。。。。。哈哈！

好高兴是，很少朋友出去旅游会买手信或是
将看见像你的，你会喜欢的东西买下来送给你。
我有几位朋友，很有心。
话不多，不同班，但是我很喜欢她。
也比较年长，说话想法都和别人不同。
喜欢分析，不吝啬提供知识和建议，而且
喜欢分享。

我们有着相同的爱好，我们喜欢life sketching,
illustration, 当然有graphic design。
记得有一次，她送了我粽子，马六甲的。
nyonya和咸的。说我没有回家乡，没得吃。
我的确没吃过蓝色的nyonya粽，很高兴！
其实不用的，她一给就给了两大粒，很好吃哦！！！
忍不住一天把他们吃完，呵呵呵呵～

我最大的享受除了design,音乐，等。。
我还喜欢听别人的故事。
我喜欢听被人分享，听听别人的经历等。
可能我想多了解这些人，可能我喜欢听别人多姿多彩的生活，
来得到解脱，得到人生的希望。

感谢这位朋友，功课什么的都很有心地给建议，
甚至帮我找灵感，reference 等。
这种朋友／校友，我有两个，我很开心。
不多朋友回想起我，我只是大众里很平凡的一个人。
不仔细看，的确很难发觉我的存在，我不特出吧？
我也不会散发某种魅力，也不会成为焦点。
有时我抱怨，有时我享受。
不喜欢被冷落，但有时喜欢独处／清静的环境。
总之就是矛盾。

当我有问题时，没出现时，没想到有人还会发短信，
FB我关心我的状况。
这对我来说是很大条的事，我特别特别感动，
不多人对我这样，我从以前也很渴望这种待遇。

很高兴我有这些朋友。
感谢你们听我哭诉，给我意见，支持和关心，让我觉得我并不孤单。

Kaleidoscope Experiments?

Found some tutorials and tried myself this morning.
This is actually a part of a picture in Cameron, in a flower farm, with a bangla on
working on a machine. HAHAHA!!!

And this is actually a part of Connie's cat woman photo.
interesting shape!

Love this one the most. The composition of cropped image is just right.
A photo of a chilling space that my relative built it in their farm, Cameron.

Slept at 6... woke up at 9 something..
Keep moving.. Keep moving..

Would be better...

I sent this pic to let Suhan my classmate to show my progress but
she laughed at my face.OMG too yongsui and weird looking.
HAHAHA!!!! This took me 4-5 hours..
But another side's finishing suck.
like SUCK.

experiments are also like that.
Especially the first attempt.
Sure look ugly and normal.
Doesn't make sense.

While spending time at Paparich,
"POP!", idea popped out! I wanted to do something similar to blocks,
shape of blocks and the 3D effect. And also a lil bit illusion effect.
Using my main colors from my poker block's illustration.
Tried alot of different stuffs cause my P doesn't look like P.

At last.
P.B. Poker Block.
The logo that I really really like among
other work's I've done.
And I does have optical illusions of space!
*Breaks down in tears....*
(although the braille look weird and ugly.....)

Obviously there's a lot of work to be sharpen.
I think I can do better if I have more time to experiment more.
I do think I improved but still... sucky.

I have too many epic classmates\course mates.
Work hard is what I need to do. Untalented people.
No excuse. Work it out.